AAAAA thank you for the sub reader Toko one!!! Can you do a NSFW alphabet? 👀
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WARNINGS: dom!reader, top!reader mentioned once
gender neutral reader
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Aftercare is an incredibly vulnerable time for Toko. Once the adrenaline fades, her natural self-loathing often rushes back in, making her feel exposed or "filthy." She needs a partner who is patient and willing to offer quiet, physical reassurance. Expect her to hide under the covers or cling to you with a shaky grip, needing to be told repeatedly that she isn’t repulsive and that you actually enjoyed the time spent with her.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
Toko is intensely critical of her own body, but if she had to pick a favorite part of hers, it might be her hands—the tools of her craft that she keeps surprisingly well-cared for.
Regarding her partner, she is often fixated on your collarbone or the nape of your neck. She finds these areas elegant and poetic, often staring at them with a writer’s intensity before she ever musters the courage to touch them.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
Due to her germaphobia and general hang-ups regarding "filth," Toko has a complicated relationship with fluids. However, her submissive and obsessive nature often wars with her disgust. She might find the visual evidence of a partner’s climax to be a profound validation of her worth as a woman, even if she shudders at the thought of the cleanup afterward.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
She has written countless self-insert smut manuscripts featuring herself and her current obsession. These stories are far more experimental and daring than anything she would ever admit to in real life. She uses these private writings to process her desires, often scripts that she is too terrified to actually suggest to a partner.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
Despite her career as a romance novelist, Toko’s actual experience is remarkably low. She is a classic "all theory, no practice" individual. She knows the terminology and the mechanics from her research, but the physical reality often overwhelms her. She is clumsy and hesitant at first, needing a partner to take the lead and guide her through the sensations she’s only ever described on paper.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
She leans toward positions that allow for maximum closeness while letting her hide her face if she gets too embarrassed. Modified missionary—where she can wrap her legs around you and bury her face in your shoulder—is her go-to. It provides the intimacy she craves while allowing her to avoid direct, prolonged eye contact when the intensity becomes too much to handle.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
There is almost zero "goofy" energy in the bedroom with Toko. She takes every touch, moan, and movement with life-or-death seriousness. Humor can actually be a trigger for her, as she is likely to misinterpret a laugh as a sign that she is being mocked. The atmosphere is usually heavy, high-tension, and deeply dramatic, reflecting the tone of her tragic romance novels.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Toko is generally modest and perhaps a bit neglectful of grooming due to her low self-esteem; she doesn't see the point in "beautifying" herself if she thinks she’s "ugly" anyway. Even with her long braids that are her signature, she rarely lets them down even in private. A partner gaining enough trust to unbraid her hair during intimacy is a massive milestone of emotional vulnerability for her.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Intimacy is a high-stakes emotional rollercoaster. For Toko, sex is a desperate confirmation of belonging. She is incredibly intense, often whispering dark, poetic, or self-deprecating things. She needs to feel like she is "merging" with her partner to quiet the voices of her own insecurity, making the act feel more like a pact than a casual encounter.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Her masturbation habits are tied directly to her writing process. She often finds herself getting worked up while describing a particularly tense scene in a novel. It’s a solitary, somewhat shameful act for her, usually done in the dark with the door locked. She uses it as a release for the physical frustration that her social anxiety prevents her from seeking out in the real world.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Toko has a massive service kink and a heavy leaning toward D/S dynamics. Given her history, she finds comfort in being told exactly what to do. The removal of agency allows her to escape her own paralyzing overthinking. She also harbors a slight interest in breathplay or being restrained—anything that heightens the feeling of being "claimed" or "overpowered" by someone she admires.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
She is far too paranoid about being caught or seen to enjoy public spaces. Her favorite location is a cluttered, dimly lit bedroom—ideally one filled with books. She needs the "fortress" feel of four walls and a locked door to truly let her guard down. The bed needs to be pushed against a wall so she feels secure and "hemmed in".
