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[lawrinlewis]

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[lawrinlewis]

Nobody was surprised at the rise of Demon Lord Ilya Rozanov. It was fate. It was meant to be. It was in his blood, inherited from his tainted mother.

Except one person who never stopped believing.

Out of the long parade of people Ilya had failed, the one he had failed the most was his master, Shane Hollander.

[lawrinlewis]

hmmmm. the thing about writing a fantasy fic from a media with an ensemble cast is that it's hard to decide who does and doesn't get magic, especially if magic is hierarchical. like it's weird to talk about how those without magic get discriminated against... and then not have a fair amount of magicless characters. but at the same time those without magic will participate less in a fantasy story or have roles that fundamentally change their canon relationships. if, for e.g, Airi doesn't have magic, then what would the fantasy equivalent of her relationship to shizuku look like? it's fun to think about, but also kind of a hassle to figure out when my fic is firmly about ruikasa

[aurorawest]

PACING IS ABOUT LOAD BEARING WALLS.

*staples violently to my own forehead*

[naamahdarling]

This is such good advice.

All I will add is: WRITE THOSE BREAKFAST SCENES if you want to, they can be absolutely critical in getting a handle on your characters. Or even on the setting. Write them all to fuck. Go hogwild.

Then cut them. They're for you, and for the characters. Not the readers.

[dduane]

Lo these many years ago, in an elevator at some convention or other, Larry Niven gave me some of the best writing advice ever:

"You can always burn it."

Go ahead and write that stuff. The breakfasts, the staring-into-empty-space scenes, whatever. Then pull them out of your work if they serve too little useful purpose. If you feel the need, shove such material into a separate folder to examine for possible usefulness later.

Even if you don't put it where other people can see it, no writing is ever wasted. Every sentence will teach you something. But if a passage or sequence doesn't help illuminate character, build the world, or advance the plot, get it the hell out of your narrative.

Your readers' time is precious. Do them the courtesy of not wasting it.

[findingfeather]

The above is true, but I will also add one more thing:

You will not please all readers all of the time.

Different people will have emphatically fucking different opinions about whether that breakfast scene was necessary, important, or worthwhile. Tolkien spends a lot of time describing the landscape and you can put people in a room and watch them have knock-down bloody fist fights about whether this is of immense literary value or whether this is why Lord of the Rings is unreadable.

They're both right. Objectively correct answers to that don't exist.

I have a friend who finds My Neighbour Totoro unwatchable. To them, the pacing of that movie is literal torture, and there was a point in our lives that they looked at me and went "can we please watch something else I would literally rather do my taxes." I am absolutely sure a bunch of people reading this just choked on something and want to go fight my friend. I think my friend is wrong. But also, my friend is 100% right.

I have personally had both someone bitch about the absolutely appallingly slow pacing in one of my stories and then other people cite the exact same scenes as their favourite thing in the world and the reason they reread constantly. And thank me for not rushing, for giving those details, for filling things in.

Both of those people are right, I just don't care to write with one of them in mind.

Context matters, too. To the person in the original thread, here and now, that 15 minutes describing Starbucks is agonizingly painful; a hundred years from now a historian might read or play that description to their colleagues or a historical fiction author might put exactly the same description in a novel and it will have people utterly fucking rapt.

Context is everything, and so is audience. What is "good" pacing will depend on your context and your audience.

This is a giant pain in the ass! Because it means that part of nailing down the skill of pacing is nailing down who your audience is, and whether you're reaching them, and how to find out from them if you're succeeding, and also if this is the audience you want to be writing for. If this is the writer you want to be.

But it means that's another reason to write that scene if you want to write that scene: because you literally won't know if it's a scene to keep until afterwards, anyway.

[mikkeneko]

This applies to almost all writing advice above a certain level, by the by. Once you're past the realm of issues that straight up make your writing unreadable, an awful lot of things start to fall under the headings of personal preference and personal style.

A lot of writing-advice-posts are working under the paradigm that there are many ways to write badly but only one singular way to write well, and you need to bring your writing as close as possible to The One True Platonic Ideal Of Good Writing.

(I have a feeling that the reason much writing advice is like this, is because it's actually marketing advice. Making your writing as appealing as possible to the maximum number of people possible is a marketing strategy. And if you're trying to make a living from book sales, that's useful advice. But one of the joys of writing fanfic is that you do not, in fact, have to capture the widest possible audience! You can write for the audience that likes your style, whatever style that is.)

