This really could be the good life...

“Sometimes I think we waste our words and we waste our moments, and we don’t take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.”

[leetlebeetles]

[leetlebeetles]

[leetlebeetles]

always & forever

It's amazing what a petty little fight can do to a relationship -- in a positive way. Couples fight - it happens. My fiancé and I argue all the time. Last night, we blew up at each other. I am not mad though, because in a way it brought us even closer together. We fight, scream and argue with one another, but when we "make-up", I believes it reminds us of how much we love each other. I am so grateful to have this man in my life. I seriously do not know what I would do without him. He came into my life at such a pivotal point in my life, that without him, I probably wouldn't be here today. This man brought back the true meaning of life, love, friendship and happiness in my life, and I am so beyond thankful for that. There aren't enough words or gifts or whatever to let him know how much he has impacted my life. But in 6 short months, I will make a promise/vow to love him unconditionally, I will vow to be there through thick and thin, through the good and the bad because it is the only way I can think of to thank him for making me who I am today. This man has brought me to life again, I will love him always for that.   

[leetlebeetles]

Fuck Timeline...

Ever since I accidentally gave myself timeline before Facebook switched everyone over, I refused to go back and look at my past. Tonight - I gave in. And I shouldn't have. There so much that is posted on there reminding of some pretty good times and people who are no longer in my life. Making me miss it. A lot...

[lavenderandwhite]

[leetlebeetles]

Skinny Love

And I told you to be patient

And I told you to be fine

And I told you to be balanced

And I told you to be kind

[leetlebeetles]

I get it. I get the whole meaning of these words, but sometimes you do worry. Sometimes you think back and find it hard to let go. You think of the good times, but then you think of the bad. Its a shame how the bad times overpower the good ones, and all that you can remember, or have a perfect memory of, are the bad times.

It takes a lot out of energy to hate. At this point, I no longer "hate". I despise. I am disappointed. I am still angry. And sometimes I still care. I wish the best for them, honestly. As much I as I would like to see them fail, I wish for success. Things happen for a reason, and there is a reason people do not make it into your future. I understand that reason, but that doesn't mean I still can't wish it were different.

[sorealitssurreal-deactivated201]

One of my idols

[pollyanna-ism]

Make a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from. From the next smile- the next wish come true. But if you believe, that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you wishing for. Our world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart.

One Tree Hill (via pollyanna-ism)

[leetlebeetles]

Goodnight One Tree Hill

"Somebody told me that this is the place where everything's better & everything's safe.."

9 years, 9 seasons. A show that pretty much everyone could relate to or define themselves with. We all knew someone like those characters, and maybe even related ourselves to one or two of them. Since day 1, I was intrigued by this show. I found myself consumed in the characters and their story lines, wishing I was Brooke Davis, wishing I had the artistic ability of Peyton Sawyer and so much more. With every episode, it drew you in more and more and I cannot believe it completely ended last night. I feel as if in a way that show shaped who I am today, taught me things that no one else could. One Tree Hill was like my own private escape. 9 years and 9 seasons coming to end. It something that I will surely miss. Thank God for the season DVDs 

[leetlebeetles]

Ville Valo of the Finnish band HIM. This man writes the most beautiful lyrics I've ever heard. I believe that music heals & this band has help through some of the most difficult times in my life. For over 10 years I have listened to these guys guys and have been to numerous live shows. I cannot wait for the rumored new album

[bassful]

Yes, losing your heart`s desire is tragic. But gaining your heart`s desire? That`s all you can hope for. This year I wished for love…to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic, then give me that tragedy. Because I wouldn`t give it back for the world.

Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill (via bassful)

[leetlebeetles]

“Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.”

Lucas, One Tree Hill

[leetlebeetles]

The most beautiful place on earth - Venice

[leetlebeetles]

Italy - 

The most beautiful place in the world. I wish I could have stayed longer than 14 days. The people, the food, the entertainment, the atmosphere - everything about it was beautiful and exciting. It was a place I felt like I belonged.

I wish we could have explored more than just Venice, Verona and Rome. All the more reason to go back, I guess. Maybe I can convince Zac to move there with me. Just kidding, he would never agree to it ;) 

I look back at the hundreds of pictures I took while I was there, and I still feel like I missed something; that I didn't capture everything I wanted to. Every single thing about Italy was more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. I miss it every day. I cannot wait to go back there.

[leetlebeetles]

Our greatest glory is not in never rising, but in rising every time we fall

Confucius