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💙poetry+prose| |from love to pain| |read just for enjoyment| |note if you feel the same💙

[lexi-shantell]

She Used To - Write (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/5PoCgHl2zD This one's for my past.. for the fear for the pain for the dark ..and all of those who had a hand in any of it Because He used it all, and all of YOU, to mold this Queen and to show me that within me is all I need..

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Connecting with someone is beautiful When your soul feels drawn to theirs because of who they are When there's an unexplainable feeling of intimacy simply because you belong in each other's lives And it's not because you share hobbies Or common experiences Or have the same interests ...those kind of connections-while still nice-are not as phenomenal They can be explained They can be understood But a connection shared between you and another person With no earthly bridge is truly rare and magical

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snuff out her insecurities you should be her security don't tell her she's perfect when you can so easily say what you'd change the whole world's judging her and that's fine; Queens are used to that but she deserves to not be forced to defend herself at home too

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5:30am

Me: Dear Sleep,

Please come find me.

Sleep: sure thing love

I'll be there around 7:30👌

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if you could see what you do 〰〰 to my heart with those eyes you’d keep your eyes shut 〰〰out of fear I won’t survive

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I wait all day to hear your voice | a list of things to tell you | sure I could just text you but sometimes I just really want to hear your reactions

I finally get that call | finally. only to hear your groggy “hello” and soft snores shortly after

So I’ll hold this list | for a second try tomorrow night and start a new one of things to say in the Morning

this is long distance |this is Love

-💘-

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Crush: What are you doing here

Me: oh I was in the neighborhood..took me two buses and a cab to get in the neighborhood..but I was in the neighborhood

🎬

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What did she want?

No one had ever asked her that before so she really had to give it some thought when the question arose

“To live”

 she decided

“To travel with someone I love

   to see the great cities, beautiful landscapes, and beaches, so proclaimed

      and, too, the mountain grounds and smaller towns bare of fame;

To fall in love again on each terrain, and every front

 and experience every scent, backdrop, and texture offered and unknown;

“Yes, that’s it

  to have no bounds but those I choose

    and to cruise freely within the realm of an immaterial comfort zone”  

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Whoever said that competition and jealousy makes love grow was mistaken. Knowing the reality of losing someone does make you want to be sure to never take them for granted

But…the second you make her feel like she needs to worry about someone else taking her place, the second you let that even appear to be possible, you will lose her.  You will have doused out the small flicker of trust and security you ignited in her.  She will lose the light in her eyes that only you know so well.

You will break her heart without ever really doing anything

So don’t test her

She’s human,

  she may fail

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When you appreciate everything about a person, it’s hard to put it into words. 

Because their existence has more meaning in your heart than any cluster of letters ever could

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You know it’s what you’ve been looking for when you’re turned in the wrong direction, and it taps you on your shoulder.  When you fear it but embrace all at once, all against your will: THAT is when it’s right.

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Cliffs

Sometimes the parachute gets stuck Sometimes the rope tears Sometimes the net’s not there

But you don’t think about that when you Peer over the edge Walk backwards Look to the sky one last time Run with more speed than ever And soar off the end

Sometimes it’s a mirage Sometimes it’s a steeper hike Sometimes the view is disappointing

But that doesn’t matter When the air is so clear And the wind rushes through your hair And you feel weightless

This freedom That breeze The solitude in being airborne

So jump

Maybe you’ll just fall Maybe you’ll crash Maybe you’ll be hurt Maybe it’ll kill you

But oh what if you fly?

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Swift rustles in the trees and a scent on the breeze  So familiar but just off the edge of memory There's fresh dew on the ground and every creature sounds  A performance of such calamity A symphony of nature’s orchestra The blinding light of sun The prick of leaves; fallen at an obscure angle There's an urgency in the sprint of the squirrel A mission to the splatter of rain  in the swoop of the bird      the infinite trickle of the river And a peace in it all