Keep Me A Heart Beat Shy Of An Ambulance

________23 || Pennsylvania________ & no I’m not afraid, at least not to die; I’m afraid to live and not remember why

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[spitedilly-deactivated20230926]

I’m a god damn sociopath. I’m a thief. I’m a liar. Devil in the flesh. I only want to use you. Fuck you. Leave you high and dry.

Emmure - N.I.A. (News In Arizona)

[liggab00]

[heroinwasmyhero]

Addiction is shooting up in the nearest Wendy’s bathroom because you simply cant wait any longer. It forces you to call your dealer at 12:03am because your money just came through and you’ll be damned if you have to wait until a more reasonable hour. It’s crawling around on the floor desperately hoping to find a random pill or speck of drugs you dropped. It’s not just because you cant wait to get high. It’s mainly because you cant spend another second rocking back and forth, staring at the clock, wondering how only 5 minutes have passed. Addiction is impatient, unforgiving, and manipulative. Don’t test it. If you go in thinking you’ll stay in control, you will lose, and you’ll never be the same again.

Thoughts from a recovering addict (via heroinwasmyhero)

[phantomkissing]

You’ve cried so much you feel like there’s no one left to cry to. You don’t want to burden anyone with the same chaos you keep drowning in. You feel hopeless and alone.

Journal (via love-lessons)

[wnq-writers]

I think the best feeling you can ever feel is to be adored by someone, to be the attraction and centre of thought for someone. It is to be the person who is loved by someone so much. To be all they can think about, daydream, and imagine about. To take up someone’s energy in the most beautiful way when they look for you in a crowd full of people. To be the “go-to” person when they want to escape the miseries of life. To know that they would go an extra mile for you. To know that when life hits them hard, they would say: “Fuck it, I have them, that’s all I need. The best feeling is to be wanted by someone so bad, that you become an inevitable necessity for them.

fuxkd-up-dreamers  (via wnq-writers)

[ourrecoveryproject-blog]

I keep thinking that I’m getting better, and I’m reaching the surface… finally going to be able to breathe the air for the first time in years. But then something happens and I get dragged back down deeper than before wondering why the hell I even tried in the first place.

(Via: @ourrecoveryproject)

[wordsnquotes]

You’ll be fine. You’re 25. Feeling [unsure] and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.

Louis C.K., Untitled (via wordsnquotes)

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[pitaloppies]

Life is kind of like a party. You invite a lot of people, some leave early, some stay all night, some laugh with you, some laugh at you, and some show up really late. But in the end, after the fun, there are a few who stay to help you clean up the mess. And most of the time, they aren’t even the ones who made the mess. These people are your true friends in life. They are the only ones who matter.

[yeeahpenguins]

the worst mistake you can make is walking away from the one person who never once gave up on you…

especially if they offered their hand when you stumbled while the rest of the world kept walking. 

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[purplebuddhaproject]

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets (via purplebuddhaproject)