Looking For Lexie

Long story short ... I am who I am sorry not sorry

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A certain someone ruined my last two birthday… so now I want to have a good one. I want it to be a little bit of a big deal however, but like I don’t wanna be the one to make it a big deal. Makes me feel selfish

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I used to say I had lost Lexie and I was looking for her and I can honestly say the me I am with my juxta friends is who I have been looking for !!

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My heart still aches but I’m ever changed!

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His hand at the base of my back yet I find no pleasure.

His lips touch mine but they aren’t it.

He asks me to be his girl but I can’t…

The feelings I thought were gone … aren’t.

And that’s okay.

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I’m shutting down… haven’t done that in months 😞😞

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I feel so alone ….

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I thought my first love of my life was Luke turns out it was Sean someone who loved me unconditionally for so long and made me so happy…

Turns out it will be very hard to find anyone who compares to him

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It’s been real tumblr ✌🏻

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A new prescription that gives me more power to make a move and really get results ...

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I just can’t ... I never thought he could break me this much when he was the person who built me up more than anyone else ever did

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I’m so done .... I miss my best friend

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Have you ever laid on the floor staring at a bottle of pills hoping something will give you the push to down that shit ..... asking for a friend.

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I just want a conversation I’m not mad anymore I don’t wanna argue I simply miss him company

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I wear so many rings now to show myself as the one he gave me means nothing now my others are just like it no significant value to me

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I’m done missing someone who won’t give me the time of day or the respect I deserve

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Tonight I arrived and it felt nice to have someone hug me like that, but when he convinced me to lay down I instantly missed Sean. I missed him and how our bodies fit like puzzle pieces and how he knew what I liked and how. And how I could feel the passion with every kiss. In this instant I got up and left cause I only want his touch and his care. But I know I’ll never get it so I guess it’s time to move on. No matter how hard that is going to appear to be. At this point I just want to feel something.