So I Went Running For Answers...

Tamaus / Musician / Poet / Forever Growing

[ana-elisabeta]

[blkproverbs]

“Come outside, I’m around the corner.”

- Your ride who hasn’t even gotten to your neighborhood yet (via blkproverbs)

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

I miss having a lil shawty I can exchange life updates with . 😐

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

I need a computer so I feel like I'm officially back on here lol

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

You let her go. Right between your fingers didn't you... Figures

Like sand. One of the most painful things ever. But you know? It sent both of us through a process, I can say that I've healed tremendously. I hope she has too. I'm not mad anymore, no longer confsed or depressed or mad at God . Sometimes I meditate and I feel her on the left side of my heart . It's weird, but I take it as a good sign . But anyway , we're walking our paths. Still here, still growing . She's the realest friend I've ever had though. And I'll always love her for that.

[black-women-beauty]

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

Jesus.....

[erezkaan]

[books-n-quotes]

People were created to be loved. Things were created to be used. The reason why the world is in chaos is because things are being loved and people are being used.

Emmanuel Torres, Shapes of Silence (via books-n-quotes)

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

😌🤘🏽

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

It's good to be back, 😌

[nofamallowedkara23]

I have a skin condition. I have eczema under my armpit. It sucks.

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

I feel you yo. I have it under both pits and in my back. It always flares up like this in the winter.

[taces]

[godwantsit]

[no-chill-at-all]

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

2017

Currently I'm sitting here typing, halfway playing 2k, the house is quiet, and I'm up at 2AM, per usual. Right now, I'm both challenged, and excited. Excited because we are sitting on the cusp of another year. Challenged because I'm actually going to be an adult this time around. This year honestly has been the toughest emotional year of my life. The previous 3 years have been kinda bad, but this year definitely took the wind out of my sails. I lost a cousin, one of my closeest friends, my great-aunt, and her brother this year. I moved back to Columbus Ohio out of desperation to be around those that I knew and loved. What I would soon come to discover was that those people would become my biggest obstacle. I fell in love with a girl, she became everything I wanted in a woman, and then some. I was too depressed and stressed to carry my weight and hers too, so we broke up and got back together numerous times, and then after we were doing good for a while, things went haywire, and it caused her to leave because she had enough. Part of me is glad that she was strong enough to protect herself. But on the flip side, it killed me inside. So much so, I would not eat for days, sleep a lot (or not) and lost my enthusiasm for everything. This year showed me how little I cared for myself. It also showed me how dangerous it is to love people so much that you trust them with too much. This year marked a lot of firsts for me. I see a therapist now, probably the smartest decision I've ever made. (Thanks Alex for putting me on.) I'm building status here as a musician, I have a mentor that's actually mentoring me (😎) And I've started meditating regularly. And it was those things that helped me find God this year. I've found such a calming peace. I realized that I am loved. I'm going to do my best to show more gratitude for what I have and who's in my life. Because I'll tell you what. I'm looking into 2018, and I know for a FACT that this year is going to be one to remember. 😌 We've all been through the wringer this year. It's time for us to start actually winning . And we will.

[sobeitjayt]

Hard nipples pokin through the shirt is a great visual

[letsgetmusicallywasted]

How "DAMN." Saved My Life

I'd really love to think that nobody was more excited than me when Kendrick Lamar's album came out. I was so ready to listen to it to inevitably see if he would somehow top his previous work, and also to see what his message to us was gonna be this time. Come to find out , the message of this album is actually a call to action for humanity at large. In the very first track, the question is asked, Is it wickedness that causes the evil in the world? Or is it because humanity isn't strong enough to defeat it? Kendrick literally put himself CONPLETELY out there to prompt us to choose our fate. It's up to me whether I live or die. Kendrick then starts the album off talking about his DNA. How he is the summation of good ( loyalty, peace, royalty ) and evil (poison , pain , darkness). He then talks about his heritage in YAH, and how that is what grounds him, therefore, no one can take him out of his ELEMENT because he knows who he is. However , knowing who you are comes with a cost , because others sometimes know who you are before you do, and take advantage of the blessings you have. Kendrick is so focused on his purpose, he FEELS completely abandoned by the very people that say that they love him. Seems to me Kendrick is stressing to us that there must be some sort of balance between what we know, and what we feel if we are truly going to live.