There is a particular kind of wanting that does not erupt, but accumulates. So quietly, so insistently, like condensation forming on glass. You do not remember the exact moment it began, only that at some point the shape of them began to take up space in the most unassuming corners of your mind. And it was harmless, at first. Fleeting. Dismissible. Until suddenly it wasn’t. Until the desire became a presence, not loud but constant, like the low hum of something left running in another room. And still, you said nothing. You kept it contained, buried beneath politeness, beneath casual conversation and cool detachment. But desire is rarely obedient. It seeps. It softens your voice when you speak their name, tilts your gaze a fraction too long, betrays you in ways only you can clock. Yet you become convinced that everyone else sees it too.
That’s where the embarrassment begins. Not in the wanting itself, but in the possibility that it’s visible. That your hunger has made you transparent. You feel foolish, exposed, almost infantile in your helplessness. This is not desire as agency, as pursuit. This is desire as erosion. You cannot have what you want, and yet the wanting persists, quietly mutating into self-reproach. You begin to hate the version of yourself who feels this much, this deeply, for something so unreachable. You watch yourself from the outside; too eager, too tender, too aware of how absurd it all is and yet unable to stop. There is no one to blame. No injustice. Only the quiet ache of encountering something beautiful and knowing that it is not yours to touch. And somehow, even that knowing becomes its own private humiliation. Because what could be more human, more achingly fragile, than craving what will not move to meet you?
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