Masterlist - Happy x Teller!OC
Warnings: MNDI 18+, Cussing, anxiousness, hospital, mentions of drugs, smoking, mentions of violence, mentions of medical things, NICU mentions, enotionally heavy, mentions of death
Disclaimer: I do not own any plots or characters of the Sons of Anarchy Tv Show, I do however own the rights to my oc and her plot lines
Author Note: I’m sorry, if this is a little slow, I promise Happy is gonna be mentioned soon 🥰
The doors to Labor and Delivery flew open, banging against the walls with a stomach-aching force. The heavy mix of boots, shoes, and Gemma's heels collectively pounding against the linoleum and echoing through the sterile hallway.
Jax leading the pack, Clay tight behind him, the rest of them not far behind. The smell of antiseptic hit Juliet hard. A smell she could feel in her teeth, reminding her too much of her little brother.
The disgusting taste that started in her mouth continued to linger as Juliet looked around the hallway, still following the pack. She hated hospitals, with a passion, the long, cold hallways and the faint stench of bleach that clung to the air. It took her back to a time she didn't wanna linger in, but she knew she had to be there for Jax.
Well, her mother filled the men in on what she had found at the house Jax once shared with his now ex-wife, Wendy. They all shared the same look, anger. The brunette hadn't caught what they said, focusing too much on where she was. But Jax's face said enough, his jaw tight, teeth clenched, and a storm brewing behind his blue eyes.
Juliet stayed back half a step, knowing she couldn't add anything to the conversation as the men carried on. The grief of the situation settled on her nerves like a live wire. It was too bright in here, and Juliet was trying to ignore the weight that began to form on her chest. Then the double doors at the far end of the hallway swung open.
A woman stepping through in teal scrubs, brown hair pulled back tight. She was older than the woman remembered, but the recognition landed hard in her chest.
It had been almost ten years since Juliet had seen her. She looked sharper now, more sure of herself, the soft edges of her youth replaced with something she couldn't place. Juliet hadn't even known she was back in Charming. But clearly, her brother had.
Jax stepped forward, the weight of this hanging onto his words. "Tara, what's going on?" She didn't soften when she saw him. Her voice was all doctor, no history, despite the heavy weight of what the two shared that never quite went away.
"When's the last time you saw her?" She was asking about Wendy. Making Jax blink hard, caught off guard.
Tara nodded once, clipped. "Her hands and feet were full of tracks. Toxicology hasn't come back yet. Most likely crank."
Jax's breath left him like he'd been punched in the stomach. The tension in the room was growing thick around them. Juliet moved closer, arms wrapped tight around herself. Not realizing she was holding her breath until Tara glanced at her, the same recognition flashed behind her eyes, before she looked back to Jax.
"We had to do an emergency C-section," she started. "But, he's 10 weeks premature." Jax looked like the floor dropped out from under him. His eyes searched her face like maybe she'd take it back. She didn't.
"Holy shit." Juliet couldn't help it as it slipped from her lips. The pair glanced at her before they went back to looking at one another.
Tara reached out and touched Jax's shoulder. "Come on, let's sit down."
"Just tell me," Jax said bluntly. Gemma moved, putting her hand on his shoulder. Reaching out her hand to Juliet, she took a step toward her mother's side.
"He's got a congenital heart defect and gastroschisis, a tear in his abdomen. The gastro and early birth are from the drugs, but the CHD is probably-" Tara explained before Gemma cut her off.
"The family flaw." She said with an affirming tone, her hand flying from Jax's shoulder to the scar on her chest.
"Yes, it's genetic," Tara continued. "Either one would be serious but not life-threatening. The two of them together, though." She trailed off, making the teller woman's chest tighten with uncertainty. "Dr. Namid gave him a 20 percent chance. And I'm afraid that's being optimistic." She gave Jax a sympathetic look. One that only made the man's shoulders sag further with an invisible weight. And just like that, the whole world shifted.
Juliet felt something fold inside her, a tight, invisible thing that encased all the air in her chest. Her throat burned, thoughts filling her brain like a swarm of bees. Buzzing about her head like it was a hive. Abel, her nephew, she had been excited to meet for months. Now, he is only a few hours old and fighting for his life.
