* JIGSAW / PIECES.

who am i / what am i?

[liarincommandarc]

#LIARINCOMMAND. an ind. private and selective billy russo from netflix’s the punisher. this blog contains triggering themes. triggers will be tagged accordingly. sniped by sasha.

IMPORTANT.

this blog rarely follows first ( unless i know / am familiar with the person ).

activity is sporadic due to the fact i am neurodivergent & have a severe mental illness. ooc is also sporadic because of this.

billy has bpd (hc) and this will be mentioned on this blog. all mentions will be tagged with cw mental illness. this will be explored because it’s a very important part of his betrayal and who billy is.

triggering themes will appear on this blog due to the nature of the source material. these will be tagged.

THIS BLOG EXPLORES THEMES OF :  mental illness in the military , fluctuating and lacking sense of self , non existent self identity , abandonment issues , betraying your friends , childhood trauma , survival , and killing yourself ( figuratively ) to become someone else.

wip.

[acaratorchhadeath-deactivated20]

#ACARATORCHHADEATH. When you can’t tell your friends from your enemies, it’s time to go.

ind. private & selective multimuse ft muses from the james bond universe , marvel & more. explored by jishwa.

[liarincommand]

#LIARINCOMMAND. This face has everything that I ever did wrong written all over it. And when I look in the mirror, I want to see the best version of myself again.

i made it a l i v e , but i think lost it. said that i was fine , said it from my c o f f i n.

an indepth ind. private & selective exploration of william russo from netflix's the punisher. trauma informed by sasha. sideblog to @burdenedbyeternity

[liarincommandarc]

hi , billy is over on @liarinacommand now!!!

[jackalsraised]

TAYLOR SWIFT MIDNIGHTS SENTENCE STARTERS

Change pronouns as you see fit. CW: ED, depression, etc

Lavender Haze

“Meet me at midnight”

“You don’t ever say too much.”

“You don’t really read into my melancholia.”

“I’ve been under scrutiny.”

“You handle it beautifully.”

“All this shit is new to me.”

“I feel a lavender haze creeping up on me.”

“I’m damned if I do give a damn what people say.”

“I just wanna stay in the lavender haze.”

“All they keep asking me is if I’m gonna be your bride.”

“The only kind of girl they see is a one night or a bride.”

“I just need this love spiral.”

“Get it off your chest.”

“Get it off my desk.”

Maroon

“Cause we lost track of time again.”

“How’d we end up on the floor anyway?”

“The lips I used to call home, so scarlet it was maroon.”

“When the silence came we were shaking blind and hazy.”

“How the hell did we lose sight of us again?”

“Sobbing with your head in your hands.”

“Ain’t that the way shit always ends?”

“Carnations you thought were roses, that was us.”

“I feel you no matter what.”

“When I lost you.”

“Awake with your memory over me.”

“That’s a real fucking legacy to leave.”

Anti Hero

“I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser.”

“Midnights becomes my afternoon.”

“When my depression works the graveyard shift l of the people i ghosted stand in the room.”

“I should not be left to my own devices.”

“They come with prices and vices.”

“I end up in crisis.”

“I’ve realized all this time.”

“I wake up screaming from dreaming.”

“One day I’ll watch as you’re leaving.”

“You got tired of my scheming for the last time.”

“I’m the problem.”

“It’s me, I’m the problem, it’s me.”

“At tea time, everybody agrees.”

“I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror.”

“It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti hero.”

“I’m a monster on the hill.”

“Pierced through the heart, but never killed.”

“Did you hear my covert narcissism disguised as altruism”

“Life will lose all of its meaning for the last time.”

“I have this dream my daughter in law kills me”

“She’s laughing up at us from hell.”

Snow on the Beach

“I saw flecks of what could’ve been lights.”

“It might have just been you.”

“Life is emotionally abusive.”

“My flight was awful, thanks for asking.”

“I’m unglued thanks to you.”

“It’s like snow on the beach.”

“Weird but fucking beautiful.”

“Tonight feels impossible.”

“I’ve never seen someone live from within.”

“To hide that would be dishonest.”

“It’s fine to fake it til you make it.”

“I can’t speak, afraid to jinx it.”

“I don’t even dare to wish it.”

“Can this be a real thing?”

You’re on your own, kid.

“Summer went away, still the yearning stays.”

“I play it cool with the best of them.”

“I wait patiently, he’s gonna notice me.”

“I didn’t choose this town.”

“I dream of getting out.”

“I waited ages to see you live.”

“Just to learn you never cared.”

“You’re on your own kid. You always have been.”

“I see the great escape.”

