Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable. oc rp blog for legacy, please read character information and rules before interacting!
This is a drop notice, but please don’t be sad, I still love you!
FRIENDS. CASUAL DASH READERS. This is your Muffin’s drop notice for lgcyonghwa and lgcdaehyung. I truly loved both of these characters, had a lot of fun writing them and will likely miss them from time to time. Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end and sometimes it is best to quit while we are ahead.
I am not accepting any sort of WAH or I am sad messages. Everyone who reply to this must write something happy and positive.
I am extremely sorry for all of the plots I am leaving behind. Esp on Yonghwa, he truly had so many of the best connections I’ve ever written and it was amazing to have written with all of you. As for Daehyung, writing him was fun. He was comedy strong despite all the bad attitude and I hope I made at least a few of you smile with his posts!
Still on twitter so for those of you who wants to chat, COME AT ME STILL. I am still your friend, even if I am not here in Legacy.
Yonghwa had a really great time with the kids, Jinah (@lgcxjinah) and Hunji (@lgchunji).
“This was an unique opportunity. I’ve babysat in the past, but only back when I was a lot younger. Those memories become hazy and this show reminded me of those good old times.” He took care of the neighbor’s kid, a playful little guy who had a tendency of drooling all over the place. Yonghwa didn’t mind because after his energy was spent running in circles, the toddler would fall asleep peacefully on his lap. Then, he would be free to spend the rest of the time petting the kid and watching cartoons on his neighbor’s television. He was neever paid in money but the neighbor worked in a restaurant and would fill a bag full of goodies for Yonghwa to take home after each session.
“As a team, I think we worked well. Hunji was clearly experienced with kids and really comfortable in his role. Jinah, meanwhile, was more or less one of the kids. Watching her play with the girls brought a smile to my lips and I think some of you must have felt the same way!” Yonghwa gazed into the camera with playful accusation. “As for me, I feel like I was the balancer. Kept an eye on things and took care of the shyest baby.” He recalled the little girl, clutching onto his hand so tightly.
“So yes, I had a lot of fun and would love to do it again.”
(...) “ i respect the commitment to the character. really, i do ! ” now he’s less scared than he is excited, grinning at the other at what max feels is the easiest question in the world. “ come on, i think we all know what i choose. dare, dare, and if i have to say it again, dare, ” he teases, his obnoxiousness an attempt to show his own bravery. “ and don’t underestimate me, either ? i am the max choi - you know i’m a true daredevil ! ”
Why were all of the Project Origin boys such cuties? Yonghwa scooped Max into his arms and squished him close. Ah, so many fangirls would be so envious of him right now.
“This is not related to your dare, by the way, I just like hugs.” Yonghwa patted on Max as he thought of a suitable dare. See, they were still on tour and couldn’t risk doing anything too wild. All eyes were on them and the manager hyungs were just waiting for someone to act up. However, if there were no risk involved at all, then the dare would be lame and Yonghwa would hate to disappoint the true daredevil.
Hmmm. Perhaps he should go down the comedic route.
“How about this.” Yonghwa pulled away from Max to retrieve a pillow and a towel. “I dare you to pretend this pillow is the love of your life.” The towel was placed on top of the pillow as a fake wig of sorts, just to accessorize it a little. "They are about to leave you forever.” A melodramatic sigh. “You have thirty seconds to make a passionate speech and convince them to stay.” Yonghwa pushed the pillow lover a little closer to Max and had it shift side to side as if feeling anxious.
His self-dig was finished off with a soft laugh, and he nodded his response to the question. “How about hot chocolate and we try every croissant they have?” He wanted to cheer up his friend up, and if French pastries didn’t help, he didn’t know what will. He wrapped his arm around the older boy’s shoulders, pulling him close. “I wonder what everyone else is up to.”
A puffed up fried shrimp, eh?
