Yo it's been awhile tumblr I'm gonna try out writing my thoughts down because man I've been having a lot of them and no one to tell them too. Life's been crazy this past year. A lots happened and I'm just like "ahhh where did my life go?!" I turned 20, and I've been in a serious relationship for almost a year! I've gone through 6 jobs, four of them in the past months because I got fired at my awesome-job-with-a-not-so-awesome-owner. I'm currently freaking out about school, I have no clue what I want to go to school for... Actually to rephrase I have way to many things I want to go to school for and I don't want to put myself into crippling debt before I'm 25. I crave independence and am getting to a point where I just want to focus on my life and my priorities i.e. Getting into an intense and serious workout regimen, come home to my boyfriend in our own place, and not stress about not seeing my family or friends enough because I've been seeing them a long time and I just want to get myself to a mental state where I'm at peace with my appearance and actually feel like I'm being productive in my life. My thoughts are just crazy right now, my mind is busy all the time, and so am I! I'm constantly running from house to house to see my family, different sets who live on opposite ends of town, to making sure I'm spending time with my boyfriend and then trying to go to the gym plus working, like ah ?!?? Where the me time? It's no where! Plus I need to get serious about my future because I don't want to just work as a barista for the rest of my life. And I mentioned above that I crave stability when I'm still so dependent on my parents for things, I mean they pay my phone bill and I live rent free in there house while I pay $400 a month in school bills plus $200 a month in car insurance, not to mention my irresponsible spending habits when it comes to clothes, makeup and fake hair. Ugh so much to get off my mind meanwhile I'm trying to fall asleep feeling guilty about not going to the gym and also feeling guilty about not being able to get up the Glendale to see my mom sooner then Saturday, plus I just read an article about how stress can prevent you from loosing fat in your stomach area so that's great too... Don't get my wrong my life is great in so many ways! I just wish there was more time in the day I guess. P.S. That's my butt??? It's completely irrelevant to this post.