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Toko is motivated by a mixture of romantic obsession and the need for validation. Being told she is wanted, or seeing a partner lose control because of her, is a massive turn-on. She is driven by the "tragic romance" aesthetic—the idea of two people finding solace in each other against a cruel world. If she feels like she is the only one who can satisfy you, she becomes much more bold.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Anything that involves sharing or "group" scenarios is a hard "no." Toko’s jealousy is legendary; she wants her partner’s attention to be an absolute, singular beam directed solely at her. She also dislikes anything overly clinical or "boring." If it doesn't feel like a scene out of a high-stakes novel, she loses interest or becomes too self-conscious to continue.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Receiving oral makes Toko incredibly anxious; she is hyper-aware of her body and worries about being "gross." However, she is surprisingly dedicated when it comes to giving. She views it as a form of service to her partner, and she will approach it with the same perfectionist intensity she applies to her writing, constantly checking for physical cues to ensure she’s doing an "award-winning" job.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
The pace is usually frantic and somewhat desperate. Toko doesn't really do "slow and sensual" very well because her nerves are always on edge. She tends to be "all or nothing"—either frozen in a state of shy hesitation or moving with a sudden, needy urgency as if the opportunity might be snatched away from her at any moment.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Toko isn't a fan of quickies. To her, intimacy should be a grand, soul-baring event. A quickie feels too much like a "chore" or a "disposable" encounter, which triggers her fears of being used and discarded. She prefers long, drawn-out sessions that involve plenty of talking (or rambling) and emotional connection.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
She is not a risk-taker in the traditional sense. Public indecency or "getting caught" would likely give her a panic attack. However, she is willing to take emotional risks—sharing her darkest fantasies or allowing herself to be treated roughly if she trusts the partner. Her "risk" is letting someone see the real her without her literary armor.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
Toko’s physical stamina is actually quite low; she’s more of a "shut-in" than an athlete. She tends to burn out quickly because she puts so much nervous energy into every movement. She might be good for one or two intense rounds, but afterward, she is physically and emotionally drained, needing a long time to recover and process what happened.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
She is unlikely to own a collection of toys due to her fear of someone finding them. If she does use them, they are small and easily hidden. In a relationship, she might be open to a partner introducing them, but she would be incredibly shy about it, likely needing a "character" or a "roleplay" reason to integrate them into the bedroom.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
Toko is not much of a teaser. She is far too impatient and needy for her own satisfaction and yours. If she tries to tease, it usually falls apart because she becomes too flustered or gets caught up in her own desire. She is much more likely to be the one being teased, which she finds both infuriating and incredibly arousing.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
She is surprisingly vocal. It starts with sharp, hitching breaths and stutters, but as she loses herself, she tends to ramble. She might mutter poetic descriptions of how she feels or let out high-pitched, desperate sounds. She isn't a "screamer," but she is definitely a "talker," often narrating her own pleasure in a way that sounds like she’s writing a draft in her head.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Toko has a "bibliophilia" streak. Being read to in a low, commanding voice—especially something romantic or dark—is a massive aphrodisiac for her. If a partner reads her own work back to her with genuine passion, she will likely melt into a puddle of embarrassment and intense arousal.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
Underneath her heavy, conservative school uniform, Toko’s skin is pale and often marked by nervous scratches or old scars from her own bouts of self-anxiety. She is thinner than she looks, with a fragile frame that makes her feel like she might break. Seeing her without her glasses and braids is a rare sight that she only allows for someone she truly loves.
Her pussy is often quite tight and high-strung, reflecting her internal tension, and it takes a significant amount of patience and gentle preparation to help her relax physically. Once she feels secure, however, she is prone to becoming incredibly slick and needy, her body betraying the intense, repressed desires she usually only lets out through the nib of her pen.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Her sex drive is exceptionally high, but it’s mostly mental. She is constantly "yearning" in the Victorian sense—always pining, always wanting, but too afraid to act. If she is in a stable relationship where she feels safe, that repressed energy explodes into a very high libido, as she tries to make up for years of isolation.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Toko doesn't fall asleep immediately. She usually stays awake for a while, overanalyzing everything that just happened. She will lie there in the dark, replaying the "scenes" in her head and worrying if she performed well. It takes a lot of physical affection and "goodnight" reassurances from her partner to finally get her to drift off.
