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As a bisexual girl, traumatized by her first situationship with a girl, now dating a guy

My mind be like

His hands on my thighs, his hands on my waist… her hands under my shirt

FUCK

#wlw #bisexual #bisexuality #dating #situationships #be damned

Saying “You’re not gonna die a virgin— not on my watch” after mentioning a gay couple to another man is probably the least straight thing a man can say ever. I would not have been surprised if the scene cut to the two of them fucking at all. Just saying.

I know it’s so different and we’re so distant

But I wish you knew I still check for the absence of sesame seeds in things, that every time I write some words with a calligraphic pen I think of your words, that when I take a plane I’m listening to the things you told me to pay attention to, that when I wear some sparkly clothes I imagine you cheering, that every single time I do my eyeliner I think about when I realized I fell in love with you

And I know it’s been years, you have your lives and I’m here, still hurting

So much that my therapist doesn’t know why, I guess with you I was myself for the first time, i guess you helped me in so many ways that you can’t even imagine, I guess I felt loved and understood

Until I wasn’t

And how can you ask me to lose this knowing I’ll never change for the better

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the introvert urge to say “no worries either way” when you’re actually worrying both ways plus a secret third way

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thinking about how will went to hannibal

every

single

time

he

needed

someone

Why am I still trying to date men? Why.

A

Maybe somebody would ask themselves, why A? I had this idea because I didn’t want this thought to be too personal, and so not naming myself but just calling me by the first letter of one of my nicknames.

I just then realized how it was the perfect title for what I wanted to write.

‘A’ is an indefinite article, a portion of a sentence who is used by many, few of them recognize its importance and it’s somehow fundamental until you define things, because the important things are linked to _the_ definite article.

So ‘A’ is a passage, a way to go through stuff until you find something more.

More present, more concrete, more definite, just more.

I wanted to write something more but I’m not a writer, nor that much of an intellectual. Actually I don’t know what I am. I just feel like ‘A’, indefinite and vague, lost in this book full of words that is life, searching for the meaning.

But I know I’m not ‘A’ only one

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““How do you know when it’s over?” - “Maybe when you feel more in love with your memories than with the person standing in front of you.””

— Gunnar Ardelius

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‘How do you know when a heart grows cold?’

'Perhaps, when you attend a funeral decades before the body’s burned.’

Suvrahadip Ghosh

Anybody else after 4 months of therapy goes to their psychologist, after a lot of crisis cause i’ve been locked in my house for a month with pneumonia, and just… forgets everything that went bad and doesn’t know what to talk about?

Like yeah, ik I was in a bad place and supposedly Ik the reasons but when I’m there they don’t make sense anymore

#mental health

Okay but

Just started Moriarty the remains

And to say I literally choked when I read this and thought how it would look without context?