"Oh my god," Gemma muttered, turning away from the pair to cover her mouth with her hand.
"She never wanted to talk to me. I didn't know." Jax said, in a serious, defeated voice, directed at Tara.
"Her OB says she hasn't been to her appointments in weeks; nobody knew," Tara said, slipping from her doctor tone to a more comforting one, trying to reassure the man, but the wheels were already turning behind Jax's eyes. "Dr. Namid wants to fix his belly first, then once he stabilizes, go in and fix his heart. I'm so sorry, Jax, I can take you to see him now." Tara turned to push through the double doors, him following a step behind her.
"Tara." Saying something Juliet couldn't hear before he turned, determination and rage painted his features. Shoulders squared, fists clenched as he took off toward the exit. His steps were heavy and final.
"Jax," Juliet turned, calling after him, but he didn't stop.
"Jackson." Their mom followed sternly, but he told them to go with Tara and kept walking.
Chibs exchanged a look with Clay, and before Chibs even said a word, Clay nodded. "Go. Watch his back."
Bobby and Chibs both followed, boots echoing down the hall, catching up with him as he pushed through the doors and out of sight.
Gemma let out a shaky breath. Somehow looking older, like something had knocked the wind out of her, too. She didn't chase after Jax. She just looked back at Tara.
Tara gave a small nod. "Yeah. Come on."
She turned without waiting and led Gemma and Juliet through the first doors and down a quieter hallway, past another set of heavy double doors. Doors she remembered from childhood checkups and foggy visits to this hospital, ones for the same heart problem that took her brother and is now trying to take her nephew. The walls here were painted soft blues and greens, like they were trying to calm you down before you had a reason to cry.
Juliet stayed close behind Gemma as they reached the NICU. The doors opened with a hiss, and the world changed.
Everything was almost quieter here. The beeping was rhythmic, steady, a soft lull in the silence. The air was cold and clean, in a way that felt clinical rather than comforting. The lighting was soft, but still, everything felt too bright. The room itself was still, as if it were holding its breath. And there he was.
So small, tucked inside a clear incubator because he was too fragile for the world outside it. Wires and tubes connected to his fragile skin. To his chest, his nose, his tiny arms. A blue knitted cap covered his head, and his thin skin was covered by a hospital blanket.
Juliet froze, breath catching in her throat. As if her throat wasn't burning before, it certainly was now. She wanted to cry, wondering how anyone could want this for their child. Feeling an anger of her own growing in her toward Wendy.
Gemma stepped forward slowly, her hand going to the glass."Oh, baby." Gemma whispered. Her voice broke. "My sweet boy."
Tara stood near the monitors, checking a chart, her presence calm but firm.
"He's stable for now," she said softly. And started explaining more to Gemma, but Juliet didn't hear much after that.
Eyes locked on her nephew. On his impossibly tiny chest, rising and falling with the help of machines. On the way, his fingers twitched, like he was already fighting even though he didn't understand what that meant. She moved closer, standing beside Gemma, Tara slipping out, leaving them behind, in silence that felt deafening.
A knot formed in her throat so tight it hurt to swallow. Fingers curling into the hem of her skirt, trying to anchor herself, trying not to cry in front of her mother. But it was useless. A tear slid down her cheek, searing against her heated skin, despite the chill of the room.
Placing a gentle hand on the incubator where the plastic curved up and away. Not touching him. Just close enough to feel it.
"Hi, Able," She whispered, voice shaking. Wiping quickly at her cheek and pretending like the tear hadn't even been there, she couldn't ignore the ache in her chest. Or the record in her head telling her she needed to leave.
She gave Abel one last long look through the glass, wishing she could give him something. Strength. Warmth. Anything.
She had to get out of there, the weight pressing in on her shoulders, making her feel like the walls had begun to close around her. She wanted to stay, but she knew that if she did, she would be sick.
"I'm gonna head back to the clubhouse," Juliet decided quietly, stepping back. Her voice was soft but strained, and Gemma noticed, of course, she did.
Her mom didn't look away from the incubator. Her hand stayed pressed to the glass like she was willing herself through it, too. "You okay, baby?"
