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Feeling Crumby

I gotta be real with you all: I feel like shit.

I have my period, I feel so bloated and gross. I’ve been eating out this past week and although I’ve been staying within my window of eating and it’s all been good stuff; it’s just been triggering binging habits for some reason. I had a chocolate chip cookie today and my fiance invited me out to ice cream with his friends. I wanted to go SO bad but I just couldn’t do that to myself because as a food addict, it’s such a slipper slope. So I’m home alone and sad. I just want to cry - this past week has sucked and the scale isn’t budging. I’m trying not to be so hard on myself but it’s just the mind frame I’m in right now. I also haven’t been consistent with my anxiety/depression medicine lately and I know that’s screwing with me. When I feel this low I go to this website, it’s really helpful: http://youfeellikeshit.com/  just in case anyone else ever needs help getting out of a rut. I’m going to go there now. Love you all xx

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Down 4lbs!

I went to weigh myself at Complete Athlete today and I am at 324! I’m down 4lbs! I know a lot of it is water weight because my legs, ankles and feet have been so swollen the past week. Since I started the plan Orlando set me on I’ve been peeing nonstop and have noticed the swelling go down, yay! 

I’ve also noticed another trigger food for me: sunflower seed kernels.

I’m trying to practice mindful eating and sunflower seed kernels, even though they’re healthy, is just something I need to stay away from right now. I can just guzzle those babies down! I’m going to switch to the seeds so it helps me focus more. 

On another note, I’m visiting family this weekend on Cape Cod. Family is a stressor for me, so I’m going to need to be extra mindful and make good choices so I don’t resort to eating when I become stressed. 

I want to snack so bad right now (I’m such a late night binger!) but I stopped eating at 7:30 tonight and I’m going to stick to that. So I’m just going to finish up a couple things and head to bed.

Good night :-)

xx 

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Breaking Fast

Hi All!,

Well... I made it until 11AM! It was a bit rough, but I did it. Yay! I wasn’t even hungry but I just wanted to eat around 10PM. When I went to bed I realized I had a bag of potato chips on my side table (#lifeofabinger) and it took everything in me to throw them out. Like I said, I wasn’t even hungry! I was full from a huge meal I had for dinner, but I just wanted to eat. I sipped on some sparkling water, took some deep breaths and the urge went away. Orlando gave me that advice and it really helped. This morning he came by and dropped off some chia seeds,flax seed powder, cacao powder, and some protein and veggie powder so I can make a chia pudding. I haven’t made it yet because I don’t have peanutbutter (thought I did!). I just placed an order with instacart at Stop and Shop. I hate not having a Trader Joe’s or Whole Foods nearby. I need to find another grocery store!  Anyway, I did the best I could do for now. Here’s my mini grocery shopping!: 

Fiber One 80 Calorie Wraps Garden Vegetable - 8 CT

$4.19 · 12.25 oz

1x

$4.19

Zyrtec® Allergy 24 Hour 10mg (Individual Blisters) Tablets

$14.89 · 14 ct

1x

$16.09

$14.89

Morning Star Farms Mediterranean Chickpea Veggie Burgers

$4.00 · 9.5 oz

1x

$6.09

$4.00

Morning Star Farms Veggie Breakfast MorningStar Farms Veggie Breakfast Sausage Links

$4.00 · 8 oz

1x

$6.09

$4.00

Smucker's Natural Peanut Butter Creamy

$3.89 · 16 oz

1x

$4.19

$3.89

Morning Star Farms Classics Veggie Chik'n Nuggets

$4.00 · 10.5 oz

1x

$6.09

$4.00

Pete And Gerry's Organic Eggs Jumbo - 6 CT

$4.09 · 6 ct

1x

$4.09

Goya Premium Black Beans

$0.79 · 15.5 oz

1x

$1.00

$0.79

Found

Emerald. Natural 100 Calorie Packs Almonds & Walnuts

$5.99 · 7 ct

1x

$5.99

Smartfood Delight Sea Salt Popcorn

$5.69 · 10 x 10 x 0.5 oz

1x

$5.69

Saffron Road Food Sea Salt Crisps

$4.59 · 3,5 oz

1x

$4.59

SB Broccoli Florets

$1.79 · 16.0 oz

1x

$1.79

Avocado

$0.79 · each

2x

$1.58

David Sunflower Seeds Original

$1.39 · 5.25 oz

1x

$1.89

$1.39

SB Dry Roasted Sunflower Kernels Made with Sea Salt

$2.19 · 7.25 oz

1x

$2.19

Sabra Classic Hummus Dip

$4.39 · 10 oz

1x

$4.39

Green Giant Cauliflower & Sweet Potato Riced Veggies

$3.69 · 12 oz

1x

$3.69

Quorn Naked Chik 'n Cutlets Meatless, Soy & Gluten Free

$4.59 · 9.7 oz

1x

$4.59

SB Greek Nonfat Yogurt Vanilla

$4.39 · 32.0 oz

1x

$4.39

Snack Pack Sugar Free Chocolate Pudding

$1.19 · 4 x 4 x 3.25 oz

1x

$1.19

SB Whole Milk Mozzarella Traditionally Shredded

$2.89 · 8.0 oz

1x

$2.89

The Better Chip Spinach & Kale Whole Grain Chips

$3.49 · 6.4 oz

1x

$4.19

$3.49

What do you guys think? What would you do differently? I haven’t shown this to Orlando yet. Curious to how he would rate this, haha.

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First Post!

Hi All!,

I’d like to kick off my first post by introducing myself: My name is Jacqui and I’m a food addict. I’m 5′2′ and weigh 330lbs. I’m 25 years old and I have a hard time doing simple things like tying my shoes. It’s time for a change.

I have an awesome personal trainer/nutrition coach, Orlando, who’s setting some small goals for me. Tonight is my first night “fasting” from 6PM until 11AM tomorrow morning. And then from 11AM-6PM is my window to eat my meals. High protein, high fat, low carb - basically a beginners start to keto. I’m a vegetarian, too, so that makes this all the more interesting. My goal for now is to let the swelling of my feet go down and debloat. I’ve been living on a diet of pizza and nachos the past month (and the month before that...and the month before that...and so on..) so I’m just all puffy and bleh. 

I’m excited for this start. All I want to do is eat right now even though I’m not even hungry. I just want to.