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remembering that during a manic episode i met lil boosie's body guard. he said liked it until he had a daughter and realized he didn't want to die

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yesterday i was petting Hank and then i was like wait let me try to reiki her and i started petting her exactly the same except now i was imagining that there was energy coming out of my hand and she instantly mauled me and wouldn't let me touch her again....

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hyper-reflexivity used to be the realm of neurotics but the internet has caused it to develop in people who would otherwise be normal but then they don't have any of the gifts that sometimes go hand in hand with neurosis so they're just doomed

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sending all of my break up posts directly to drafts because i sound like I'm 15 and it makes me sick

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Bendo presio grati

[kushblazer666]

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wilhelm reich through the ouija board: how is it? are the bellies hard or soft?

me: [lying] soft.. and everyone has lots of orgone, too

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going to the movies alone has never bothered me but i don't know if i can go see the new jackass movie alone. neurotypical moment </3

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schizoid personality disorder was erased from the public consciousness bc autism and schizophrenia diagnoses are more lucrative and (maybe more relevantly) because schizoid points a finger at the parents

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i paid less for a mammogram and breast ultrasound cash rate than i ever did for an ultrasound alone with insurance. and that's including 2010 prices. real eyes realize real lies

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one of the million interventions I've tried has seemingly fixed all of my connective tissue problems. im thinking it's the high dose vitamin c but there's very limited data. all i know is that i have ankle and wrist collagen for the first time in my life. I can put weight on my wrists and not injure myself sitting or sleeping incorrectly

also completely possible that i never had an innate problem and i was just getting floxxed. sometimes multiple times a year

you read about lead makeup when youre 8 and you're like wow glad that doesn't happen anymore. but it does

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i am figuring out why my doctor had to move to direct pay care. he has fucked up everything he has touched so far. i am rooting for him

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you can tell i am in a crisis

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i might be back on a soft no-fly list again. the real tell will be whether i can check into my flights online or not

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thought the tsa hadn't opened my checked luggage last time but they just hid the slip in my laptop to jump scare me

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editing old posts to say things like "i love work" and "i did not drop out" for when the job screening AIs trawl my tumblr using facial recognition