But at any rate -- there's no such thing. There is no One True Correct And Good Way Of Writing that will please every reader all the time.

There are many ways to write well. Find yours.

[lawrinlewis]

Black Mask Haru AU

The target this time was a policeman. Not that it mattered. Still, the irony of the chief of police ordering a hit on his own man made Haru sigh.

It seems like this man was investigating a trafficking case without express permission. It could have been a commendable initiative, but his sleuthing wasn't as subtle as he must have hoped. He had tipped the traffickers off. With tensions high and alerts even higher, the criminals will soon relocate unless he ceased his investigations. He would have listened, if he truly cared. No wonder the chief bumped this request so high up in priority. Not to mention...

Her eyes flashed as she thought of the many cases she had found of sexual harrassement committed by his coworkers, and the way he had helped obfuscate them. Oh, she was going to pay a few visits to the other world, later, but perhaps this policeman wasn't a bad place to start. She didn't understand how he could turn a blind eye to all that, when he himself had two daughters.

From the fifth floor of a luxury hotel, Haru watched the target approach the edge of the street. She wondered what expression he wore. Most people already had weak minds and the command she planted deep in them took like fish to water. For more complexe maneuvers though, she needed to overwrite their mind entirely. And in that few moments when her commands took over, their faces changed. Some went slack, others went rigid. She idly played with her hair. Her eyes wandered. It was raining. Heavy drops whipped at her window as the air blurred everything in sight.

The traffic lights flared bright red.

I'm sorry it has come to this, Niijima-san. It's nothing personal.

He walked.

[lawrinlewis]

It was dark outside. The only source of light was the glowing TV in front of her. Sumire looked back to the screen. Joker's beautiful face smiled back at her, but she couldn't help seeing a sadness that hadn't been there the first time around. "Does it feel like a sick joke to you too?" Her voice was remarkably quiet and steady for the way her body trembled. "Are you also angry at the world for moving on?" She approached the TV, kneeling as her legs gave out under her. Her hand brushed the screen. "Do you hate yourself for killing them?"

Wip Wednesday? The first lines I wrote for my Sumi-centric otoge villainess isekai oneshot with complementary akeshu. Girlie is NOT doing good after Kasumi's death

[lawrinlewis]

Blackmask Haru, from chemically straightened wavy hair (controlled by her father and shido, social media influencer) to shaved hair (a new start, a time to grieve everything) to natural curls (healing and growing, Haru)

[lawrinlewis]

Writing snippet: Black Mask Haru, and the fate of Okumura Kunikazu

Noir was a ruthless dispenser of justice, a shadow striking fear in her target's heart. Okumura Haru was a coward who quivered at her father's displeasure. She was a child yearning for soft touches that would never come.

Noir would have shot this heinous man in the face without regret. Haru couldn't even raise her axe. Sweat coated her hands as her arms trembled. She had taken those other lives so easily, so how dare she hesitate now? (She couldn't do it.) He was no better than the rot he had ordered her to purge. (She couldn't do it.) What justice did she serve if it crumbled the moment her feelings was on the line? (She couldn't do it.)

What did it say about her, its loyal executioner?

Her father looked at her, his face paled in fear. He apologized and pleaded and pleaded. He begged for forgiveness. Numbness filled her limbs as incessant buzzing invaded her ears. This man made her a murdered. She was his sword to wield, his bargain chip to throw, his glass-eyed doll to sell. Even so, she panted and begged after him like a dog, a girl so weak and sycophant just hoping for scraps of praise from her owner. Sometimes she recoiled from the person she became. That disgust for herself pooled in her heart like poison as desperation grew alongside it. Gentle praises turned into angry barks, her invisible chains and willing cage. He was hooks in her flesh. He was a parasite that devoured her soul. He was her world.

So for as long as he existed, she could never live.

Her vision swam and blurred, terrible tears flooded her eyes. Oh, she hated being weak in front of the Phantom Thieves, these true allies of justice who burned her with their purity.

A clicking sound jarred her. Akechi readied his gun. He looked at her in the eyes.

"Night. Haru. Do you want him dead?"

