kitsch

lo-fi poetry

[leialumina]

My mirror is turning into a portrait

Of the person I think I've become

But if I would ask you

You'd tell me I didn't get the colours right

And that might be just what's wrong -

Me not knowing who I am

But you being so sure

[leialumina]

call me by your name scenes

music by me

[leialumina]

Sometimes I wish you were sweeter.

Can you adore me just for once?

And I don't mean in secret -

Make it public.

[leialumina]

Guess this is where I've been before

But didn't know it was a place

It always felt like a feeling

But never like a home

Inside your arms

As close to your heart

As I can get

Feeling the warmth of your breath

And smelling your skin

Trying to become a part of it

[leialumina]

actual conversation between me and my boyfriend

[leialumina]

You make it stop for a moment

And there is no way I could tell you

How much that means to me

And you say over and over again

How deeply in love you are

Without getting tired of my questions

I just really think

You and I

Will make it

[leialumina]

kiss me between sheets

until we fall asleep

don't worry about my eyes

you know i love our nights

[leialumina]

💛

It's the stuff you say to me

How you're crazy about me

The words I just can't believe

That's what makes me weak

And I know I think too much

I know that sometimes hurts your chest

But you never get tired

Of telling me that it's not as bad as it may seem

[leialumina]

how to let (you) go

oh, i wish i knew

[leialumina]

[ how life changed with you ]

With you

My head is always the same

Which is so different

From it's usual state

And that's what I like

Next to you

There's always room

Right where I couldn't find

A place I would fit in

That's probably the best thing

[leialumina]

stay.

[leialumina]

[ the kind of thoughts that burn ]

now i can't even think of you

without seeing me underwater

because i know i'd let you drown

and the thought of you

feels like touching fire

[leialumina]

[ the moon ]

what the sun doesn't see

are the ways that we cry

when we turn out the light

and how we reach for the ground

scared to fall from where we're now

[leialumina]

[ if you think i'm over you ]

If you think I'm over you

You are more wrong

Than when I said

That I could live without you

If you think

I don't care how you are

I wish I could say that you are right

To hide what I said I left behind

[leialumina]

[ the art of letting go ]

Letting go of people is hard

But realising that you can't let go of a person

Because there is still too much between the two of you

Is even harder

[leialumina]

[ i now get what you meant when you said that i had changed ]

I hope that where we are

Is not permanent

And that we will come back

To different versions of us

That are made to stay

And not to run away

[leialumina]

[ cutting off hands ]

When will I finally

Let go of the hands that once held me

And start using my hands

To get what I want