She nodded, though it took more effort than it should've. "Yeah. Just need a minute." Gemma still didn't move. Just nodded understanding fully, she knew how her daughter felt about hospitals.
"You need anything before I go?" Juliet asked, still needing to help even when her mind was telling her to get out of there.
Gemma finally turned just enough to look at her with bloodshot eyes that softened around the edges. "No, sweetheart. Go ahead. I'll stay with him a while."
Juliet gave her shoulder a final squeeze, then turned and walked out. Converse echoing against the smooth white floors. Not looking back till the warm sunlight hit her face. The second she passed through the exit, she was pulling a cigarette from her purse, cursing under her breath.
"Shit." She had ridden with Gemma. She hadn't thought about it until now, meaning she either had to find a ride or go back inside and wait.
Turning toward the parking lot. Some of the guys were still there. She muttered a thank god under her breath, moving toward them. Inhaling the smoke deep into her lungs, hoping it would help to calm the buzzing in her nerves.
Clay and Tig were deep in conversation, and Juice had his phone pressed between his ear and shoulder, leaning against his bike, picking at the edge of his helmet strap mindlessly.
Walking up slowly, clearing her throat, she dragged all their attention to her with a "Hey."
They all looked up at once.
Their eyes landed on her face, which probably revealed more than she'd like. Juice stood up straighter. His brows knit together. Snapping his phone shut and setting his helmet on his seat.
"Everything alright?" Clay asked, pushing himself up from leaning against his bike.
Nodding once, biting the inside of her cheek, thumb tapping nervously against the end of her cigarette, she said. "Yeah. Just," she turned her head, gesturing toward the doors she had just walked out of. "Uhm, Mom's staying. I need a ride back to the lot." Clay gave her a look and nodded.
"Juice, take her." He said, turning to the tan man. Juice nodded once, already stretching his helmet out to Juliet.
"Yeah, of course," Juice responded as Juliet grabbed the helmet from him, hitting her cigarette one more time before tossing the half-smoked butt to the ground, snuffing it with the tip of her shoe.
Clay stepped closer, straightening the helmet she had put on her head, then putting a hand on each of her shoulders. "Get some rest, sweetheart. We'll call." He pulled her in, kissing her forehead, and she gave a tight smile and a soft, "I will," before turning back to Juice. She wouldn't.
Juice tossed a leg over, his bike settling in so she could climb on behind him. She nodded a thanks to Tig and Clay before tossing her leg over and settling onto the back of his bike.
Clicking the strap of the helmet around her chin, she tucked her purse into the saddlebag. The bike roared to life beneath them. The familiar rumble wrapping around her as she grabbed the sides of his kutte to hold herself steady.
She didn't say it, but she was glad it was him. Juice always knew how to sit in silence without making it feel heavy.
The ride back was quiet, wind against her ears the only thing disturbing the silence, a kind of silence that settles heavy on your skin instead of your bones. Juice didn't say anything, knowing she couldn't hear him if he tried. His presence was steady, like always. Something Juliet was grateful for in the moment, not knowing how long she could hold herself together if he had asked.
When they pulled into the lot, the bikes were back. Most of them, anyway. A few guys lingering near the garage, smoke curling into the air, voices low, movements slower than usual. All of them are feeling that grief.
Juice killed the engine and offered Juliet a hand so she could slip from the bike, not that she needed it, but he did it anyway.
She didn't say a word as she unbuckled the helmet, handed it back to him, and pulled her bag out. He watched her for a second, something soft in his eyes, before asking. "You okay?"
Juliet weighed the question, tilting her head from side to side, like it'd make the answer less true. "Not really," she replies honestly, offering him a small, worn-out smile. "But I will be."
He nodded, chewing the inside of his cheek like he wanted to say more, inevitably deciding not to. Then he gestured toward the clubhouse.
"Some of the guys are gonna be around later," he said casually. "Figured we'd drink, hang out. You should stop by."
Juliet looked toward the club, then back to him, hesitated, and rang her fingers together. The thought of loud voices and laughter felt too far away from where she was mentally, but maybe that was the point.
"I'll think about it," She said quietly, patting his shoulder. He gave her a small, understanding smile and tapped the top of her hand.
