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hello! welcome to my blog ( if you know who I am, no you don’t <3 ). you can call me lavender! this blog is mostly centered around nsfw block men things (specifically scarian) so minors will be blocked! I’m on ao3 @ lavendernlilac

beware! suggestive and nsfw content will be discussed! (there will be nsfw ficlets/fics here)

please feel free to send any questions, thoughts, or even prompts if you’d like! I’ll try to answer them all <3

this is a scarian centric blog! specifically top/dom scar and bottom/sub grian

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#strawberry lemonade #strawberry qna

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lavendernlilac

I was rereading the whole of bgau (including the nsfw) and like..

her pink stained lips:

“G…” Scar trails, looking at her with this painfully pleading expression. “Don’t run from me, please. Don’t shut me out again.”

should i call you pretty bunny?:

“I don’t know who you want me to be!”

Something painful tugs on his heart as he recalls the memory, how it killed him to hear Grian so distressed like that. Even now, the guilt of not noticing still lingers, wraps around him and sinks into the spaces between his bones, between his ribs where it can grab his heart and squeeze it. It’s a faint ache now, a phantom pain that bothers him when it’s moody and dark, when the sun in his arms is covered by storm clouds and raining.

IQHAHWJWJA lines like that SCARES THE LIVIN HELL OUTTA ME. (But I live for the angst)

If i ask for an explanation, that'd be spoilers soo, just simple questions.... Are those situations gonna be extremely relevant to the story? And like, are we gonna get a fic for that? hshs

JUMPS AROUND IN EXCITEMENT I WAS WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO POINT IT OUT YIPPEEEE YIPPEEEEE

yes :3 they’re going to be so extremely relevant to the story and there Will be a fic for it. I’ve been planning this plot point for months, you guys have no idea how excited I am for it

I’ll say this at the very least: it’s a part of the next big arc of grian and scar’s relationship :>

I love the fact that scar calls grian lots of pet names throughout bgau but one simple “baby” from grian can instantly kill the man. scar goodtimes the dorkiest man alive

(also thank you for spreading bunny grian propaganda it’s very cute🩷)

REAL AND TRUE!!!!

I’ve talked about it a bit before but grian (fem or not) has never struck me as the kind of character to use pet names for someone. like at all. if she does it’s for the bit. a little tease. but I can’t see grian using a pet name seriously for Anyone

grian uses “handsome” when referring to scar regularly and that feels the most like her, but that’s probably about it? however! I do think there are certain moments where it can work, when the vibes are right and it doesn’t feel awkward to write or read

regardless, any term of endearment from grian and scar’s brain crashes like a window’s computer. he’s down for the count

(🙂‍↕️ my pleasure, I love bunny grian sm)

#letters #bodyguard au

this may have been asked before but what would happen in a situation where ari was a hostage used against hotguy? i'm talking totally knocked out, hurt, and incapacitated ari who's unable to badass her way out of the situation. im just imagining the hurt/comfort possibilities after everything is said and done

haha wow that’s such an interesting question! totally not something I’ve thought about before haha! not like I would think about this kind of scenario in which grian was used against scar as a hostage and he loses his shit from anger and pure terror and do anything nefarious with it! haha nooooo. I wonder what Would happen, too bad it totally definitely won’t show up in the au at some point or anything

grian’s kidnappers are gonna get their asses handed to them and then some… sure hope scar doesn’t come close to killing them

#letters #bodyguard au #smiles so very innocently #and widely

Y’know what, it’s missing bgau hours. any bgau askers? 👀

#🪻#for once feeling the motivation to ramble about them <3

ooohh could it be possible that bgau grian has avoidant attachment? Or is that not the right diagnosis

THATS SUCH A GOOD POINT WAIT…

okay okay. looking over the different attachment styles, I def think she’s got avoidant attachment tendencies. also some anxious attachment too 🙂‍↕️ I’d say it’s a mix of both probably

which is so interesting because I feel like scar is Also somewhat avoidant, but he’s way closer to the secure attachment style as well