She stared at him. His garnet eyes, several shades deeper than Mako-chan's (eyes that would never look at her so lovingly anymore), shone red under cool blue light. She shook under the weight of being seen. In that moment, she knew he understood. He would never judge her for her choice. Jagged emotions tore their way through her soft throat. She spat out a bloody whisper.

"Please."

Realizing her betrayal, her father shouted in impotent anger and disbelief. But she couldn't hear him anymore. All her senses zeroed in on that silly (deadly) laser gun Goro-kun wielded. His finger curled.

Bang!

Background info:

Black mask Haru post, but the basic gist is that Haru's natural latent psychic abilities made her a target for Shido. They forcefully awakened her persona and made her serve as their assassin. In an attempt to cope, Haru has deluded herself into believing she's serving justice. Also she goes through a worsening arc before her redemption arc because of her jealousy towards the PTs.

Haru was tasked to cause a mental shutdown in Sae so that they can frame the PTs for murder. The PTs manage to intercept her, but not before she caused heavy damage to Sae's mind and plunging her into a coma. Makoto, who was in love with Haru before, has a hard time even looking at her after that.

They worked together on the Okumura palace because. Erm. I want them to?

Goro has killed before. During an experiment gone wrong with Wakaba, Goro went berserk, his body and mind fusing grotesquely with his two persona. He killed (then cannibalized) Wakaba (which he regrets), as well as the other scientists (which he does not regret), before setting fire to the lab when his mind stabilized to fake his death + destroy the lab equipment. This is why I made him the one who understood Haru and decided to kill for her at the end

[lawrinlewis]

My first p5 fic: cozy fluffy engagement fic

My second p5 fic: Akeshu Incest

[outreescapist]

So real

[lawrinlewis]

Lowkey a bit scared to talk about this au, cause what if everyone quietly blocks me for being weird 😭

[lawrinlewis]

My first p5 fic: cozy fluffy engagement fic

My second p5 fic: Akeshu Incest

[lawrinlewis]

even worse: it's a lot less horny than you might expect

[lawrinlewis]

My first p5 fic: cozy fluffy engagement fic

My second p5 fic: Akeshu Incest

[saitoakirachan-fangirls]

Black Mask Haru had a personal instagram where she shared her passion for gardening and baking. It was her escape from her..."tasks." There, in her garden or in her kitchen, the daily stress she accrued from dealing with her father and his associates couldn't touch her. It made her forget her actions. If these bloody hands can still create something beautiful, then surely she couldn't be as monstrous as her heart thought, deep down.

That is, until her father and Shido decided to turn it into an influencer account so she can gain deeper access to Mementos. That was also when she got a manager and a publicist, who started controlling her appearance and her image.

They straightened then recurled her hair to more conventional (socially accepted) waves. They wanted to "get rid of the frizz." They replaced her cozy pastels and frills with basic neutrals because it was "too childish." It wouldn't fit the sophisticated tradwife image they wanted from her.

Her garden and her kitchen were changed, polished, so she can promote a consistent aesthetic. Her own room was redecorated so she could stream from it. Gradually, her hobbies became tainted. It reminded her of being controlled. It lost its innocence.

[ad-wills]

[saitoakirachan-fangirls]

Obsessed with the idea of a lowkey unethical scientist Wakaba who experimented on Akechi and the complicated feelings generated from this within Futaba and Akechi.

Akechi and Wakaba's relationship was surprisingly cordial. If anything, he quite liked her because she was the smartest of the bunch and also the nicest to him. I mean, he still killed her, but. You know. She would talk about her young daughter and about Featherman, knowing that he's a fan of the show. She would ask how he felt after the experiments and gave him more grace than the others when he couldn't generate the result they were hoping for. (This is both because she's kinder and because she doesn't mind not "getting results." As far as she's concerned, any data is "results.") And yet.

And yet she didn't stop doing horrible experiments on him. Akechi was a child-shaped resource to her. Like a video game child, where you want to be nicer because it's cute and it looks like the real thing, but when it comes down to it, it's not really a person. She won't push as much as the others, and she always asks if he's okay. But, well, that's not her child. So if he says it's fine and the experiment isn't compromised, then who is she to doubt him? Isn't the knowledge obtained through these experiments more precious than the feelings of a teen she barely knew, and who insisted he was fine anyway? Yes, a palace collapsing kills the people inside (they made sure that to double check). Yes, this kid can cause psychotic breakdowns (it proved her hypothesis right). Yes, killing a shadow kills the person. But can't you see? This is all in the name of science. It's bigger than her or him or all of them.

