Neptune/12th, and Pluto/8th house synastry will have you sitting on your bed, reminiscing what never was. You can't help but think to yourself and wish things were different, you long for their communication and you feel as if they have something yearning to say to you.
You saw them last night and your expectation wasn't met, the conversation didn't amount to what you had hoped for and now there's this looming feeling sitting inside you. You say to yourself, "..but to me, they feel like everything I could ever wish for in someone." And yet, thereâs no solid foundation in your connection to make this feeling truly valid.
"I don't fall in love easily, I don't yearn for touch, I don't think of others, and I don't openly wish for connection, but when it comes to you; I can't help it. You unlock the very being within me when it comes to accepting a love that I unwillingly crave for, you unlock the acceptance of allowing myself to feel at my fullest capacity, and yet there's no tangible string tethering me to you."
"I compare everyone to you. I compare how your eyes whisper to me "it's okay to let go" and I compare the feeling that stays within even when your eyes aren't meeting mine. I don't question my emotions when it comes to you, there's no hesitation within me, and there's no questioning if a part of me wants a part of you."
Even when my feelings lay dormant and some weeks pass, if I run into you I am suddenly back to wishing, and wanting. Your presence brings me this fulfillment within and I dont know to let the part of me that wishes for this fulfillment go.
I want a home. I want to feel peace when Iâm with someone, I want to feel serenity when they hold my hand. I want to look into someone's eyes and feel, at last, that Iâve found my person; and this desire is only fulfilled when I look at you. Everyone else makes me afraid of letting go, everyone else fills me with a sense of uneasiness that I can't ignore; and because of that, Iâm holding onto someone whose eyes have never promised, "I am yours, and you are mine."Â
I dont watch movies often, but I stumbled upon this film on netflix six months ago while waiting for my hair mask to set before showering. five minutes in, I could tell solely from the vibe that I was going to be captivated. by the time it was finished, I was in tears. I rewatched it last week and had the same emotional reaction
since i decided to return to my academic hot girl era by reading more, I ordered the book. it's been a quick read because Sayuri's POV keeps me invested and engaged. and of course, it's hard to drop a book when you can empathize with the protagonist and see parts of yourself in the story
the themes of emotional isolation, devotion, and living for love are stand out to me the most. sayuri starts as a young girl living a humble life, quickly realizing there's no one she can rely on after the first man ever she trusted betrays her and leaves her on her own. she must survive alone, find meaning in her seemingly directionless life, and cope with emotional isolationâeven her own sister abandons her
when she's desperate for hope, a handsome stranger shows her a kind gesture as she cries on a bridge one day. from that moment on, she lives for her love for the Chairman, clinging to the brief moment of care he offered. the chairman symbolizes everything Sayuri needs to keep living; salvation and love
when they reunite for the first time two years after their initial encounter, Sayuri firmly declares that if anyone is to save her, it must be no other than the Chairman.
the chairman is a soft-spoken, tall man with a wide face and prominent cheekbones. throughout the book, not only do we see the psychological impact he has on Sayuri, but also how she is just mesmerized by his beauty and charm. she also mentions that his existence alone feels calming to her. of course, she's idealizing him and their relationship the entire time, which might be a common experience for women in similar circumstances. maybe my newfound obsession with this book stems from its divine portrayal of the profound devotion and dedication to a cause that serves one's own needs. It's a selfish love, but it's also sacred in its intensity and purity. that's how it felt to me
Sayuri's attachment to the Chairman for meaning and purpose in her life is deeply rooted in her experiences and circumstances. The quote,
"I could have told him then that I was like a tree with no roots, that my life could only take meaning if he gave it to me, but I was afraid of what he might say," encapsulates her profound sense of dependency on him. This dependency isn't just about loveâit's about survival, identity, and purpose.