#letters #bodyguard au

The thing I love the most about your bgau is the intimacy that fills every chapter, and I'm not even talking about sexually. It's in the way Scar always has his attention on Grian, at all times, and is ready to be with her at the drop of a hat. It's in the way he quietly notices things, like with how she's feeling and when she's not ok, and he softly helps her. It's in the way Scar completely and wholeheartedly loves Grian with everything he has and isn't afraid to tell her constantly. But it's also the softness in which Grian let's Scar in. The times when she lets him into her space when previously only a few people did. The times where she's so nervous and so afraid and yet he's there with her throughout it all and I just. They're everything to me. They're everything a couple should be and I love them

SOBS YEAH 🥺🥺🥺

there’s so much intimacy between them that just makes my heart melt

scar is so attentive to grian and more than willing to go above and beyond for her. and he will constantly tell her that. he’s so unafraid to tell her how much he loves her, and he loves so loudly. he’s at her side no matter what, and he cares so damn much. it’s his greatest strength and his biggest character flaw (winks). but he’s taken so much time to know her and learn her, to understand her. there’s so much intimacy in scar’s softness with grian, physically and emotionally. he isn’t afraid to be himself with her, crack a goofy joke or three, ramble about star wars or mother spore

and grian !!! god grian. she cares so much about scar too 🥺 the amount of trust she places in him to let him and hold him close, when it’s something she’s been so scared of. I think there are two points specifically about grian’s side of their intimacy that throws me onto the ground

1) she has so many reasons to run away from it all, but she tries so hard to be there emotionally for scar. she isn’t good at navigating emotions or being open about them, but she tries. she snaps and gets defensive, but almost every time grian pushes through that initial reaction for scar. she tries and tries, and that? that is one of my favorite aspects about her. here’s this character that’s created walls of steel lined with pointy traps, spikes—whatever she can use—because that’s what helped her survive. that’s what protected her

in comes scar, this gentle, incredibly sweet man with a heart of gold, and suddenly grian doesn’t need all those protections anymore. she doesn’t want them, because scar has shown her that she can come out of them with him. but she’s had these protections, these thorns for so long that they’re deeply ingrained and removing them will take a long time. but grian is trying. she’s found someone worth trying for, someone she’s willing to trust and GOD if that isn’t something that hits so hard

I’m gonna eat these words soon

2) grian sees hotguy for who he is, and she loves him so deeply. she sees the man behind the mask, everything he sacrifices, the pain he carries. and she’s his pillar through it all. she gets angry on his behalf, worries about him, cares so much for him. the softness and intimacy in the way grian is there to greet him after patrol, willing to stay up for him, to hold him when he needs to let everything go… grian sees it all. she offers to be it all for him, whatever he needs

they’re SO everything to me too 🥹 I love their relationship so incredibly much. they’re just so special and they feel so real to me. their relationship feels so rounded and full, and you see how much they love each other in word and action. they’re truly each other’s soulmate ue ue ue ue ue

#letters #bodyguard au #I will never not be emotional over them #I just. love them so much man #so very much

JUST READ THE RECENT FICC 🥹🩵🩵

quick question! are you considering writing a fic about their first time having sex? :3

:D I hope you enjoyed it!!!

it’s something I was considering, yes! I can’t say when because my brain has been??? really funky about sex/nsfw stuff lately so I lowkey haven’t been thinking about any of it

but !!! I definitely want to at some point 🥺 their first time would be so soft and tender

#letters #bodyguard au

the way I Have to giggle because every time I post a new bgau fic on my main ao3, I watch my user subscriptions drop like flies omg

#🪻#I just think it’s funny atp

the scar + hg interaction in the most recent bgau fic reminds me of the double incident <3

hehe :3c

#letters #bodyguard au

drunk bgau scar getting feisty with grian because he thought she was another woman 😭 like:

“no!! don’t touch me! I have a very beautiful, smart, gorgeous girlfriend back home, and she will kick your ass!”

