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understanding that suicide revolves around not merely the idea of killing oneself but also of murdering everyone and everything around oneself made me look differently at it

merry christmas

#life theory #suicide #christmas

can't sleep. having panic attack. for some reason, I began thinking about her sucide once again and it fking bothers me how little I understand from what happened.. she wasn't very close to me, even if we were on the same class, but everything still felt really fking weird.. I can't make sense of that moment in my head.

it really feels like a glitch in this reality.. at least in the reality I experience.. so devastating.. too devastating.. more than 4 years have passed and I'm still trying to read between the lines this seemingly blank page.

will she just be lost in the silent heaven forever?

you understand my point? it doesn't make sense.. it can't be real.

#sucideawareness #sucide #life theory

d7gitalgrl

sometimes i wonder what this life is for

25th disappointing joke.

Vânia Forever

3 years since you were gone.

April 28th 2019.. I'll never forget.

Lucifer, I will set you free.

God, I call upon you infinitus infernalium.

#vania #forever

we all go bye bye

a bottomless spiral with no heart

everything is waiting to die

i would be already gone from the start

we know you notice the plastic scenario is getting unstable

you are now aware of the background life in the [no_data_available]

#life theory #music #no data available #my lyrics

One of the few places I still haven't got banned... my.. how long has it been...8 years? Geez.. How am I still in the same shitty place!? (except worse)

Today is my 24th anniversary and I'm in my all-time low... how!? How in the fuck is this still going on?

How does every year always gets worse than the one before?

Fuck.. I just can't believe it.

I'm tired of withering in this hell.. but what can I do? I have no guts to follow through the promise I made myself of death..

I don't know what else to say..

#bpd #bpd splitting #living with borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline problems #borderline thoughts #being borderline #personal vent #do you want to be friends?#I have BPD If you feel like being friends with anyone who knows how it's like to live with that

I probably should stop.

How’d your belly get so big!?

Why are you covered in your own shit!?

Hammering nails through your fucking skull!

I hope you like what’s coming!

- "Collared, Kept" by Street Sects

#street sects #lyrics #electro industrial #music #end position #collared kept

"I look at the cross

Then I look away

Give you the gun

Blow me away"

#Spotify #deftones #change #alternative rock #experimental #music #dark #white pony

Jennifer wrestled her friend playfully to the ground in front of the snow cone stand and began licking at the girl's eyeballs, as if they were sugar cubes.

Their bodies convulsed and flailed with an almost seizure-like intensity. At times their pale limbs seeming to shift back and forth from one torso to the other.

A crowd gathered almost immediately to watch these two girls tie and untie their bodies like a pair of pit vipers. They were confused, or concerned, or shocked, or aroused, or all of the above. But no one dared interfere with the performance.

Jennifer's long ashen hair hung down concealing the girl's face like a curtain around a hospital bed. No one had any idea that the girl's eyes were revolving under her ruby tongue. "This is disgusting, it's pornography," exclaimed a pasty slug-like woman in a fur coat, vanilla ice-cream smeared across her double chin like a money shot. Countered a balding professor type in his mid-forties, his left hand stuffed crassly down the front of his pants,

"No, no, no. This is beautiful. This is art."