"Doors open, Jules." She smiled softly, giving him a nod, then turned toward her Pontiac. The sun had begun to dip lower in the sky, casting the lot in long shadows. Everything felt slower, quieter.
Climbing into the car and shutting the door. She just sat there for a moment, fingers resting on the steering wheel, heart still back at St. Thomas with that tiny boy in a glass box. The car was warm from the sun, smelling of leather and smoke, mixed with the same scent she couldn't place at home.
Letting out a deep breath, she turned the key. The car sparked to life with a steady purr, low and familiar. Checking her mirrors and putting it in reverse, she backed out, shifted into drive, and rolled out of the lot. Juice's offer still echoing in the back of her mind.
She didn't know if she'd go back tonight. Wondering how this morning feels so far away from the current moment. But she knew she had to feel this.
The drive home felt longer than it should've. Charming blurred past the windows; the same cracked sidewalks, same corner stores, and cheaply decorated lawns from her childhood. But it all looked different tonight, like someone had washed the town in gray.
She kept one hand on the wheel, the other hanging out the window, cigarette burning between her fingers. She wasn't really smoking it, but the habit of holding it helped, even if only a little. The wind pulled at her hair. Still, nothing shook the weight in her chest.
She pulled up to her apartment just as the sun dipped behind the hills. Pontiac rumbling to a stop, headlights sweeping over the familiar cracks in the curb. She let the engine idle a moment, reluctant to shut off the sound. It was the only thing keeping her from thinking too hard in that moment. But eventually, she killed it.
Grabbing her bag, she stepped out onto the pavement and headed upstairs. Stevie was waiting in the window, his black tail flicking like he knew something was off, smart little shit. Always did have better instincts than most humans.
"Hey, Trouble," Juliet said softly as she unlocked the door. "You miss me?"
He didn't move, just blinked slowly, like he was forgiving her for being gone. She dropped her bag on the coffee table and slipped off her Converse, abandoning them by the door, laces still tied together. Moving to sit on the couch, letting her head drop into her hands. A second later, Stevie leaped up and curled into her side, all warmth, weight, and comfort. Letting out a purr to show he was happy she was home.
Leaning back, she rested one hand on his furry little head, bringing her other hand up to rub at the tension in her neck. The apartment was quiet except for the hum of the fridge and the faint ticking of the wall clock. The pink and orange do the setting sun, illuminating the space.
Leaning forward after a couple of minutes to grab another cigarette, she forced herself up to crack the side door. Leaning against the doorframe and looking out. The breeze that drifted in was warm and carried the scent of asphalt and distant cut grass. Somewhere, a dog barked. A motorcycle revved, and life kept going on.
Still, her mind stayed locked in that NICU room.
On the look on Jax's face when Tara told him about the baby. On Gemma's hand against the glass. On the way, Abel looked so small and surrounded by too much machinery for someone who was new.
She took a long drag, watching a car drive by as she exhaled slowly. Trying to keep things from unraveling, the way they always did when grief pressed in too close.
She ran her shaking free hand through her hair, glancing at the small accent table in the corner, next to her record player, where pictures and trinkets decorated the surface. To the picture of her, Jax, and Thomas when they were little, before everything.
Juliet, of course, was tough. She has a way of compartmentalizing. Except when stuff like this made it hard for her not to remember how she felt. Her father and brother had always been a touchy subject, especially Thomas. The survivor's guilt of making it through an illness her brother didn't survive was something she spent a long time working through.
Juice knew that. He had a way of seeing through her, even if she hated it, which is why he invited her back to the club. She knew that if she sat too long, the weight of those thoughts would creep into her darkest edges, the ones she worked hard to keep hidden.
Everyone she was close with knew she tended to overthink, a bad habit she's had since childhood, always worried about others' feelings first. But they didn't know how serious the darkness could get, and she wanted it to stay that way.
So she huffed out a deep breath, turning to glance at the clock. It was still early enough to stay home if she wanted to. But she wasn't sure she wanted to stay.
Stevie let out a soft meow and butted his head against her leg like he was reminding her she wasn't alone.
So she turned back into the quiet. In the half-lit little apartment, wrapped in the comfort of fur, smoke, and silence.