only for grian to remind him that it’s her (hiding her face getting red of course)

oh my GOD 😭😭😭

scar being so drunk that he doesn’t realize it’s grian is Incredibly funny SNCJDKKDDKKD she like. goes to hug him or something and scar is scandalized because in his mind he’s being hugged by a stranger

grian is trying not to laugh at him (she fails) and is taking his hands while he’s squeezing his eyes shut and looking away from her to “stay loyal.” until grian is saying his name and laughing because it’s her

the moment scar realizes it’s grian his whole face lights up and he scoops her up into such a big hug and grian thinks he’s the biggest dork ever 🫶

#letters #bodyguard au #fem g.rian

mochiwrites

https://archiveofourown.org/works/81081981

title: my favorite hand to hold is yours

warning(s): n/a

chapter(s): 1/1

relationship(s): scar/grian | hotguy/ariana griande

summary:

Scar practically deflates when it's just the two of them, setting a hand over his chest. "Oh my god that was stressful," he exhales. "Do you think I oversold it?" Grian shuts the door behind her as she slowly approaches him, setting her bag down. "What do you think, Mr. 'Is that a new shirt?'" "I knew I should've complimented his hair instead," Scar clicks his tongue, pouting slightly. "What are you doing here anyway?" Grian inquires, tilting her head. "I thought you weren't supposed to show up until the afternoon." Scar walks away from her desk, moving toward her instead. He takes a peek behind her at the door and any potential spots someone could see them. When he finds they have one hundred percent privacy, he slips his arms around her waist to pull her close. "Not happy to see my handsome face first thing in the morning?" he cheekily teases, smirking.

or, 4 times Grian and Scar have to hide their relationship, and the 1 time they don't.

OR, Scar is really bad at being subtle.

read on ao3 here!

REBLOGS DO MORE THAN LIKES!

😭we're finally back yippee yippee! I've missed my silly little guys so much <3 I've been chipping away at this fic for a while, and with so many big assignments for school done, I had ample time to sit down and write when the motivation struck :3c

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lavendernlilac

was thinking about bodyguard au this morning and,,,,

what if I think really hard about them early in their relationship and they’re snuggling. what if I think Really hard about scar coming over to grian’s apartment after a patrol and knocking shyly on her window. he didn’t give her any kind of heads up that he was coming over, just dropped by unexpectedly. and grian happens to be awake because she’s doing work, glasses on, hair thrown up so it’s out of her face

she hears the knock on her window and gets up, confused to see him but lets him in, “what’re you doing here? it’s late.”

“hope you don’t mind the little drop in. I happened to be passing by and well, no harm in paying my favorite person in the whole world a little midnight visit.” scar gives her this bashful little smile and grian hates how easily he makes her heart stutter. she shuts the window before walking back over to her bed and sitting down, scar shrugging his boots and weapons off, laying them on the ground

he goes to sit in the chair at the desk first but then grian is looking at him, scrunching her nose in disapproval, “you’re too far away.”

and scar just chuckles at her before walking over to her bed and crawling in beside her as grian sets her laptop in her lap. she easily leans against him, body melting into him and relaxing and scar sets his chin on her shoulder, pressing soft little kisses to her neck before sighing quietly, watching her type away. he holds her close as she asks how patrol went, how his day has been, and when his stomach growls grian laughs, ushering them to the kitchen

scar has free reign of her kitchen and she tells him he can make or do whatever he wants, says there’s still leftovers from their dinner the night before. and as scar is heating it up, grian comes up from behind, wrapping her arms around his waist and pressing her head in between his shoulders, kissing that spot. scar covers her hands with his. “thanks for letting me in, I know it’s late.”

grian scoffs, “like I was going to let you sit out there in the cold. you know you always have a h—” home is what she almost says. she turns red. “a-a place here. you’re always welcome.”

and scar softens, turning around in her arms to hold her, brushing bits of her hair out of her face. “I think I like coming here to you instead of my apartment. it’s warmer here,” he quietly confesses, looking away. “I can’t help it… I just want to be with you all the time.”

