alex

she/her | either everyone else feels like this and no one is talking about it or im completely fucking alone

[annabelle--cane]

[bubblesandpages]

[evisen]

a quick fitz because i miss rote

[jeyneofpoole]

fitzchivalry farseer psychic out of both ends navigating the world like it’s his first day alive for roughly 60 years then fucking off for purgatorial homoeroticism forever in front of all of his children that’s so fucking aspirational you NEVER have to acknowledge anything that makes you slightly uncomfortable if you are good enough at #ignoring and suicidal ideation he wasn’t even peer pressured into a deathbed confession his nine year old daughter had to do it for him while a live studio audience watched from two feet away and he was half lobotomized and addicted to cocaine for the first thirty years of his life and he still had people lining up outside his bachelor pad to fuck him so he didn’t kill himself that’s INSANE.

[mellowthorn-deactivated20260501]

The Fool, Fitz and Nighteyes

[zeuswuxian]

the way fitz is told he will have a love weave in and out throughout his life and that they’ll be here soon and then immediately next chapter the fool shows up…. like… the soulmate-ism of it all….

[omtai]

She literally does not give a damn what that old fool is yelling about

[unaloid]

the lion does not concern herself with papa

[jhsjykwpdw]

fitz the protector

[louisegluckpdf]

painting this on the ceiling above my bed so it's the first thing i see upon waking in the morning and the last thing i see before falling asleep at night

[amberspacedf]

[boitterfly]

oh sorry was it gay when i hunted through a half collapsed frozen city carved into the depths of an iceberg to find and burn your body because i knew how you hated the cold? was it gay when i carried you through that icy labyrinth half mad with grief and fatigue speaking aloud to your unhearing ears asking the gods to let you laugh at me one more time? or when i lovingly prepared you for your funeral pyre and bid you farewell with my own name because you are as dear to me as my own life? how about when i defied the gods and through the force of my will for you to live, reordered the path of reality itself, giving myself over to your death in the hope of bringing your body back to life from within? was it gay when my soul was within your body, and yours in mine, and i finally understood what you said to me when you told me you loved me?

[neatbay]

if my strange, freakish, widely disliked (situationship) best friend from childhood suddenly became a beautiful, charming, sought-after socialite, dismantling my sense of our friendship being rare and special and private, and also feeling that i lost the kinship of someone who is just as strange, freakish, and widely disliked as i am, i would also have a legendary crash out in the halls of buckkeep. would it be unfair yes. would i do it yes. fitzchivalry farseer i understand you

[tragediegh]

light work lmfao

[spectrum-color]

My fave thing about the tragedy of Fitz and Beloved is that the fault isn’t just in the stars, it’s in them. Yes fate isn’t kind to them but usually their separations are due to their own choices.

Fitz deciding to isolate himself and later to go back to Molly and the denial of his true self that she represents, and Beloved deciding to choose his role as White Prophet over everything else and letting Prilkop play to his insecurities and convince him to walk right back into the jaws of the hell he escaped from as a child. The difficulties that they face when they’re apart are a direct consequence of their own actions.

It would be easy for them to be simply victims of circumstances, but Robin Hobb doesn’t do that kind of simple. She realizes that it’s much more compelling to write about characters who make the wrong choices for understandable reasons and see what happens from there.

[froglatte]

starting realm of the elderlings for the plot and finding fitzloved

[cheesynachosworld]

I had too much caffeine and was up all night doing these I hope u guys like it I have more in drafts :D

Part 2 here

[leavemeuntold]

upstream, mary oliver;

gravity and grace, simone weil;

journal of a solitude, may sarton

inspired by morallyambiguous’ post

[smurny]

It is so fucking cool how CS Pacat wrote Will as an unreliable narrator who is often hiding his thoughts from the reader, cutting himself off, leaving us guessing even when we are in his head.

And the reason it works is that it’s not just a handy literary device that creates mystery, it is perfectly in line with the rest of Will’s character. He is in fact sneaky, repressed, and traumatized. There are parts of himself and his past that he’s unable to accept, thoughts and memories that terrify him, that he has to keep locked up. He can’t even enjoy a hug from Violet without feeling guilt. He realizes he might be the Dark King in like chapter 3 but doesn’t allow himself to think/process it till Katherine dies. He knows how many minutes it takes to choke someone to death. Being attracted to James is too Sarcean-like so he tries to not have those thoughts as well, even though it feels like “the sun, or something brighter”

And all these things are for the reader to infer from Will’s actions rather than being told explicitly by the narrative, which forces the reader to actively participate in the storytelling and become more invested.

TlDR: and that’s how cs.pacat fucked me up and ruined me for all other books 😭