carmine hues decorate the kitchen and her living room , small pools beginning to bloom against the ligneous floor. the sent of copper invades her nose and she’s shaking , only brought to realization when the overhead light reflects off the saturated blade. tears threaten to burn her eyes , but she swallows them down —— they don’t deserve her remorse. certainly not after all they’ve done to her … right ? this had to be done , she didn’t have a choice. the words are wedged in her throat , begging to be spoken , but yumi doesn’t let them. instead , she abides by the directions given to her via the police that’s stormed her home before being transported to the courtroom. ❝ due to the severity of the crimes … ❞ the case has reached the sentencing phase , but before she’s able to relive it , her eyes shoot open. she lies in bed , a thin layer of perspiration coating her skin and she wants to cry , but she can’t bring herself to do so.
instead , she bathes and dresses herself in her best ( and probably most revealing ) clothing before venturing off into the night. there’s no real destination in mind , but after the nightmare , falling back asleep was impossible. plus , in a world such as this , why would one want to sleep anyway ? her hands are place inside the pockets of her jacket and she walks ; eyes glazing over the incredible scenery before her. it’s a wonder , really , and she’s still unsure as to how she ended up here , but she doesn’t dare question it. after all , she’s not missing anything in her old life. her thoughts continue , mind bouncing from possibility to possibility ( they were endless here ) until she finds herself in a familiar part of town ; a joyful smile tugging at berry lips. ❝ yuxian … ❞ the name rolls from her tongue in a whisper , carried away in the cool breeze.
there’s now a skip in her step , her posture PERKED with anticipation as she nears @libvrtines‘s door. her knuckles rap against the entrance , her words coming out like a song she’s intimate with: ❝ i know you’re in there … come play with me ! ❞
CRADLED IN A BOX OF a bedroom , sleep finds it hard to make a home of xian when his restless body rejects it . three years and six months he’d chipped away at the slab of concrete lining his jail cell , telling time and season only by the light that filtered in through the minuscule window allowing him a glimpse into the world he was no longer apart of . the male sometimes wakes in a cold sweat , one day fearing he’ll open his eyes only to look up at that same ceiling that had been boxing him in for so long , and tonight again is one of those nights .
❛ it’s too early to be doing dumb shit. ❜ xian monotones sluggishly , but there’s still a lilt to his tone : something he doesn’t extend to many others and that’s the hum of familiarity . after becoming aware that they were more alike than discernibly to be seen upon their first meeting , annoyingly the taller male hasn’t found himself souring at the thought of yumi’s company . yet . there’s no thought spared to what if’s and maybe’s , no talk of the smeared mascara to be observed lining her mirthful eyes like a forewarning of what was to come : because even before he was transported to this new shiny way of life , no thought was spared to any hasty action before he followed through with it . act now , think later had always proven to be fool - proof before , thinking perhaps landing himself in jail was the ticket he ultimately needed to end up here .
❛ fine .. ❜ with that , the male’s throwing on a raggedy old coat over mismatched pyjamas , leather looking entirely out of place paired with the usual sleep - wear . who gives a fuck either way , though ? they’re lost –– lost in this city of pixels , who knows when they’ll ever return . if they’ll ever return . he hopes to whatever god exists out there that they don’t , not when he’s just earned his freedom back once and for all . ❛ i hope you have sum’ fun in mind . if i find out you’ve woken me up to go eat ramen or go star gazing , i’ll make sure to keep the door closed next time . ❜
HE’S DRESSED IN SHADES of black and gray , a colourless void against a static polychrome wave that he’s learnt to become attuned to over the past month or so . mouth shines heady in liqour - stained punctuality , knees and thighs peaking out from torn and ragged jeans , bleeding down into unlaced boots dusted dark and scratchy from the city’s gravel .
xian peels himself from the hustle - and - bustle of the club environment whilst settling for a cool side alley instead , unfolding long , wound - up limbs until hands rest on a seemingly unassuming vendor that glows pure white . pockets weigh heavy with food and drinks already taken , and though the taller was never one for sticky fingers when hands bunched into fists quick enough to earn him anything he’d ever needed : he unlearns words like stealing when loop - hole was always a more fun alternative .
