7 hours of sobbing in the bathroom, trying not to throw up.
flashbacks to traumatic events.
one side of yourself saying “death will get rid of the memories” and the other side making excuses not to.
being unable to sleep in fear of dreaming about said traumatic events
being unable to be around anything that even slightly reminds you of said traumatic event
tensing up and feeling ill when someone even vaguely mentions anything related to the traumatic event you experienced, trying your best to avoid crying about it.
why am i crying? this is irrational, it wont happen again. why does this hurt so much. why can’t i just forget. this is all in my head. stop thinking about it. stop thinking about it stop thinking about it.
likely caused by post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or other serious stress causing disorders.
nightmares waking you up at three in the morning and trying to keep yourself together just long enough to get back to sleep because you have classes to attend in the morning.
shaking and trying to keep it together in public as you’re crytyping when you’re venting to a friend because all you want is to get it off your chest, whether or not anyone can even understand what you’re trying to get across.
you know this thing you love doing that’s completely unrelated to trauma? you experienced a vague flashback while doing it so now you can’t do it again out of fear you’ll have worse flashbacks.
completely forgetting who you are and being completely numb.
maybe if I hurt myself in this way, I’ll stop hurting in that way.
stuttering and having a difficult time breathing as you try to ask someone not to bring up the subject again. Being too loud or being too quiet as you try to hide the fact this is extremely distressing.
something you need professional help and therapy to “get over”
what being triggered is not:
being uncomfortable with something
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