Itās been a year since I diedā¦
(Iām presuming I went out with the sunset as planned on the 27th.)
If youāre reading this it means my beloved Hubby broke. I set this to autopost. If Heās not here to stop it, it can only mean Heās done what I feared and shut Himself off from this world. Iām all my beloved introvert shy guy has ever known (talk about opposites attract!). I can only hope that my immediate friends and family have ignored his pleas to be left alone. Heās a genuine candidate for becoming a hermit in our cabin.
Iām writing this on a shit ton of quality pharmaceuticals. So be warned.
I hope I left at least one lesson:
You canāt cheat death but you sure as fuck can keep death from cheating life!
My best guess is that @instructor144 is still pounding the trails and converting more souls to the joy of crack of insanity runs. Itās 50/50 whether he loves me or curses or my name on any given day.Ā Probably both simultaneouslyā¦
Either way my beloved brother from another mother, you have the heart of a endurance athlete. You tell that old sacred boar Iām reminding him of his promise. Weāre your pacers.Ā
Hey Tribe, you all make sure @magpie-69 knows sheās loved and perfect just as she is.Ā
Anniversaries are weird, so I thought Iād remind you (all of you) to get the fuck up and run (dance, yoga, ride, whatever). Or at least fall out laughing over the pineapple pizza wars.
None of you is allowed to use my death as an excuse to be anything other than motivated to live, really live.
Have a good cry if you must, but it had better be because youāre sad you didnāt start living your best life sooner!
Donāt feel sorry for me. I never did. I was mostly pissed.
Hereās a subby secret. I think most us are secretly control freaks. We spend all our time trying to control things to the point of perfection (which often leaves us anxious and stressed). Having a pledged Dominant helps with that. I know it sounds counterintuitive but my inner control freak always found relief with His control. I need someone to be in firm control to find peace. Otherwise, I gotta do it. The lack of control is whatās pissed me off.Ā
Iām sure some of you have sent loved ones ahead in this last year. No worries, Iāve got them. Tribe is forever.Ā
I suppose I should say something wise and all, but with this mouth, thatās a tall order.
Iām dead and gone. One day, you too will be dead and gone. Donāt be me. Donāt look back on your time here and regret the moments you let yourself get worked up over something not worthy of you. Do the math before youāre facing death. Hereās how ā if you were told you had 6 months to live tops, how many moments of your history would you regret having spent pissed off, resentful, stuffing your feelings, being a doormat, or holding on to things/people not meant for you? So, uuuuummmmmmm, yaaaaaaā¦. stop that shit. Stop wasting your precious, limited time here on things youāre not willing to die for. Seriously, thatās what youāre doing ā dying. Every minute of every day you are one moment closer to your last breath. Spend whatever moments allotted to you wisely. Some fights are worth having. Sometimes itās worthy of you to just suck it up. But mostly not.
See? So much for my being wise. But either way, Iām right about this one.
And, one more time for those in the back ā¦..
Be gentle with each other. Afterall, weāre all weāve got in this not kink friendly world. Love one another well.Ā
And a note for the Littles:
Iām good here. No pain and lots of energy. I get to run and play everyday. I have lots of friends. Itās nice here. Itās not scary or icky. I donāt want you to worry. Everyone here is a happy camper. Thereās a nice glitter forest where the unicorns and dragons hang out. But Iām mostly romping with the pups. The cats spend a lot of time reminding everyone that they always knew they were royalty (which they are here). Turns out so were the chickens. Who knew? So I gotta go before i say too much. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Pretty certain this is my last message from the great beyond. I mean other than the in person hauntings. Good or bad, itās up to you.
@instructor144 you were a perfect death trail companion. I love you fiercely. And, I thank you for upholding my dignity. You never shied away from the ugly parts and you always upheld my dignity. When your time comes decades from now, the horns will be sounding and all of us will be here to cheer your arrival. Make sure youāre wearing that Javelina bling ;-D
Moi ā the once and future submissive-seeking
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