The roots of Sayuri's attachment
Sayuri's life as a geisha is one of displacement and alienation. Torn from her family at a young age and thrust into a world where her worth is defined by her ability to entertain and please men, Sayuri struggles with a sense of rootlessness. The Chairman, for her, becomes more than just an object of affection; he symbolizes hope, stability, and the possibility of belonging.
In this sense, the Chairman represents the "roots" that Sayuri lacks. He is a beacon of light in her tumultuous world, offering a semblance of stability in an otherwise uncertain life. Her attachment to him becomes a way of anchoring herself, a way of finding meaning in a world that has often been cruel and unpredictable.
The dependency on the chairman for meaning
Sayuriâs dependency on the Chairman goes beyond the typical bounds of love. It is a need for validation and affirmation that gives her life significance.
This dependency, however, is double-edged. While it provides Sayuri with a sense of purpose, it also places her in a vulnerable position. Her entire sense of self-worth becomes tied to the Chairmanâs perception of her. This is reflected in her hesitation to express her feelings openly, as she fears rejection, which would not only shatter her dream of being with him but also strip her of the meaning she has attached to her life.
Attachment as a source of meaning
Sayuri's attachment to the Chairman for meaning is reflective of a human tendency to seek external validation for our sense of worth. In Sayuriâs case, the chairman becomes a mirror in which she sees the value of her existence. However, this kind of attachment can be dangerous, as it places one's sense of purpose in the hands of another, making it fragile and easily disrupted.
For Sayuri, this attachment is both a source of strength and weakness. It drives her, gives her hope, and sustains her through difficult times. Yet, it also limits her, making her lifeâs purpose dependent on someone elseâs recognition.
The fear of losing this validation is paralyzing, preventing her from expressing her true feelings and fully embracing her own identity independent of the Chairman.
In the end, Sayuriâs journey is one of navigating this complex attachment, finding a balance between her deep love for the Chairman and the need to establish a sense of self that isnât entirely dependent on him
hi :D i just saw your cleancore post with ketu in virgo.
what do you think will come next?
Next with ketu's enterance to Leo, we will see extravagant fashion and make-up styles making a comeback. Think 2016 era. Leopard prints and luxury retrofuturistic interior too will have a rise.
80s inspired high-end fashion, bold patterns and colors, back to the future meets 2016
I dont watch movies often, but I stumbled upon this film on netflix six months ago while waiting for my hair mask to set before showering. five minutes in, I could tell solely from the vibe that I was going to be captivated. by the time it was finished, I was in tears. I rewatched it last week and had the same emotional reaction
since i decided to return to my academic hot girl era by reading more, I ordered the book. it's been a quick read because Sayuri's POV keeps me invested and engaged. and of course, it's hard to drop a book when you can empathize with the protagonist and see parts of yourself in the story
the themes of emotional isolation, devotion, and living for love are stand out to me the most. sayuri starts as a young girl living a humble life, quickly realizing there's no one she can rely on after the first man ever she trusted betrays her and leaves her on her own. she must survive alone, find meaning in her seemingly directionless life, and cope with emotional isolationâeven her own sister abandons her
when she's desperate for hope, a handsome stranger shows her a kind gesture as she cries on a bridge one day. from that moment on, she lives for her love for the Chairman, clinging to the brief moment of care he offered. the chairman symbolizes everything Sayuri needs to keep living; salvation and love
when they reunite for the first time two years after their initial encounter, Sayuri firmly declares that if anyone is to save her, it must be no other than the Chairman.
the chairman is a soft-spoken, tall man with a wide face and prominent cheekbones. throughout the book, not only do we see the psychological impact he has on Sayuri, but also how she is just mesmerized by his beauty and charm. she also mentions that his existence alone feels calming to her. of course, she's idealizing him and their relationship the entire time, which might be a common experience for women in similar circumstances. maybe my newfound obsession with this book stems from its divine portrayal of the profound devotion and dedication to a cause that serves one's own needs. It's a selfish love, but it's also sacred in its intensity and purity. that's how it felt to me
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Picture 1
You're focused on the materialistic aspects of your life currently. You could be the sole provider when it comes to yourself as well as your family. You'll gain an unexpected source of income or a boost in your income which will help you in either - buying a new house, redecorating your house to your liking, paying off any bills or any domestic related matters, any debt whatsoever. You may have to deal with certain paperwork or administrative work for some things but this will go smoothly even if it seems stressful initially.
