Aint Nobody Gonna Leave This Place Alive

Dog mom

[girl-on-films]

[deludedcrayon]

every so often im reminded that i really am completely alone in this

[leeeeenz]

To my once upon a time best friends..

I miss you.

I know we’ve grown apart and are no longer actively in each others lives, but I wanted to thank you. I wouldn’t be who I am today without you, and I’m so thankful.

Here’s to giant chocolate chip cookies, Purim carnivals, & Halloween parties, my childhood wouldn’t have been the same without the love and happiness I felt when I was with you and your family.

Thank you.

Here’s to eating chocolate chips out of the bag, playing Rockband and being obsessed with the Jonas Brothers, and U-pick-2’s at Panera after softball games, I wouldn’t have made it through middle school without someone who understood me and accepted me for all that I was.

Thank you.

Here’s to sneaky hookah pens and days at the beach, to drunken Halloween nights and crying over boys, you were the other half of me and my soul sister through and through. Your family became my second family and some days your house felt more like home than mine did. You got me through high school and college, and I couldn’t have done any of it without your unwavering support.

Thank you.

[leeeeenz]

I didn’t get to say goodbye. I was 10-15 minutes late to hearing your voice for the last time, and being able to tell you that I loved you. I hope you knew how much I love you, and how sorry I am for being so busy and selfish with my time. I should have been at bingo with you. I should have met your friends. I should have sat and watched your shows and did puzzles. I should have been there and I wasn’t and I am so sorry. I didn’t get to say goodbye. I’ll never get the chance to tell you I’m sorry, to say that I was going to be better and I was going to visit. I didn’t get to tell you that I love you, but I hope you knew how much I did. I’m going to miss you forever, my sweet and stubborn Grandma. I’m so glad you’re not in pain anymore, but I really wish you hadn’t left without saying goodbye. I pray I’ll see you soon. Watch over us, we need your strength and guidance 🤍

[leeeeenz]

So deeply unhappy and sad and just done with everything and everyone. I hate my body, how much I weigh, my thoughts, myself. Does it get easier at some point?

[lovesdaya]

@lovesdaya

[feral-ballad]

June Gehringer, “EARTH IS AN ANAGRAM FOR HEART, U FUCKING IDIOTS”

[Text ID: “I don’t want to talk about it. / I want to lie in what little grass remains / and try to fit your heart inside of mine.”]

[academia-lucifer]

@academia-lucifer

[leeeeenz]

I miss you most when my body is numb & the smoke in my brain distracts me while you sneakily make your way forward from the back of my mind. I miss you most when my mind is numb & the touch of your skin reminds my body I have forgotten to forget the way that you feel.

I miss you most when—

[leeeeenz]

Different shades of heaven

[leeeeenz]

[leeeeenz]

Rhode Island summer

[leeeeenz]

[thehopefulquotes]

“Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love you hurt you. Don’t confuse the two.”

— Unknown

[gentlemanmotorslifestyle]

[nikswonderland]

adventuring through forest spots

[e-ndlessl-y]

Wrote this for english class last year, thought i'd share

The day my life changed seems like only a memory, maybe a dream. I was only 2 years old. Running around in the gym seemed only like a visit at Titi and Uncle Rob’s house, not the ending of my old life and the beginning of my new one. I ran around, jumping and rolling on the mats, not a care in the world. But I couldn’t understand why mommy was so sad. “We’re all together,” I thought. “Why is mommy sad?” It just didn’t make any sense. Her tears slipped my mind as my sisters took turns swinging on the rope swing. How I wanted nothing more than to be able to do that. I couldn’t wait to be their age, being able to swing on the rope swing, to play on the big girl mats. This jealousy kept my mind off of my mother’s unusual sadness. Finally nighttime settled in, it was time to leave. Wait, why did Sammy and Lacey get into the car? Why am I not going with them? Why is Mommy crying and hugging me? Why is she saying she’s sorry? And that she’ll come back to me soon? Why is the white car driving away? Did I do something wrong? Why is my life leaving me here, all alone with these people? I’m sorry I was so bad, mommy. I didn’t mean to make you cry. Please stop crying mommy. I promise I’ll be better. Please don’t leave me here.

 But she left, and she never came back. I’m 16 now, and to this day I have yet to hear the real truth to why I was left alone. I’ll never understand why I was the one to get left behind. But I realize now that it was for the better. Without that, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am. I wouldn’t have the friends and the family I have today. I wouldn’t be me. I’ve always imagined what my life might be like, in the other world. In the other world where I wasn’t left behind, the one where we were all together as a family. But then I snap back into reality, accepting who I am, and forgetting who I could have been.