“I picked the petals, he loves me not.”

“Something different bloomed.”

“I run away.”

“I gave my blood, spending tears more or less.”

“I hosted parties and starved my body.”

“Like I’d be saved by the perfect kiss.”

“I looked around in a blood soaked gown.”

“Cause there were pages turned when the bridges burned.”

“Everything you lose is a step you take.”

“Yeah you can face this.”

Midnight Rain

“I don’t remember what you said or how you said it.”

“The way you looked at me so different.”

“Cold as ice, I won’t forget it.”

“The way you change your heart, it’s like the weather.”

“You’re willful, I’m headstrong.”

“The daybreaks, I move on.”

“Still one thing I can’t long for.”

“Feels like midnight rain.”

“I can’t help it, I hear your name.”

“I can’t seem to wash you away.”

“Still I got myself in your flames.”

“I wouldn’t wonder what you’re doing with your time.”

“If you have a lover.”

“I pretend you’re forgiven.”

“When I change my heart, you’re not forgiven.”

Question…?

“Big cities, wrong choices.”

“We had one thing going on.”

“I swear that it was something.”

“I don’t remember who I was before you.”

“One thing after another fucking situations, circumstances, miscommunications.”

“By the way, I just may like some explanations.”

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room?”

“Then what did you do?”

“Did you leave her house in the middle of the night?”

“Did you wish you put up more of a fight?”

“When she said it was too much, do you wish you could still touch her?”

“She was on your mind with some dickhead guy.”

“You’re not sure and I don’t know.”

“Does it feel like everything’s just like second best?”

“What was that that I heard? That you’re still with her?”

Vigilante Shit

“Draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man.”

“You did some bad things, but I’m the worst of them.”

“Sometimes I wonder which one of them will be your last lie.”

“They say looks can kill and I might try.”

“Lately I’ve been dressing for revenge.”

“I don’t start shit but I can tell you how it ends.”

“Don’t get sad, get even.”

“She needed cold hard proof, so I gave her some.”

“Picture me, thick as thieves with your ex wife.”

“And she looks so pretty driving in your benz.”

“Ladies always rise above.”

“Someone sweet and kind and fun.”

“Well he was doing lines, and crossing all of mine.”

“I don’t dress for villains, or for innocents.”

“I’m on my vigilante shit.”

Bejeweled

“Didn’t notice you walking all over my piece of mind.”

“And by the way, I’m going out tonight.”

“Best believe I’m still bejeweled when I walk in the room.”

“I can still make the whole place shimmer.”

“Familiarity breeds contempt.”

“Diamonds in my eyes, I polish up real nice.”

“I think I’ve been too good of a girl.”

“I think it’s time to teach some lessons.”

“I made you my world, but have you heard, I can reclaim the land?”

“I miss you, but I miss sparkling.”

“When I meet the band, they ask ‘do you have a man’ i can still say I don’t remember.”

“Sapphire tears on my face, sadness becomes my whole sky.”

“Some guy said my aura’s moonstone just ‘cause he was high.”

“What’s a girl gonna do? A diamond’s gotta shine.”

Labyrinth

“It only hurts this much right now.”

“Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out.”

“I’ll be getting over you my whole life.”

“You know how scared I am.”

“It rises past, it can’t last.”

“Uh-oh, I’m falling in love.”

“Oh no, I’m falling in love again.”

“How’d you turn it right around.”

“Lost in the labyrinth of my mind.”

“Break up, break through, break free, break down. “

“You know how much I hate that everybody expects me to just bounce back.”

Karma

“You talkin’ shit for the hell of it.”

“Addicted to betrayal but you’re relevant.”

“You’re terrified to look down.”

“If you dare, you’ll see the glare of everyone you burned just to get there.”

“I keep my side of the street clean.”

“You wouldn’t know what I mean.”

“Karma’s a relaxing thought.”

“But for you, it’s not sweet like honey.”

“Flexing like a god damn acrobat.”

“Weave your little webs of opacity.”

“My pennies made your crowns.”

“Trick me once, trick me twice.”

“Did you know cash ain’t the only price?”

“Ask me what I learned from all those years.”

“Cause Karma is the thunder, rattling the ground.”

“Sweet like justice.”

Sweet Nothing

“Does it ever miss sometimes?”

“They said the end is coming.”

“Everyone is up to something.”

“All you ever wanted from me was sweet nothings”

“You say what a mind, it happens all the time.”

“The voices that implore, you should be doing more.”

“I can’t admit that I’m too soft for all of it.”

Mastermind

“Once upon a time, the planets and the fates aligned.”

“You and I ended up in the same room at the same time.”