❛ alright ? ❜ a murmur to the new - comer who seems interested , words overlapping one another in lazily slurred syllables , almost as if lifting a tongue was an action that already hindered him enough . the corners of his mouth pull back in a wolf's smile : toothy and full of mischief. ❛ so fucking cool , look. i realised some of this world just.. doesn’t work sometimes . things seem like they’re limiting you from reaching out to touch but... ❜ a hand reaches out , flows through the glass smoothly , grasps at one of the last items he hasn’t taken with the click tongues and a sly smile . ❛ all of this shit is mine , though . i’d advise going elsewhere . ❜ he warns , but it’s not so much a friendly suggestion as it is a hostile order .
hewwo i’m felix ( 20 , he / him , gmt ) and i just realised my fc has no mf resources that aren’ t from him as a fetus and will therefore b spendin approximately all my free hrs cranking out gif icons , so lets get it * pained laughter * ! this is my boy.. except he’s not my boy and i take no credit for who he is as a person because he’s the personification of a flaming dumpster fire , xu yuxian . his pinterest board is here , i don’t have a full amazing wc page but i do have some wc’s beneath.. so if u jus wanna stick around for that i won’t blame u bc otherwise this is just a Wreck . ( i literally just had to search up my muses name bcs i forgot it but i know he’s a scorpio at least so if that is any indication of how this is gonna be then yeah . this is gonna be the Worst ) . drop a heart if you would like to plot , or just add me up on d*scord no anime pls im christian#1950 for quicker messages ! TW : mentions of drugs , violence , death , blood , manipulation .
scanning XU YUXIAN, they are TWENTY FOUR year old and read as CUNNING but DECEITFUL, which explains why they are referred to as the VARMINT. before virtual reality HE was IMPRISONED FOR THE DISTRIBUTION OF DRUGS and living in QUINGDAO, CHINA. they’ve been said to look incredibly similar to HUANG ZITAO, but they’ve never seen it. in this new virtual world, they plan on DOING ALL OF THE CRAZY SHIT HE'S ALWAYS WANTED TO and hope to NEVER GO BACK to reality.
* BACKGROUND !
tl ; dr . “ the best way to solve a problem is just to eliminate it . " in thick accented mandarin. the roar of a bike kicked to life with exhaust pouring out of the tailpipe and the low graveled hum as it idles way past midnight. charcoal ashes and heavy-lidded eyes. teeth stained red from marlboro's and split, bloody lips. baseball bats through car windows, the scrape of a bic as it lights. the smell of cigarettes burned deep into veins. the drag of a knife light across a throat. knuckles blooming purple pressed into nose bridges, a smile with a pair of pliers knocking against porcelain teeth. THIS vine.
so as formerly stated this is yuxian, the worser half of the xu siblings. disruptive and dangerously reactive to any sort of aggression, he's adapted to a reality reliant on violence and force over patience and rationale. he's an overall shitty guy, with some even shittier habits. street smart and instinctive, his world works in harsh turns and bared knuckled fists.
dropped out of high-school.. was one of those ‘lunch is my fav class’ kids except he got dragged 2 school by the ear when he was younger and then people just. stopped giving a fuck !
so he did what most boys do in big towns with no proper parental guidance: raised a little hell, drank a lot of alcohol when his liver was barely formed, fixed bikes and engines, and beat up a few rich kids who looked @ him the wrong way. speaks like every mf villain in an anime ever. over-enunciates vowels and suffocates his consonants. acts like the stray he p much is w parents as shitty as his.
the xu family had earned themselves a nasty reputation in the community they lived in. they're tough, they're intimidating. they do things their way. xu’s speak with their fists and their knives and their brass knuckles and their bats, not known for thinking out their actions before acting out. violent. horrible. the worst People™.