“Sounds absolutely delicious,” Yonghwa teased, leaning closer to Jude and pretending to bite him. “Making me hungry.” Luckily for Jude, the offer of croissants was one that appealed to the Yonghwa monster more tonight. Hooray, no human sacrifice of blood and flesh required!
“Let’s go!” He wrapped his arm around Jude’s waist, loving the closeness. Yonghwa was needy, alright? Physical affection was important to him and since getting on this tour, the number of humans he could throw himself on was severely limited. “I want a chocolate one because classic, you know.” Yonghwa was thoughtful as he considered all of his potential options. “Maybe a ham and cheese too.” Balancing sweet out with savoury. What a wonderful thing.
On their way to the hot chocolate place Yonghwa mentioned earlier, his attention was briefly attracted by the bright signs of a mall. “Actually, why don’t we stop by for a second? I still need to get presents for...my family.” He looked down with a smile, which meant pretty clearly it wasn’t family he was buying for. She was coming to Paris too for the family concert but she probably didn’t have as much time to shop around.
< SEOLMI ☘️ > i am going to change your contact name to spoirry
< SEOLMI ☘️ > yes, i am a terrible friend and i am genuinely apologetic
< SEOLMI ☘️ > i can write it in a postal card if that makes it more formal
< SEOLMI ☘️ > jealous of what?
< SEOLMI ☘️ > my good looks? i know. it should be a sin.
< SEOLMI ☘️ > huh?
< SEOLMI ☘️ > are you trying to type cannoli?
He knew she wasn’t, and that he might have accidentally unlocked a chest that was meant to be kept shut, forever. Goddamn it.
< SEOLMI ☘️ > yeah, i had really good ones on this tour and will send you pictures!
< SEOLMI ☘️ > anyway, where are you? i’ll call you a car to take you home
“Even though you say I’m not a burden to you, I can’t help but feel like I am. What value do I bring to you?” His voice broke then, the floodgates opening wide, expressing his deepest thoughts and feelings to his friend “I see how hard you work for the people you care about and I want to ease your stress and I can’t. I keep….messing up. I’m….use—” He cut himself off, taking a deep breath in then, “I just want this tour to go well, but all I can think about is how I have nothing to return to after it’s over.”
Oh shit.
Panic flooded Yonghwa’s chest, even as his expression remained carefully neutral when the news came. He thought it must have been something major and yes, this situation did cross his mind but the thought didn’t linger for long. He just didn’t think Dohyun would risk it, right before their tour.
What is he thinking?
As much as Yonghwa hated to admit it, that was his first thought.
Why would you do such a thing? He wanted to take Dohyun’s shoulders in panic, let the padding of his fingers sink into the other’s skin and shake him. Why? We are going on tour, you can’t afford to deal with the consequences? What if your parents tell other people? What if other people realize you are-
Stop it.
Yonghwa saw his own face reflected back from the water filled glass and felt a wave of revulsion. He lifted a hand, wanting to slap himself right across that well-kept face and leave an imprint so painful that it would tear his skin open and rip back out the person that he used to know.
Yes...He used to know himself, you know...understand his not so glorious nature. There was a Kang Yonghwa who was mischievous and manipulative. He knew how to use his advantages in order to gain in life. However, that person also loved his family above all else and would let nothing get in the way of his loyalty. He knew Dohyun was homosexual since early on and never loved him less because of it. If anything, it made him more protective just in case it should come out and anyone would hurt Dohyun.
Who even are you anymore? Your baby brother is hurting and you are worrying about fame? About he is potentially damaging his career? Who gives a fuck about career? This is Dohyun we are talking about here.
Yonghwa allowed his hand to drop and scoop Dohyun over for a hug instead because both of them needed it. He sucked in a deep breath and when words came out of his mouth, they came out smooth and gentle. “You always have something to come back to. Me.” Yonghwa promised, petting Dohyun’s hair. Inside of his chest, a storm of self questioning and accusations raged. However, on the outside, all was well and calm. See? He was getting so good at this. “I’ve seen you as a younger brother all my life and you are also my best friend.” Yonghwa shut his eyes, letting his artificial smile slip away because the back of Dohyun’s head wouldn’t be missing it anyway. Let his expression reflect his true emotions for once wouldn’t hurt.
