cordelia

i just wanna be me

[lavenderlife]

Is liking someone the hardest thing that can happen to you? I think the hardest part is when someone doesn't even know you exist. A year has passed and the feelings have been building up in my heart, and now they're suffocating me. I want to stop, but I don't know how.

[lavenderlife]

Do you believe in destiny?

If someone had told me 7 years ago that I would be learning Russian, I wouldn’t have believed them; it was never on my radar. I wanted to study Korean or Chinese, but I found out that registration had closed, and Russian was the only option left... so I just went for it.

Looking back, I remembered a day when I was listening to a song called "Камин" (Kamin). I loved it so much and thought to myself: "I wish I could understand its lyrics without looking at the translation." Back then, I didn't even know the song was actually in Russian!

And now I ask myself, did my wish just come true without me even trying? I truly realized that it’s destiny; you could be planning for one thing, only to find yourself in a completely different place.

[lavenderlife]

hi >.<

just needed a safe space to unload my thoughts and feelings—the ones i can't really share with the people i know. i always tell myself i don’t care about what others think, but honestly, subconsciously, i do. so i'm here to just breathe and write without the fear of being judged.