Miya

I swear I’m going to therapy

[lifeofmiya]

Hi!!!!!! My name is Miya, I’m a girl who struggles w depression. I’ve noticed that my memory has been much much worse recently and I’ve been forgetting a lot of stuff that I should remember. I’m making this blog to document my days so hopefully I can remember things now!!! I am not sure what times I will post, but I think I will! Thank you to anybody who decides to follow along while I try to get better ^^

[lifeofmiya]

Guys I js realized I reblogged my silly ruikasa posts on this blog oopsie I meant to do that on my main

[lifeofmiya]

I hate everyone oh my god I want a fresh start

[domirek]

"i miss you"

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[lifeofmiya]

Hey guys guess who it is

“Miya!!! I thought you died!!!”

Yeah the opps wish bro if ur praying on my downfall pray harder‼️‼️‼️

Anyways shocking news: I don’t remember anything from the last few months!!!! I went to a con and made some friends on discord but that’s abt it

Um I also finally picked a college!! Not sharing bc I can’t doxx myself but yay!!!!!

Will try to be more active!! Thanks everynyan for holding out for me

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Omg ummmm these last few days I decided I rly don’t want to take physics so I dropped it and replaced it w yoga and art appreciation 💔

I also ordered a ton of stuff omg… it’s horrible but I think ordering stuff actually makes me sm happier bc it gives me smt to look forward to

I also had new pjsk merch come today!!!!! I’m sososososo happy w it omg

Tysm to @pillotalkin for these!!!!!!!!!!! I love them sososo much omg

But yesyes these last few days have been ok!!!! I’ve been happy

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It’s been almost 2 weeks since I posted I fear…. Ahaha I’ll try to get back into the habit somebody ping me if I miss a day

I don’t remember much from the last 2 weeks (surprise lmao) but they probably weren’t important I’ve been sleeping a lot

Today. I didn’t have to go to school so I slept until 3pm. My dad got mad at me for it

I also kinda got upset with my mom but I don’t really wanna talk about

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Ahahah happy new years!!!! It’s been a few days since I’ve posted

Hmmm these last few days. I went skiing!!! I fell rly bad and Lowkey injured my knee but it’s ok I’m healed now!!! The way I fell was BAD too like I literally ran into sb else help me

We also left that hotel and are in our condo now!!!!!!

I um. Had an argument with a friend today……. I think I was just upset that I was putting in more effort to talking to them then they were and I lowkey went off :( regret it but it alr happened 💔 I was rly upset abt it tho omfg and I lowkey still am!!!! I think a lot of it was my fault… idk It’s kinda complicated but I don’t wanna talk about it

Um but I think that’s all. I’ll try to update more consistently!!!!! I just don’t think I’ve been in a good headspace this month tbh

[lifeofmiya]

Omg Christmas!!!! I got 2 Malice Mizer CDs and 2 Miku figures❤️❤️❤️

Also got some cutie clothes but I mostly sat in my room today. I also packed for our trip but that’s kinda it

[lifeofmiya]

Ahhahah I didn’t post for a few days sorry

Merry Christmas everyone!!! Or happy holidays

These last few days I haven’t really had much going on (wow so surprising) but I did get into nuikatsu some!!! I made my OC into a plushie and he’s a little ugly but it’s ok because I love him

I’ve been. Making friends online!!! I joined a Minecraft smp server and have been talking there a lot!!! Also have been talking to my cosplay friend who I play Roblox with

Um I guess that’s all though!!!! Happy holidays again I hope everyone finds happiness

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Yesterday I took my chem final!!!! I got a 48 on it but it’s ok bc I passed the class so it’s wtv I deadass don’t care

Today I didn’t do anything…. All my finals r over so I just went to fencing

I had a huge argument w my mom tonight… she is apparently mad bc I got upset that she won’t communicate with me and my sister?? Then I told her I don’t wanna go into engineering oopsie and she got all pissed at me bc “she never told me to be an engineer” like??? U told me to be successful and get 2-3 degrees and math was one of the only things I was ever good at what else do u want me to do

Um. Corbin bbg if u r here dont read more❤️

My dad told me I need a plan for my future but deadass my only plan is to go to college for engineering or just die!!! And don’t tell me shit about “there’s other options” because there isn’t for me, I’ve never had other options I either go to college or die

I also got deferred from my dream college!!!! If there’s a god out there can it just kill me now im so serious

I called the suicide hotline for the first time today… I’ve texted it before but never called it

It wasn’t that bad tbh the girl who picked up was nice and it made me feel a little better

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Ahaha I missed a few days. Um. I finished the con!!! I didn’t have school Monday and I’ve just been resting

I have an exam tomorrow but. I’ll pass the class anyway I don’t really care

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I deadass hate people who live my dreams without fucking trying like??? What do you mean you didn’t take any APs or college credits and you get to pursue MY dream career??? Whereas I’ve worked so hard for it and I don’t get it

Idk im just jealous its not fair to me

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Con day 2!!!!!

I just did a gyaru look today!!! I looked rly baddie diva omg

I got a keychain and did another dance panel😭 I’ve been dancing this whole con bro help me

Anwyay. I got dinner and went home afterwards. Might get a $75 figure tmr bc my parents said I can lowkey

[lifeofmiya]

Omg today was sm fun!!!!!! I had con todya

I pulled up to school to pick up my sister but. She got ready IN school so I had to walk inside in cosplay☹️ I made my friend go inside with me so I didn’t look as awkward uhhh getting ready w her was fine tho she didn’t take too long

The con was deadass so big… we didn’t even get through 5 shops before my sister got overwhelmed and we headed upstairs. I tried to take a nap but then. We heard Vocaloid music so ofc we followed it and found a Vocaloid random dance panel!!! They played Plus Danshi and Gigantic OTN omg I almost went insane❤️❤️❤️ im #1 Kagamine Len fan guys trust

Anyway then I found out there was a gyaru para para dance worshop panel!!!! I went and learned a new dance it was actually sm fun omg!! I made a new friend there too, she’s a Lolita girlie so we bonded over Vocaloid and JFashion since im a gal!!! At the gyaru panel we also decided that my Gal name would be Miyachi, chi added at the end to make it sound cuter ^^ I rly like it lowk omg

Anyway. The girl I met invited me to idol fest!!!! I lowk had no idea it was even happening but it was soo cool omg!!! There was one group that was 2 people who did vocaloid but like phantom of the opera and they had dance choreos to Cendrillonand Canterella I actually almost went insane I LOVEEEE those songs!!!!!!!!

Overall today was so so fun ^^ I got into 2 more colleges too but. Don’t think im going to go to those 2

[lifeofmiya]

Ummmmmmm today. We had secret Santa at school!!!!! I got chips chocolate and Coca Cola overall rly yummy

I went home and. Took a nap for 3 hours. Then I went to fencing but I lowk didn’t fence (sry Corbin bbg im lazy today)

I took my final for Econ… final grade fo that class is a 81

Then j played Minecraft w some of my discord friends so overall today was ok