“scar…” she’s looking at him, watching his expression and eyes before she’s cupping his face and pressing her lips to his so very softly. “you say the sappiest things,” she chuckles, much sweeter and softer words clogged in her throat. “but… I like it when you’re around a lot too.” I like being with you too. and scar knows her enough to read between the lines, and he gives her such a bright smile. he goes to kiss her again but the beeping microwave stops him and grian giggles

she sits with him while he eats, keeping up the soft conversations. and when that’s done she’s back to leaning on him as he washes the dishes (“scar you really don’t have to.” “good! because I want to.”) and she’s dragging him back to bed after, setting her laptop aside and scar is hovering because maybe it’s time for him to go home. he can’t continue to impose—but grian is looking at him expectantly. “can you stay?”

“are… are you sure that’s okay?” scar sounds worried. “I can sleep on the couch—”

grian rolls her eyes, “would you stop worrying so much and just come here? you don’t need to sleep on the couch when there’s a perfectly good bed, and your girlfriend wants to be cuddled >:(”

“how can I say no?” he’s laughing and laying down with her and grian is on him like a koala, curling around him, leg between his, arm over him, tucking her head under his chin. scar just chuckles adoringly and holds her, kisses her head. it’s scary, how comfortable he feels right now. how at peace he is. no one has ever made him feel like this before, not even close. he wants to hold onto this feeling forever, wrap it up and protect it. he feels like he’s home, with grian holding him, snuggled up to his chest. she drifts almost immediately, while scar stays awake as long as he can, savoring it all

he runs his hand through her hair, stroking her head. he holds her so very close and tries to memorize her warmth. maui and pearl join them at some point, curling up around their legs and scar thinks he could cry because he loves this. he loves every moment, every second of this. and he’s so incredibly grateful that grian chose him. that she gifted him with her love and he gets to treasure her for as long as she’ll allow him to. is it selfish for him to hope she’ll let him do it forever? he falls asleep after a bit, admiring the bit of space grian’s allowed him to carve out for himself in her life. and just before he knocks out, he has a thought about bringing over some clothes for nights like these

(he gets woken up the following morning by maui licking his face, demanding that scar feed him and pearl. grian wakes up like ten minutes after scar does to feed the cats and she’s grumpy at the lack of warmth in her bed but hears noises in the kitchen and only then does she realize the cats aren’t with her. she gets up to check and finds scar sitting with both of the cats who’re chowing down on their breakfast, petting pearl and quietly talking to them like “we have to be real quiet okay? don’t wanna wake up the sleeping beauty now.” and grian just. melts)

#🪻rb

lavendernlilac

the bgau worms…

you said something about scar dancing to tears… do you think grian wrote “My Man On His Willpower” as a joke for when scar goes on hotguy trips, or just patrol? I think it would be sooo funny if he was listening to her album for the first time and was like “Hey… so who did you wrote this about?.. just wanna have a talk with em… ;)” and then being all dramatic when she says scar.

scar tackles her and kissing all over her face, reassuring her while she laughs and wraps her arms around him, explaining why and he is so offended.

sweats in I was planning to include this song but Not for silly goofy reasons

if I speak I’m in trouble

#trying to find a specific post for smth but came across this and I’m giggling #silly little tehe :3c

scar kissing and marking up grian’s neck…….

#bodyguard au

RAHHHHHHHH I NEED TO LOCK IN ‼️‼️‼️

I got stuck doing a whole pile of assignments last week but I’m free now for a little bit… I Need to lock in and finish this bgau fic

#🪻#I got stuck on one of my scenes <///3 #but I’ve only got like two left and the a bunch of editing

once again thinking about how devoted scar is to grian and how devoted she is to him… their hearts are so intertwined and twisted together… they’d give each other the whole world and smth about that just gets me

#bodyguard au

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