Kathrin Keyt

You are about to read my life. fb: Kathrin Semacio twitter & ig: @kathrinkeyt1

[lifeofkeyt]

04.27.21

I had a talk with one of my closest coworker and what she asked struck me most.

"Who are you doing that for?"

I am currently working 2 jobs, 3 if you count being a Financial Advisor, and at the same time I am earning my Masters Degree in Communication at a local University. Yes, I have a lot on my plate... Have I mastered anything so far? Not yet. Am I earning a lot? No, I wish...

"Who am I doing this for?", I ask myself. Does it even matter?

With regards to my career, I am a mediocre piece of sht. Why am I doing this then??? What has gone in my tiny brain that forced me to give myself tons of load work, and pressure, and everything else.

Ever since the pandemic started, I have gained weight and lost hope of losing weight because I thought that whatever I do or whoever I become, the right man will always accept me. If I work out, who will I be doing that for???

[lifeofkeyt]

How does it feel like to wake up with purpose?

I'm currently working 2 jobs now along with my Masters and like any other young Filipina who lives with their family, I bear a lot of weight of responsibilities on my shoulders.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate right now and I don't know what to do with that plate. Sure! I am blessed with the opportunities and these jobs have brought me purpose but WHAT IS THE PURPOSE EXACTLY??? Can someone tell me what to do when you get stuck inside a moving elevator???

I don't know. Do I want to plan for my future? Or do I pause, take a break, and live in the moment? Right now I want a peaceful mind and a calm heart so I can take my good night's rest.

-KRS 2/16/21

[lifeofkeyt]

It's 3AM and I'm awake... WRITING TIME!!!

I've been stalking old photos and posts and other outputs for like an hour now. It's crazy, but I think it's time for me to come out of my shell and publicly share my thoughts to whoever wants to hear me.

I think it's time to practice creative writing again and start posting new and fresh content even if it's only for me to see. I want the world to know what's on my mind. I want people to learn from what I have expressed.

I know I can do this.

1.14.2020

[lifeofkeyt]

LIFE UPDATE:

Hi.

So much has happened, I don't know where to start. By the way, I resigned from my first job and eventually got employed as a local government employee.

I enrolled myself in Masters, and got a new boyfriend. We've been dating for almost 9 months now and I can say that, whatever I have experienced in the past, I know in my heart that the man I am with now won't let me experience the same pain as before.

Though I've been having thoughts lately... Not because I'm not sure of the love we have but because I'm not sure that I still have the love I have for myself that I should have.

This year, I've committed to bettering myself. I want a more solid me, more solid year for me. I want to have a sense of direction and own it and just start from there. I want to enjoy myself, my income, and most especially my family.

Sure, the relationship I have now with this amazing man is truly one of a kind. However there's a deeper kind of love that I desire to encounter. The love for self.

Hopefully all my questions will be addressed before this year end. I hope by the end of 2020, I will be able to smile and look back and say, "I made it" .

[rachelmellema]

[jesuschristisgod]

In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8 https://www.instagram.com/p/B0jNovdJ_h6/?igshid=h5mfoh1elnh3

[lifeofkeyt]

MORE POSTS COMING SOON

Welp, you probably do not know me. I’m not even sure if someone actually follows this account anymore... BUT! Pleaseee be patient as I work on something new for this year.

I vow to write more blogs about my personal life, career, mental health, and christian life/ ministry so please stay tuneddd :)

[buttonpoetry]

“You, always looking for a wound, you are the wound, the violence that went viral.”

— Anna Binkovitz, “For Elliot Rodger”

[tshifty]

RED - sonically cohesive version

state of grace - in the beginning everything felt magical

treacherous - she knows in her gut that this relationship is wrong

stay stay stay - even when they have small fights he stays

red - their relationship is a rollercoaster, always on-again off-again

come back be here - he’s never around and she misses him

the moment i knew - he didn’t show up for her birthday and she knew something was going on

babe - he called her up to tell her that he cheated

girl at home - she wishes the other girl had walked away

ikywt - she knew he was trouble from the very beginning

the last time - she realizes she can’t keep forgiving him

sad beautiful tragic - he keeps trying to fix it but it’s ruined

i almost do - she wants to call him but knows she can’t

all too well - looking back on their relationship she sees it all fall apart 

wanegbt - he’s telling people they’ll get back together but there is no way that’s ever going to happen again

the lucky one - she feels used both by the media and people she loved

holy ground - looking back is bittersweet

starlight - love seems more magical in the stories

22 - she leans on her friends and starts to feel okay again

begin again - and on a wednesday in a cafe, she watched it begin again

everything has changed - she’s starting to believe in love again

[alinemissamericana]

Being Lyrically Left

Forever & Always: One second it was perfect now you’re half way out the door

You’re not Sorry: Could’ve loved you all my life if you hadn’t left me waiting

Haunted: Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had

If This Was a Movie: Six months gone and I’m still reaching

The Last Time: You wear your best apology but I was there to watch you leave

The Moment I Knew: What do you do when the one who means the most to you is the one who didn’t show ?

This Love: Your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, your smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees

Wonderland: I reached for you but you were gone

[lifeofkeyt]

Land of Peace

Kapatagan, Davao del Sur

September 2018

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

Please help me to let you go if you still care. – Lukas W.

[jspark3000]

There are days or weeks or even months when I read the Bible and there are no grand epiphanies.

There are whole seasons of Sundays when I sing praise and feel nothing.

There are times of prayer where the silence kills me.

There are great Christian books and podcasts that I eat up which don’t budge my spiritual life.

There are too many times when I doubt the very existence of God and the sending of His Son.

It can all feel like a crazy lie.

It’s in those times that I ask myself, “Am I out of love with God somehow? Am I losing my faith here? How do I get back to where I used to be?”

But I keep reading my Bible. I keep singing on Sundays. I keep praying. I soak in books and sermons. I serve. I enjoy the company of mature Christians. I enjoy the fellowship of the broken.

And you know, sometimes the clouds part and God comes through and His love squeezes my heart and I fall to my knees remembering how good He is.

Then I read Scripture and can’t stop weeping and I turn on Christian songs in my car full blast and sing loud enough to scare the traffic. I serve with shaking hands and get convicted by those sermons and soak in God’s goodness all over again.

So I’ve learned over time: I wasn’t really out of love with God. I’m just a fragile human being who changes as much as the weather. I was setting a ridiculous standard for myself that can’t be defined by self-pressuring parameters. I was tricked by the enemy into judging my flesh. How I feel is important, but it’s not the whole basis of my faith. It’s wholly, solely, defiantly by His grace—and in that, I think I can finally relax.

— J.S.

[this-abounding-grace-deactivate]

God has been reminding me lately not to be in such a hurry to get through the seasons. To everything there is a season; but we are so quick to get to the beauty and joy that we skip over the season of brokenness. Yet, there is beauty rising amidst the brokenness as God gives beauty for ashes and He is making your heart new. While weeping may endure for a night, joy comes in the morning.

Friend – know that God meets us where we are, not where we pretend to be. This is a season, and a new one will come eventually. So be brave and hold on. Hold on to hope, trusting that He who promised is faithful and He will keep you.

[lifeofkeyt]

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it

I'd like to be my old self again

but I'm still trying to find it

All too well (Taylor Swift)

[lifeofkeyt]

And maybe we got lost in translation

Maybe I asked for too much

All too well (Taylor Swift)

[worshipgifs]

Paul D. Washer