“The touch of a hand lit the fuse.”

“A chain reaction of counter moves.”

“Checkmate: I couldn’t lose.”

“What if I told you none of it was accidental?”

“The first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me.”

“I laid the groundwork and then, just like clockwork, the dominoes cascaded in a line.”

“What if I told you I’m a mastermind.”

“And now you’re mine.”

“It was all by design.”

“We were born to be the pawn in every lovers game.”

“If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.”

“What if I told you none of it was accidental, and the first night that you saw me, i knew I wanted your body?”

“It was all my design”

“No one wanted to play with me as a little kid.”

“I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since.”

“To make them love me, and make it seem effortless.”

“This is the first time I felt the need to confess.”

“I swear I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian because I care.”

“Saw a wide smirk on your face- you knew the entire time?”

[brdiedresources]

THE  PUNISHER,  S2  SENTENCE  STARTERS   :  P1

‘  technically,  i think it’s early.  ’

‘  you got a name i could use  ?  ’

‘  there’s something you’re not telling me.  ’

‘  see,  i think you’re full of shit.  i think you’re hiding something.  ’

‘  it’s what you made it.  ’

‘  yeah,  but it’s the principle of the thing  !  ’

‘  you can’t even get close to understanding.  ’

‘  isn’t that the kind of thing an asshole would do  ?  ’

‘  you are all he thinks about.  ’

‘  she’s trying to kill me.  ’

‘  if you run,  you can’t see what’s coming up from behind you.  ’

‘  you think you can beat anybody, no matter how stacked the deck.  ’

‘  and you’re bored, and you drink too much coffee.  ’

‘  you look like an asshole to me.  ’

‘  you had the shot,  you didn’t take it.  ’

‘  this shit never ends.  trust me.  ’

‘  why can’t we meet up and fish in florida like normal friends  ?  ’

‘  i went fishing once with dynamite.  that was pretty fun.  ’

‘  i want a real life.  ’

‘  the only way to win is to not play.  ’

‘  i think you should get some sleep. ’

‘  you’ve got a big mouth.  ’

‘  you’re dressed like a star.  ’

‘  so dust off your eff-me pumps.  ’

‘  i want the last thing i see in this world to be you.  ’

‘  to be honest,  i’m desperate.  ’

‘  belief never stopped a bullet.  ’

‘  you should see the other guy.  ’

‘  this may be shocking for you, but i don’t trust you.  ’

‘  shit,  i really don’t ever want to see you again.  ’

‘  try the internet.  ’

‘  i don’t think this guy plays three-card monte.  ’

‘  kiss my ass.  ’

‘  i got a problem,  and i need your help.  ’

‘  you don’t exist anymore.  we buried you.  ’

[liarincommandarc]

who's gonna break bill out of the raft?

[kamillahn]

Ben Barnes in The Punisher (2.12)

[liarincommandarc]

STARTER CALL. hit the heart for a starter! length will vary.

[liarincommandarc]

PSA. all threads have been dropped. this is a fresh start. a new starter call is coming soon!

[liarincommandarc]

thinking about billy screaming "HOW DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME?!"

[brdiedresources]

THE  PUNISHER,  S2  SENTENCE  STARTERS   :  P1

‘  technically,  i think it’s early.  ’

‘  you got a name i could use  ?  ’

‘  there’s something you’re not telling me.  ’

‘  see,  i think you’re full of shit.  i think you’re hiding something.  ’

‘  it’s what you made it.  ’

‘  yeah,  but it’s the principle of the thing  !  ’

‘  you can’t even get close to understanding.  ’

‘  isn’t that the kind of thing an asshole would do  ?  ’

‘  you are all he thinks about.  ’

‘  she’s trying to kill me.  ’

‘  if you run,  you can’t see what’s coming up from behind you.  ’

‘  you think you can beat anybody, no matter how stacked the deck.  ’

‘  and you’re bored, and you drink too much coffee.  ’

‘  you look like an asshole to me.  ’

‘  you had the shot,  you didn’t take it.  ’

‘  this shit never ends.  trust me.  ’

‘  why can’t we meet up and fish in florida like normal friends  ?  ’

‘  i went fishing once with dynamite.  that was pretty fun.  ’

‘  i want a real life.  ’

‘  the only way to win is to not play.  ’

‘  i think you should get some sleep. ’

‘  you’ve got a big mouth.  ’

‘  you’re dressed like a star.  ’

‘  so dust off your eff-me pumps.  ’

‘  i want the last thing i see in this world to be you.  ’

‘  to be honest,  i’m desperate.  ’

‘  belief never stopped a bullet.  ’

‘  you should see the other guy.  ’

‘  this may be shocking for you, but i don’t trust you.  ’

‘  shit,  i really don’t ever want to see you again.  ’

‘  try the internet.  ’

‘  i don’t think this guy plays three-card monte.  ’

‘  kiss my ass.  ’

‘  i got a problem,  and i need your help.  ’

‘  you don’t exist anymore.  we buried you.  ’

[liarincommandarc]

okay probs gonna drop all threads and start fresh mayhaps!