Be mindful of how much toil and labour you're putting into things. This may have been your go to when it comes to earning revenue, studying/grades, getting something that you want etc but this route will no longer work for you since you're unable to enjoy the fruits of your labour properly. You have to act smart and Intuitively aswell as change your dominant mindset/dominant state when it comes to this. Sometimes the hardest work you'll have to do is simply put in effort to change your mindset.
You have high expectations for yourself and a refined taste. You want luxury in your life now, you'll have this too. As your expectations in yourself has risen so has your expectations when it comes to relationships romantic or otherwise. The bare minimum simply isn't cutting it anymore. You'll have what you want. You'll connect with new people and have the romance you've been dreaming of.
Some of you might buy a vintage car or it could be significant. You may also meet someone while travelling. This individual would really want to spoil you and be there for you emotionally even if you're used to handling things by yourself.
You'll have a better grip on your life in the sense it won't feel like it's passing you by and you can't even enjoy it.
For now invest in some cooling mud masks or sheet masks and skincare with ceramides. You need some soothing and maybe even a deep tissue massage. If you can't afford that at the moment you can always look up lymphatic draining massages on YouTube. Additionally, don't sleep on your communication, writing, self expression and persuasion skills.
Significant timings: January and May
Picture 2
You're concerned with a few people in your life. Their opinions, their projections, approval etc to some of you this could be an older male or maybe a boss. On top of that concern you have so much on your plate that it feels overwhelming, it isn't even something you enjoy. However, there are many things that you do enjoy and want to cherish but don't know when, where and how to even start.
You have been compromising yourself and your peace for so long you've lost your sleep in the process or are having sleep related issues. You're apprehensive most of the times. Some of you I'm seeing have bursts of energy where you take all of your pent up emotions mostly anger and sorrow peppered with motivation, joy and hope and get things done and once that burst of energy is gone you feel empty again. You feel as though you'll be punished if you choose yourself, that someone has a knife to your back.
Good news is although you feel as though you're stuck between two choices, you will inevitably choose the one that rejuvenates you.
It'll feel as though you have been swipping dirt for so long and someone finally offers you a glass of chilled water. The wise thing to do then would be to drop the broom and take that glass. Take the emotionally fulfilling new beginning that's been offered to you. Whether it be in a form of a new relationship, new career, new path, anything. You deserve it.
You'll be nurturing yourself a lot more and likely pick up a new hobby that makes you happy.
Some of you could get into content creation or modelling or cooking/baking, even fitness and nutrition.
You'll gain recognition and success. It will happen.
This will attract some side eyes from people who have a stubborn mindset and want to control you cuz they have no control over their lives. It doesn't matter.
I see you putting firmer boundaries and basking in your rewards. A lot of you might also quit a 9-5 and start working from home. You might also switch to a better house/apartment/location.
What's coming into your life is a lot of luck, sucess and attention which in turn will boost your confidence as well as charisma. Remember to count your blessings then and extend gratitude to the ones who have stuck by you. Albiet very few but very honest individuals. This newfound confidence will take you to places. Have faith.
Significant timings: Libra season (things are getting balanced behind the scenes and justice is being served), Taurus season (specifically) and January.
Picture 3
You'll be glad that you walked away and you walked far. You'll have the answers you have been seeking. You are indeed being guided by a higher force even if that is your own soul.
You do tend to knowingly or unknowingly block your own blessings. It's high time you stop doing that just because things aren't currently making sense and you can't see the intricacies. You're supposed to look at the bigger picture and stop dimming your own light.
