Blake

This is literally just my journal. Kansas City.

[legallyblake]

You're jsu 8 months on T and you have already beard growing? That's awesome! How much T do you take?

Thank you :) and .5cc weekly :)

[irresistibowl]

thanks to legallyblake for sending me this binder!!!

[legallyblake]

The pain of not waking up and seeing who I know I am in the mirror is really pushing me into a depression I really wish I could come out and start T but I just can't seem to claw my way out of this sadness have any tips to pick myself up alittle

I've been there. The way I helped myself is whenever I had negative thoughts I stopped myself. I stopped myself by making a list of all the goals I had. Example : starting T, top surgery, coming out. By making that list I realized that I had a lot to look forward to. What you're going through is temporary my friend. The future is bright. Keep that in mind.

[legallyblake]

Day 3 post op

It's my third day at this damn hotel. Today my chest is itchy and I am just restless. I want to be home and I want to be healed because I'm SO BORED. this is all worth it so I'll just crawl back in bed and hope for a quick recovery. 4 days till the reveal and I can see nipples. (Thurs may 14th)

[legallyblake]

Hey sorry if this is too invasive but how was the anaesthesia? Were you worried about it? Lots of horror stores about being awake while people operate on you and stuff and it's terrifying me and I'm not even on t yet.

I promise you that you won't wake up. They had trouble finding a vein on me that was nice enough for the IV. Eventually they found one and I was on my way into the operating room. I remember talking to the lady about red lobster biscuits and I was OUT. The anesthesiologist will stay with you through the whole surgery to make sure you do not wake :)

[legallyblake]

WOOO!! Congrats man!!! How are you feeling?!

Pretty sore on the sides where they did the lipo under arms but other than that I've never been so happy to be in pain :) all worth it.

[legallyblake]

ON MY WAY TO TOP SURGERY

Today. I. Will. Be. Set. Free.

[legallyblake]

I saw that your top surgery is today! Congrats! I hope all goes well and that you make a speedy recovery. <3

Thank you my friend

[legallyblake]

TOP SURGERY TOMORROW

Top surgery tomorrow at 12pm. Keep me in your thoughts. Super nervous!

[legallyblake]

3 days till TOP SURGERY

sry for my countdown folks, I'm just super stoked and extremely ready for this.

[legallyblake]

11 days till top surgery

It's shot day, and I have to skip my shot because top surgery in a week and a half. I already feel down. This will be worth it though.

[legallyblake]

Top surgery

So since the first surgeon I chose, wouldn't respond to me I decided to go with Raphael in Dallas. I called this morning and they got me set up for May 7th! ITS OFFICIAL. TOP SURGERY MAY 7TH WITH DR PETER RAPHAEL IN PLANO, TEXAS.

[legallyblake]

Does your family respect your name and pronouns?

They try :) im grateful for that!

[legallyblake]

Top surgery

I had my top surgery consultation last week. As soon as my therapist sends in her letter, they will set up a date for me. The excitement is overwhelming.

[legallyblake]

Coming out as trans

I came out to my "step" grandma yesterday. Her response - "oh so basically you just like to wear boy clothes?" Oh grandma. If it were that simple.

[legallyblake]

I support you!

Thank you for that!

[legallyblake]

day 1 on T. my life has finally begun.