We're on a 'break' again, apparently to give me time to 'figure it out' not sure i want to tbh.
I'm really sad about the situation, but it's so fresh (happened yesterday) I need time i guess. I don't think either of us have been happy for a long time, so I guess it's for the best.
I resent being told I haven't changed though, I feel like I've changed an awful lot and I also resent being told I'm always negative or bitter. I'm not, I can be, but I'm not constantly.
ALSO if you'd lived through all the fucking trauma and DEATH I've lived through, I think you'd be a little cynical on occasion. Yes, I do feel like the universe (or higher being, whatever) has dealt me a bit of a shit hand tbh. My life has been a constant struggle so far, some times have been easy, but these have been few and far between.
I'm sick to fucking death of the failing of this relationship being solely on me. It's not. It's you as well fuckface.
It's you when you don't bother to wish me luck in my new job, it's you when you never touch me, it's you when you have a meltdown 'cause you haven't got any weed (you fucking pathetic addict), it's you when you disappear for 12-24hrs with maybe one text if I'm lucky, it's you when you're vague as fuck about what you're up to, it's you when I see you still have all the dating apps installed on your phone. SOME OF IT IS YOU
I'm so tired of trying to convince you to love me, to convince you you want to be with me. I'm tired of you stressing me out, causing my tears and stealing my peace.
I'm tired of how materialistic/ superficial you and your family are.
I am tired of being with you, but I don't want to leave you. I'm convinced things will get better but I think you've already checked out.
You are the worst thing that ever happened to me
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