The lesson here is to stop being so afraid of your blessings just because you assume that something bad is going to happen. Life is happening for you.
Additionally you'll have a closure in regards to something that you had almost achieved in the past but lost due to whatever reason. But you'll realize that it doesn't matter anymore because there are indeed better achievements ahead. Your whole idea of what you once wanted will change so if anything leaves your life abruptly it's for the best, it was meant to be that way. It has served it's purpose.
You no longer have to mourn your losses.
But you'll have a lot to celebrate and you won't be alone.
Some of you might leave your hometown or start over in regards to something. You feel very left out in your current place but this will change.
You have likely endured a lot and forgot about the gifts you posses. Either someone or you will remind yourself of that. There are many promising connections ahead and existence is not supposed to be so dire.
In the past if you've felt your pantry has lacked food or you have lacked resources of any kind, you'll be blessed with an abundance of it.
Be mindful of the world you have build within your mind, the one around you will eventually reflect it back.
Significant timings: Coming 5 weeks, November and January. (Will speed up if you stick to your vision)
"what's your dream job??" Uhh to have 17 weird little hobbies that I don't have to be good at and hang out with friends. I get money via being the world's specialist little princess
This is what you expect from your soulmate, whether romantic or platonic.
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(Remember that soulmate  is not necessarily a romantic partner. Juno MOST of the time is about your romantic partnerships but it can refer to your other platonic relationships with people like friends or family members)
Juno in Aries / 1st House - your partner is someone who is confident and strong. This is someone with a sensitive side in them, who likes to tease and is very honest about their feelings. Affectionate, helpful and protective. Someone who will fight for you and will be your partner in crime. Someone who can be clingy. Someone with a little bit gullible, innocent aura about them. Someone with reputation (whether good or bad). Heroic, badass types. Â
Juno in Taurus / 2nd House  - your partner is someone who is sensual and protective. Someone who is affectionate and generous. Someone good looking (according to your own beauty standards) with warm aura about them. Someone who can provide and is loyal and stable. Partner is generous but they are not lavish. Someone who is jealous,  likes physical affection but also can keep a conversation going. Someone strong and stable.Â
Juno in Gemini / 3rd House - your partner is someone who can understand you. Someone who is caring and can help you to open up and express yourself better. Partner who âgets youâ and understand that your moodiness is not something bad and annoying. Person who enjoys learning new things and sharing them with you. A mood maker. Someone who likes fun and is entertaining. Someone who is witty and smart and also possess high emotional intelligence. Your partner is loyal, can be clingy and is secretly sensitive.
Juno in Cancer / 4th House  - your partner is someone who is a go-getter. Someone caring, very loyal and sensitive. Someone who will show especially with their action that they care about you. The partner is creative, lavish, sweet and understanding. Has motherly qualities. This is someone who wants to build a nest with you and settle. Someone who is jealous and sometimes overly dramatic. Someone really strong, both mentally and emotionally.
Juno in Leo / 5th House  - your partner is someone who is breathing and living embodiment of a Hollywood movie character. Someone who is proud and loves to show how much they love you. Someone who is consistent and in need for attention from you. Entertaining and talkative, wants spotlight but knows how and when to share it with you. Very romantic (sometimes even cheesy). Partner with a soft side. Playful. Someone who is young at heart but is also wise, brave and very protective of you. Someone who cares about how they appear to the world. Stylish, Hollywood god.Â
Juno in Virgo / 6th House  - your partner is someone who just âknowsâ. This person knows how to act in the public. They know how to act with your friends and parents. They know what kind of person they need to be when the situation calls for this. The person is smart and insightful. Gracious and elegant. Someone who has a lot of hidden passion and is very creative. This person show their love mostly with those little gestures. The partner is loving but not in the overwhelming way.
Juno in Libra / 7th House  - someone who is strong and intuitive. Someone who is sociable and knows how to act in the company of people. Helpful and kind. Someone who is not judgmental and always is looking at two side of the situation. Confident, charming personality. Trustworthy person. Your partner is someone who value honesty, loyalty and stability. Someone who is stylish and beautiful (according to your own beauty standards).