yuxian’s parents owned and operated a dim-lit, greasy restaurant in the heart of their community, once used to deepen the family's pockets as they sold some choice off-menu items, they were offered a deal by a rich family that bought up their block when yuxian was around 15, selling their enhanced drugs imported from europe behind the grime-coated counter. yuxian saw the $$$ and didn’t think abt how risky it would b, or that they’d be the ones caught red handed if they were ever raided. being able to label himself as a drug dealer just made his reputation in the community go up.. and he was livin la vida loca
along with working as a drug-runner, he liked to fancy himself as something of a debt collector, making sure to "follow up" with anyone who hopes to evade payment to the family. weapons of choice include a baseball bat to the kneecaps and automatic knives. has he actually hurt anybody ?? absolutely Not. he a puthy ass bitch... but don’t say that to his face unless u wanna end up like that ‘what are u gonna do? stab me? guy who then.. got stabbed
basically yuxian will do whatever it takes to get what he wants and to survive. he never considers himself a bad guy; he considers herself bold where others find him brash. he thinks that he's tough where he's really just a brute. he's never a bully, it's never unjustified, but if he ever is he doesn’t think much of it bc he’s never gonna change , ygm ??
he ended up in prison when he started selling drugs to the rich family’s only son, who lbr, became quite a decent friend to yuxian. the son in question had a bad side - effect to the dodgy drugs they were dealing and died of cardiovascular complications. worst thing is that the last memory xian has of the world before virtual reality is waiting for his parents or siblings to come visit him at but being stood up.
next thing he knows he’s in a world where his freedom hasn’t been taken from him and he can. he’s Extremely Bitter, and very Chaotic, my guys. so watch out
* PERSONALITY !
honestly and truly, at the end of the day, yuxian is not a good friend to have. xian is not friendly. he will never say the thing you want to hear as opposed to how he is feeling, he'll never sugarcoat anything, he'll never be a listening ear. encouragement and support don't exist here. he is fickle and fair-weathered and will use and use and use until there's nothing left to give.
self-serving and self-invested to his core, he cares so little it's essentially nonexistent for anyone other than himself. not even his family, given the circumstances. he is opinionated and reactive. volatile. if someone is looking for an influence in their life that will give no fucks and encourage even the smallest whispers of an impulse, yuxian is The One™.
every bad influence every mother's warned about, everything you know you should say no to: that's her. he has nothing to lose and lives his life accordingly. those in his periphery, he encourages to do the same. respect and admiration are not easily earned. he needs to be impressed. the grander the debauchery, the more points earned. but of course, don't try too hard.. bc that’s corny and he can sniff someone simply trying to impress from a mile away.
still, to those that he's aligned himself with and chosen to befriend – xian can be loyal the way a snake is to a pack. his trigger-haired temper and baseline defensiveness makes him a good rabid junkyard dog to have in any corner. loyalty is mostly reserved for those who benefit him or to those who serve his best interest – contrary to popular belief, he's not entirely stupid. but definitely has been called a bimbo a minimum of five times in his life.
simply put, he's a thug. his family has terrorised residents and he hasn't fallen too far from the tree, reaping the benefits of everyone's worst expectations. he's vindictive, manipulative, short-tempered and callous. he'll go to extreme lengths – which often include coercion via intimidation or violence – to get what he wants. he has little regard for other peoples' safety, well-being, or feelings. he lives to ruin lives; not in that fuckboy-esque i'm-going-to-steal-your-gf-and-ruin-your-social-life kind of petty bullshit. he IS a fuckboy but that’s besides the point..
every action is based on gut-impulse, acting purely out of unfettered emotion without thinking of what the consequences might be down the line. just pls hate him bc he really deserves it.
speaking of Love.. with a reputation that followed him from a few years into high school for being tht guy who makes u feel good abt urself then leaves u on read, he's learned to embrace it and accept that people think he just can’t commit. xian is not good in relationships, he doesn't quite know how to show affection in a healthy way. he gets possessive and jealous and easily poisons everything from the inside while trying to sort out the subconscious overbearing fear of this person realising how shit he is or actually realising they’re worth more than his half-assed attempts at affection. so instead he keeps it at an arm's distance before it gets that far.
* WANTED CONNECTIONS !
bad influence ( somebody he is corrupting essentially )
friends who like to crash parties / slum around bars
perhaps people who he knows from before and were aware of his ugly reputation ?? idk this is gonna be an area only open to a few but if they ever lived nearby or in the city where he did then it’s a possibility !
friends who like to smoke weed behind dumpsters
people who he can con
someone who tries to see the good in him but beneath the dirt there’s just more Dirt
enemies / frenemies
violent low-lives who he can connect 2 on an emotional and physical level
fwb / one-night stands / some sort of violent dislike in personality which in turn results in sexual tension ?