"You keep me grounded...keeps me who I am.” He had a tendency to lose sight of that sometimes. Like back a minute or two ago. Good thing he managed to snap out of that state. “This is an extremely valuable gift that you are giving me and no amount of mess up could ever compare. Besides, I wouldn’t call this a mess up on your part.” Yonghwa pulled back, trying to rein in his subtle resentment towards Dohyun’s parents. “We’ll talk to your parents again. Help them understand. Deep down, they love you and they just need time to process the information you’ve given them.” Actually, he wasn’t sure if that was entirely true, but better to go in hopeful than a pessimist. “And if they won’t understand, then you can consider yourself a Kang in the future.”
He didn’t know why he turned off all the lights because this wasn’t the type of game that required a dark ambiance.
“Well, Max...” Yonghwa allowed his voice to trail off eerily because he subconsciously adapted to the weird demonic ritual type of atmosphere they had going on. “There’s no point in waiting any longer.” He leaned forward, his face illuminated by the candle that was on display on his cell phone screen. “Truth or dare?”
Listen, it’s been a long tour and they needed to relax. After a whole day of singing and dancing, Yonghwa was too tired to do anything that required more energy than this. Luckily enough, Max seemed just as eager to play this stupid game. As long as their dares didn’t get too outrageous, no one should be hurt from this experience. ( @lgcmax )
“Does it look good?” Yonghwa ran over to check on the pictures. They arrived at Paris earlier than the other Legacy kids and Yonghwa was excited to explore. Jude, his tour roommate and newest best friend, had volunteered to go with him. Paris was a beautiful place and of course, Yonghwa wanted all the pictures. Who better to take them than his agreeable buddy here.
Squinting at the pictures with a critical eye, Yonghwa scrolled through the gallery feeling a lack of satisfaction. “Do you think I’ve become...puffier?” He zoomed in on his picture, studying his jawline with a frown as a wave of anxiety hit. “Maybe it’s just the angle...the lighting...” He touched a hand to the side of his face, running his finger tip along his skin to assess if these imperfections he saw were real or if it was all in his head.
“Sorry,” he said when he eventually looked up from his phone. “I shouldn’t keep doing this.” Yonghwa had a tendency of staring at his own photos for too long, constantly searching for things to criticize about. It was a nasty habit and one he’d been trying to ditch.
“Want to get some hot chocolate?” Summer left not so long ago and warmth still lingered in the air. Only when evening approached and breezes felt cooler did Yonghwa finally feel right to make this suggestion. “I heard there’s a really good place not too far from here. What do you think?” He smiled, wrapping an arm around Jude’s waist. “I’ll treat~”
“Other things may change us, but we start and end with the family. “
What is the meaning of family to you?
“Comfort, support, motivation and security.” Yonghwa flashed a smile. “Without family, I wouldn’t be where I am today. Even though my parents didn’t stay with me for very long, they still managed to influence me strongly. Together, they taught me what it is like to be loved and cared for, and their well time praises gave me the confidence that I need to chase after my dream.” Parents could make or break their kids and luckily for Yonghwa, his folks did very well in putting him on the right path.
How would you describe your relationship with your family?
”Very good, I should think. I am very close to my grandmother and brother because for a long time, we’ve only had each other to lean on. My grandmother is a strong woman and I respect her lots. My older brother is my role model and a total super star.” He paused there for a second. “I would die for him, I think.” A bit of a heavy turn in the conversation, but Yonghwa thought it would be fine to share. “All lives are precious, and I think his life is the only one I’d sacrifice my own for.” That meant a lot, since Yonghwa was a selfish person with many desires in life that he’d like to see fulfilled. However, his brother partially raised him and deserved his absolute loyalty and love.