Juno in Scorpio / 8th House  - your partner is someone who is intense. This person may appear mysterious and broody. Someone magnetic with a lot of passion who helps you to bring out passion from yourself too. Someone who has adventorous spirit, loves mysteries and is good at solving problems. Someone intelligent and diplomatic. Generous person with a big heart. Someone who value true intimacy. Some astrologers believe that having Scorpio Juno signifies having a past life karmic bond with your partner.
Juno in Sagittarius / 9th House  - your partner is someone with a strong spirit and need for diversity. Partner love travelling, studying and having people from all kind of backgrounds. They may have totally different background than you, they can be from another culture or country. Partner is someone honest, fiery and independent. Indiana Jones type. Someone who is not âsmotheringâ. Someone who always will care about keeping things interesting, fresh and positive.Â
Juno in Capricorn / 10th House  -  your partner is someone independent, bold and classy. Someone who value practicality and is patient. Your partner is persistent, logical but have very emotional and soft side inside of them. Your partner is someone who may be a little bit awkward with showing their feelings. They need to be told it is okay to do that. This is someone who has a lot of passion. Trust and intimacy are very important with this person.
Juno in Aquarius / 11th House  - your partner is someone with a hidden emotional side. This is someone who prefers to act in the logical manner. Someone hard-working, precise but very passionate and loving on the inside. Someone who has unique opinion and ideas. Similar to Sagittarius this is someone who can have a completely different background than you and can befriend anyone. Strong, independent mind with lot of acquaintance but a few real friends.
Juno in Pisces / 12th House  - your partner is a unique person. This is someone with a contrast personality. Romantic but logical. Passionate but can be detached. Thoughtful but impulsive. This is someone who always try to see the best in people and help others. Someone sassy, smart and kind. This is someone who can take you to another world but can destroy what they created in the blink of an eye if you do them wrong. Artistic, strong soul. Some astrologers believe that this placement similar to Scorpio also indicates past life karmic bond.Â
Juno in the retrograde - when Juno is in the retrograde this personâs desire to have a soulmate may be hidden (they may not believe they exist at all). They may be not showing their interest in having someone, at least not outwardly, they may despise the idea of marriage. They may need a time to realise that they want from their partner and what kind of partner they want.Â
Darakaraka is what you chase in life through relationships (e.g Venus dk chasing beauty and harmony through relationships, Saturn DK chasing stability and firmness etc)
These Scorpio women are so beautiful, and yes it's easy to spot them cause they will either remind you of a deer or rabbit. And yes Jennie Kim is an Anuradha, she exudes the same energy as a lot of deer yoni women. She does not give me Vishakha vibes at all.
Exhibit A:
Anuradha Moon. Anuradha Moon.
Exhibit B:
Anuradha Moon. Anuradha Moon.
Exhibit C:
Jyestha Moon. Anuradha Moon.
Anuradha Moon Park Shin-hye and Jyestha Moon Bae Suzy being often compared to each other: (reminding me of when I used to embarassingly mistaken them for each other when I was new to kdramas)
And! I am so, so confident of Jung So-min being an Anuradha ASC. She could be Jyestha as well but I lean more towards Anuradha. And Jung So-min was compared to Bae Suzy on the internet, being that they look alike sometimes.
And a common thing yall should have already been pointed to in this post is the shape of their lips. All of their lips are shaped like a triangle with their front two teeth just sitting there exposed. Like a đ°
Also, Jung So-min and Jennie Kim do give off the same vibe. Watching So-min and thinking she looks like Jennie sometimes.
If you can't see it, then I don't think you'll understand the very Anuradha features at play here. Like I don't think Jennie Kim is even a possible Vishakha. Even if it was confirmed otherwise, that would be an error to me lmao, cause she is so Anuradha/Saturn nakshatra codedâ
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