Shits And Giggles

”This machine is killing me”- Phoebe Bridgers

[sophie-poetry]

I wish I had known that when you kissed me, I was living the memory I'd spend the rest of my life missing.

Mine.

[lexxiesthoughts8]

Schools starting in less than a month 😝🔫

Like I am excited though. New people, new school, new city. But there’s sooo many kids from my city who is also gonna be studying in the same city as me. Like I’m studying there inside of in my town so I don’t have to see them😓.

But there’ll be sooo many cool people in my school bc I’m studying arts/music. I’m gonna be playing cello in school, like get graded on it. How sick?!?

I also have to wake up early to catch the train but it’s worth it bc I will actually have friends in my new class (I know a lot of the people there from before).

I won’t have any physics (or any science subject), any German (jeez I’m very excited to not have those two🫡), aaaa this is great. Though i did like my new German teacher so it kinda sucked that we only had her for like 3 months🥲.

And my school does a lot of collabs and activities with the two other big schools in that city which mean that I will be able to sometimes hang out and meet the friends I have that won’t be at my school.

[angeltearss0]

In another life we stayed together like we promised.

– angeltearss0

[valerie2012]

in a classroom full of reposts i’m a reblog

[moonvera]

[lexxiesthoughts8]

Also uhm Heartstopper forever broke me

And I’m sad it’s ended

[lexxiesthoughts8]

ALSO NEW PHOEBE ALBUM ON FRIDAY

[lexxiesthoughts8]

A lot of things happned on the two camps I was on like last week. I don’t have the energy to talk about that. And my cat passed away like three days ago. Life’s great😝

Anyways… I saw the new spiderman movie yesterday. LOVED IT IT WAS SOOO GOOD AJSJWJSJS. I miss doing stuff. Like at camp we were doing stuff all the time and like when I’m doing stuff with my friends too. But then after I feel so numb and sad. Or my brain keeps telling me to do bad stuff. Like it was terrifying to drive home after I dropped my friend of at hers after the movie. Luckily I live 2min away from her, but still

And like I know I probably should hang out with my friends more. Since that’s apparently the only thing making me feel happy atm. But like one of the friend groups are like out partying every weekend and as much as I’d love to go with them, I am too tired for interactions and being drunk. Another friend group (my scout friends) lives in another city and it’s such a big friend group that we’ll never be everyone together. And like the only other person I could hangout with is like my ex (we’re hanging out tmr okay don’t mind me) but like we’ve hung out sm. And it’s nice but I WANNA HANG OUT WITH OTHER FRIENDS.

Anywho erm idk who’d read this but if you are uhm, thanks?

Schools starting in a week too. Which I’m really excited about bc that means I’ll finally have structure in my life again. I hate school but now it’s a new school with new ppl and I won’t be in bed all day.

Okay bye bye

[lexxiesthoughts8]

I think I need to post more regularly here. A lot bc this is the only place I can voice my emotions, and ever since I stopped posting here I’ve just felt weird. Like my emotions genuinely have no place to escape, they’re stuck with me.

And I’m not even posting for anyone to see. As I said, just to let my emotions out. Bc I did like last year and life felt soooo much easier. Anyways, get ready for spam 😋

[lexxiesthoughts8]

Why do I have such depressing thoughts at this fuckass camp. I’m living my best life, everything is so nice. But then I get back to my tent and everything just comes back at me

Also did I mention that I’m spending two weeks with my ex who is lwk flirting with me even tho she broke up with me🤨 so that also feels like shit

Now imma sleep, good night

[lexxiesthoughts8]

I do still love her

[lexxiesthoughts8]

I’ve been feeling so good for such a long time and now I just feel empty again. But I mean I got out of it once, so I can do it again?🤨🤷‍♀️

I also feel like I keep hiding parts of myself from my friends. I don’t even know who I am anymore? But who does know who they are at 16 really

[lexxiesthoughts8]

Guys… heartstopper forever just released. How are we feelin?

[potential-sapphic-friend]

school has made me lose my whimsy 💔 💔

[lexxiesthoughts8]

Ermmm hi?

Haven’t posted smth proper in months😓 woops

Anyways LIFE UPDATE

• got tickets for conan gray

• went to Luxemburg and France

• conan released deluxe album

•Phoebe Bridgers comeback

•broke up with my ex gf

•went to see Conan with said ex gf (still bestfriends lol)

• Phoebe releasing tickets to tour, and me not getting any

•ended obligatory school

•got into my dream ”high school” (I’m Swedish idk if I could call it high school rlly)

Yall see how boring my life’s been, this is why I haven’t posted🤷‍♀️

But I’m starting music school in fall WOOOO

Oh yeah, and Heartstopper movie in two weeks😓

And also got a job at swedens biggest fast food chain (Max)#employed

Though only for summer so that’s nice. But they told me I could continue working in fall but they’ve just sent out all of our schedules and I don’t have any in fall sooo I guess I’m free🤨? Imma have to talk to my boss next time I work lol

[cinnavinn]

whenever I log onto tumblr to post a thought of mine I feel like Tori Spring blogging with her diet lemonade

[lexxiesthoughts8]

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