Akechi's feelings about her flip-flops a lot depending on his mental state. Sometimes, he tries to justify killing her because she deserves it for what she did to him (the others wanted to do worse before she stopped them), it was her own fault for researching something so dangerous without knowing how to protect herself (how could she have predicted her team turning on her?) and he was just following orders anyway (a lot of corrupt adults are also "just following orders"), but more often, he settles on her being innocent. Since it was his decision to participate in the experiments, he needs to shoulder all the responsibility for his own pain. It was his choice, because he was obviously in control this whole time. He's a free agent. He's manipulating the adults here, don't you see? He wasn't a child anymore.

When Futaba learned about her human experiments, especially the ones on Akechi, she was shocked and horrified. "My mom was a fucking monster!" And Akechi is like, "Yeah the experiments sucked but I consented to everything." "You were 14-15???" And for a long time she is unable to really reconcile the image of her workaholic but loving mother with an obsessive scientist willing to turn a blind eye to the ethically bankrupt act of using a teen as a brain magic lab rat.

Idk, I just thought it would be funny and depressing if Futaba started thinking her mother was a horrible monster while Akechi has to defend Wakaba cause the truth is that she was kind of horrible but also like, a person. She was Futaba's loving mother, Sojiro's best friend, and an advocate for women in STEM. To her experiment subjects (because Akechi wasn't the only one, let's be real), she was a demon, but to other, she was a genuinely good person. Morally grey Wakaba Isshiki my beloved.

Also also, every adult who was involved with Akechi in any significant way pre-series dehumanized him :3c

[saitoakirachan-fangirls]

Roleswap AU except Akechi and Joker are childhood friend soulmates and doing their own thing with Futaba.

Meanwhile, Haru, with her natural proficiency with psychic abilities, is forcibly pushed to awaken her persona Wu Zetian, and becomes Noir, Shido's personal assassin and her father's bargaining chip. Haru's psychic power revolves around hypnosis and brainwashing. It basically opens the target's mind to suggestion, and when needed, she can break them as well. Unlike Call of Chaos, which awakens the target's ugliest hidden impulses, Haru's power directly suppresses their ability to think for themselves. If used repeatedly, it will slowly turn the target unresponsive to outside stimuli, their mind completely atrophied. She had to work with Dr. Maruki who was selected to nurture Haru's powers. The first choice would've been Isshiki Wakaba, but her lab mysteriously caught fire after a failed experiment exploded...

Deluding herself into thinking that she was serving justice, she aided Shido and her father in taking down corrupt and abusive men. If these men turned out to also be competition, then it must simply be a coincidence. Unlike in-game Akechi, who seems to not really use his powers outside of orders, Haru is a prolific power abuser in an almost Phantom Thief fashion. She does this out of genuine wish to help, but a tiny part of her is also using this as a way to maintain her illusion of justice. Like, look, I'm helping! All of this is for justice! Would a horrible assassin desperate for her father's approval do this? Only, the problem is that her power is not permanent, so she either has to make the decision of using her power again and again, or let the power fade and the target will revert to their original ways.

When she first learns about the Phantom Thieves, she's intrigued. She always felt alone in her justice, but now, there are more people using the Metaverse and persona powers for justice. This is so exciting! Except she meets them and immediately hates their guts because all she sees are nicer, less unhinged versions of herself. They're untainted and naive and sincere in all the ways she isn't (or so she thinks). They make it so so clear that Haru is delusional in her view of justice, that it's all nonsense she's making up to cope. They never murdered anyone (Goro says lol), never felt their victim target's mind break in their hands. Shido had ordered her to destroy them. She was hesitant at first, but now she inexplicably wants to do exactly that.

(Dirty their purity and break their innocence, like Haru had to break herself)

[saitoakirachan-fangirls]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Persona 5 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Akechi Goro/Persona 5 Protagonist Characters: Akechi Goro, Persona 5 Protagonist, Kurusu Akira (Persona Series) Additional Tags: Fluff, Established Relationship, Engagement, Aged-Up Character(s) Summary:

Akira and Goro go on a summertime weekend trip.

[lawrinlewis]

ok so mafurui friendship, mafutoya parallels... what next for my au? mafukasa kiss on the mouth???