[liarincommandarc]

#LIARINCOMMAND. In the valley of the dolls, we sleep, we sleep. Got a hole inside of me, of me. Born with a void hard to destroy with love or hope. Built with a heart, broken from the start and now I die slow. In the valley of the dolls we sleep, got a hole inside of me, living with identities that do not belong to me. In my life,I got this far, now I’m ready for the last hoorah. Dying like a shooting star in the valley, in the valley, in the valley. Pick a personality for free when you feel like nobody. Born with a void hard to destroy with love or hope. Built with a heart, broken from the start and now I die slow  

“If you beat a dog long enough, it goes crazy. Doesn’t matter how good it was before. After that happens, the dog that you knew is never coming back.”

B L A C K B I R D. : US Marine Special Forces. Scout Sniper : 137 confirmed kills.

ind. private and very selective billy russo from netflix’s the punisher. heavily headcanon based. sniped by sasha.  

[liarincommandarc]

guess whos possibly coming back

[iilvecchio-deactivated20230926]

#IILVECCHIO. "I’m a Black man carrying the stars and stripes. What don’t I understand? Every time I pick this thing up, I know there are millions of people who are gonna hate me for it. Even now, here… I feel it. The stares, the judgment. And there’s nothin’ I can do to change it. Yet, I’m still here. No super serum, no blond hair, or blue eyes. The only power I have is that I believe we can do better. We can’t demand that people step up if we don’t meet them halfway. Look, you control the banks. Shit, you can move borders! You can knock down a forest with an email, you can feed a million people with a phone call. But the question is, who’s in the room when you make those decisions? Hmm? Is it the people you’re gonna impact? Or is it just more people like you? I mean, this girl died trying to stop you, and no one has stopped for one second to ask why. You’ve gotta do better, Senator. You’ve gotta step up. Because if you don’t, the next Karli will. And you don’t wanna see 2.0. People believed in her cause so much that they helped her defy the strongest governments in the world. Why do you think that is? Look, you people have just as much power as an insane god or a misguided teenager. The question you have to ask yourself is, “How are you going to use it?"

ind. private & selective , sam wilson from the marvel universe. mcu with 616 influence. written by sasha. heavily headcanon based and found on @iilvecchio.

[brdiedresources]

THE  PUNISHER,  S2  SENTENCE  STARTERS   :  P1

‘  technically,  i think it’s early.  ’

‘  you got a name i could use  ?  ’

‘  there’s something you’re not telling me.  ’

‘  see,  i think you’re full of shit.  i think you’re hiding something.  ’

‘  it’s what you made it.  ’

‘  yeah,  but it’s the principle of the thing  !  ’

‘  you can’t even get close to understanding.  ’

‘  isn’t that the kind of thing an asshole would do  ?  ’

‘  you are all he thinks about.  ’

‘  she’s trying to kill me.  ’

‘  if you run,  you can’t see what’s coming up from behind you.  ’

‘  you think you can beat anybody, no matter how stacked the deck.  ’

‘  and you’re bored, and you drink too much coffee.  ’

‘  you look like an asshole to me.  ’

‘  you had the shot,  you didn’t take it.  ’

‘  this shit never ends.  trust me.  ’

‘  why can’t we meet up and fish in florida like normal friends  ?  ’

‘  i went fishing once with dynamite.  that was pretty fun.  ’

‘  i want a real life.  ’

‘  the only way to win is to not play.  ’

‘  i think you should get some sleep. ’

‘  you’ve got a big mouth.  ’

‘  you’re dressed like a star.  ’

‘  so dust off your eff-me pumps.  ’

‘  i want the last thing i see in this world to be you.  ’

‘  to be honest,  i’m desperate.  ’

‘  belief never stopped a bullet.  ’

‘  you should see the other guy.  ’

‘  this may be shocking for you, but i don’t trust you.  ’

‘  shit,  i really don’t ever want to see you again.  ’

‘  try the internet.  ’

‘  i don’t think this guy plays three-card monte.  ’

‘  kiss my ass.  ’

‘  i got a problem,  and i need your help.  ’

‘  you don’t exist anymore.  we buried you.  ’