A Letter Sun-Jae Never Sent — If He Remembered Everything | Lovely Runner Fan Letter
What if Sun-Jae had remembered? What if, in another timeline, he could finally write the letter Sol would never receive?
This is the letter he would have written.
To my Sol,
I remember.
I remember the rain. I remember the yellow umbrella.
I remember the bridge, the time capsule, the promises.
I remember all the times you ran toward me, and all the times you ran away from me to save me.
You thought I wouldn’t know.
You thought that if you erased yourself from my story, I would live.
You thought you could give me happiness by disappearing from my life.
But you didn’t realize, Sol.
You were always my happiness.
Not the music.
Not the fame.
Not the concerts.
You.
Even when you hid, even when you changed our fate, even when you walked past me without letting me see you — my heart still found you.
Do you know how many times I searched for something I couldn’t name?
How I bought a pendant without knowing why it felt so familiar?
How I stood on that bridge, year after year, waiting for someone I thought I had forgotten?
My body forgot you, but my soul never did.
Even when you let go of me, I never let go of you.
Even when you erased our beginning, I still found my way to our ending.
You sacrificed everything for me.
But you forgot that love isn’t something you’re allowed to carry alone.
I would have carried the weight with you. I would have fought destiny beside you. I would have chosen you, even if it meant the same ending.
If you had asked me, I would have said this:
"Sol, I would rather have one moment with you than a lifetime without you."
I’m not angry. I understand why you did it.
You always loved me more than you loved yourself.
But I wish you had let me love you just as much in return.
I remember now, Sol. All of it.
And I will keep remembering.
I will remember the first time you ran to me in the rain.
I will remember the last time we met on those stairs, hand in hand.
I will remember that no matter how many timelines we cross, no matter how much you try to protect me,
I will always find you.
Because loving you isn’t something I choose.
It’s something I simply am.
Yours. In every lifetime.
– Sun-Jae 💛