Yonghwa would consider dying for grandmother too, but knew she would never allow it. The next runner up after her would be Dohyun, because he saw that kid as his little brother and would always do his best to protect him.
If you were to describe your position/role within your family, what would it be?
”I am the mood maker, I think!” He was always good at bringing smiles to everyone’s faces.
what is your strongest family memory?
”...” This was a hard one. “I guess, the funeral.” Yonghwa was still smiling, but it was no longer a happy expression. “It was really just the three of us, mourning over our losses and promising a better future. I swore to myself that I will become a good man - the best kind that I can be - and make my parents happy. That one day, if I were to see them again, I can see them smiling and...you know, be so proud of me.” Oh dear, he shouldn’t linger on the topic too much longer. It would be embarrassing to get overly emotional on set.
If your family was to be portrayed in a drama, what type of drama would it be?
He would love to say comedy, but truth to be told, the Kangs had a difficult life.
“Maybe...one of those dramas where you follow all of the family members and go through their individual struggles, then have them all come back together for a happy ending.” Yonghwa was really grasping at straws here. “Oh, well, my father was always a huge fan of crime shows. Maybe we could borrow his idea...have a situation where the parents of the family passed mysteriously and after their kids grew up, they attempt to investigate the case on their own? Their efforts would be supported by their grandmother, their trusty pet turtle and their friends, of course.”
He fiddled with his napkin as he sat at the table across from Yonghwa, flinching when the topic of ‘Family’ was brought up. “Please…” He whispered, eyes focused firmly on the table in front of him, “I don’t want to ruin this trip for you, Hyung…You worked too hard to be burdened by my struggles. Can’t it wait till we’re back home?”
Yonghwa waited until their orders were delivered and they were left alone before letting the smile fade from his lips.
“No, it can’t wait.” His voice was stern and his eyes slightly colder with authority. “We are doing this right now, Dohyun.” Yonghwa held that expression for a few more seconds before letting it change into something softer.
“I am not trying to give you a lecture, kiddo.” He reached forward and set a hand over Dohyun’s head. “You know I hate sounding stern - it doesn’t suit my pretty boy face or my gentle hyung image.” Yonghwa tried to smile a little and joke to lighten up the mood. He had to make sure Dohyun understood he was serious, which was why he sounded firm earlier, but now that was well established, he needed baby brother to understand that Yonghwa cared for him.
“You are not going to ruin my trip. You are not going to be my burden. Part of the reason I work so hard to rise in Legacy is so I can make money. And why do I want money, Dohyun?” He gave his friend’s hair an affectionate ruffle. “It is so our lives can be easier. Happier. You’ve always been one of the most important people in my life and I need to know if something is making you sad, okay?”
“I wish you’d find a girlfriend so you’d leave me alone,” she lied as she plopped down in a chair and began to survey his haul. “I bet if your fans knew you were so annoying they’d think differently about you.”
“What kind of man do you think I am?” Yonghwa raised a brow. “Even if I do find a girlfriend, it doesn’t mean I have to leave my best friend behind.” Dohyun and Seolmi - he wasn’t about to give them up for anything! Sometimes people didn’t understand their friendship, because Dohyun was the rebellious type that was constantly in detention and Seolmi had streaks of bad luck just following her everywhere. However, those people also didn’t know they were a part of Yonghwa’s life since childhood. Dohyun was there since the diaper days and Seolmi was willing to fight a kid for picking on Yonghwa for not having parents.
Friendship was the most pure in the beginning, and those younger days would sustain them through all the trials of their teenage years and adulthood. Hopefully, one day, Yonghwa’s dream of having a massive house and moving everyone he ever loved in together would come true.
“You might be right, actually, but they will never know.” Yonghwa laid down over his mountain of chocolate treats, his hands folded under his chin and his eyes curved in a mischievous smile. He was careful about his image at school, building himself to be that perfect kdrama boy everyone could have a crush on. Sports, plays, always having a kind word to spare for those who weren’t doing well and spared his shoulder for those who had tears to shed. Yonghwa just wanted to be liked and respected...to the point that one time when he did lose his temper and kicked the shit out of an asshole in the boys’ washroom, he didn’t get in trouble. Sure, the guy tried to tell other people about what he did, but the others straight up called him a liar.
See, in high school, social status was power. If you had enough popularity, you can get away with a lot of things...Then again, wasn’t life this way in general? Otherwise, why would those corrupt politicians still be able to remain in their positions of influence?
Anyway, getting off topic here. Fifteen-years-olds shouldn’t be too fixated on those higher leveled topics. “So, where is yours?” Yonghwa’s eyes scanned the pile in front of him and realized he was missing one. “All the boys get one from you, right? Where is mine, Seolmi?”
being ordered to move towards the kitchen instead of finding the other two, the girl threw her head back with a laugh as she waddled forward carefully. “okay, okay… hold on tight ladies- yonghwa oppa~ seeking is postponed! dinner first,” she called equally loud back to the guy across the apartment, pretty much like the little girl had done.
“Time for food, kiddo.” And to be honest, Yonghwa could use some food right about now. He offered his seeking companion his hand, but she seemed a little unhappy that she couldn’t finish her game.
Uh-oh. Those lips are trembling, if this wasn’t handled properly, they might be looking at some waterworks in 30 seconds.
“We’ll play later,” Yonghwa crouched down to the kid’s level and gave her a hug. “I promise. We’ll just get some food first. Doesn’t it smell good? Aren’t you hungry?” He looked down at her stomach and tilted his head, waiting for her answer. Thankfully, she decided to go along with this and agreed to eat first. Yonghwa squished her cheeks gently, happy that she decided to be a brave girl.
“Let’s look at what we’ve got!” He scooped up the toddler and brought her towards the dinner table.
from 1 year ago, until today, what has been your favorite day?
“My birthday!”
Who didn’t love birthdays? That was the one day everyone would be extra nice and caring towards you. Usually a day full of compliments and presents, Yonghwa was partial to his birthday celebrations since he was a kid. “I had a really good time with all of my loved ones!”
how do you think your relationships with other trainees have improved (or not) in the last year? what would you like to change about it, if anything?
“I think I get along with most trainees. In the past year, I feel like I became closer to most of the Project Origin boys just because we spend a lot of time together.” In fact, he would like to think that he enjoyed everyone he worked with...except for dear baby boy King. That one was a lost cause and Yonghwa saw no reason why they shouldn’t just keep hating each other.
“I didn’t really have a lot of time for shows this year. These days, when I do get the chance to sit down and watch something, I tend to just re-watch a show or movie I already finished. This way, I won’t have to use my brain at all and can just use the tv sounds like background noise to relax with. If I ever get a few days off and it’s not in a foreign country, I’m planning on finishing off the last season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and then hitting up the Umbrella Academy.”
What was the best way you used your time this past year?
“I think I made pretty good use of my time this year. Career-wise, I certainly kept myself busy and achieved a lot.” And on a personal level, he made some friends, found a cute girlfriend, and did a lot of traveling. Overall, 2019 treated Kang Yonghwa very well. Here’s to hoping for many more.
which personal quality do you want to develop or strengthen in this upcoming year?
“I would like to work on my patience and develop a healthy coping mechanism for stress.” He might not look like the type that’ll freak out about things, but that was because he had a tendency to internalize everything. We could only rely on cigarettes for so long without causing irreparable damage to the lungs so perhaps it was time to find something else. Maybe Yonghwa should look into adopting a therapy pet after all. A cute fluffy something to keep grandma company whenever the boys were away.
