words.

Don't tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass

[lightandbrokenglass]

i left you when the weather went cold i have always been like the birds programed with a biology to leave when the sun slips away the climate is cold again and the leaves are changing it reminds me of leaving you

“leaving you (when the sun slips away) / 10.26.16” 

[lightandbrokenglass]

I hope someday you find all my quotes, all my words, and read them all. I hope you'll know that they're about you.

anonymous 

[lightandbrokenglass]

it is nights like these when i thank my past self for deleting your number

11:39pm

[lightandbrokenglass]

i wanted someone to love me because i was so afraid i would never be able to love myself.

11:21 p.m.

[lightandbrokenglass]

i have been waiting since you left for someone else to love me the way you did; i have realized that i can be that someone

11:18 p.m.

[lightandbrokenglass]

i don't think i have lost feelings for someone so fast

8:29, monday evening // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

i think i overlooked your fatal flaws because i thought that you would change for me or that i could change you, and both of those are pretty selfish and self-centered ways to think

9:24, monday morning // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

i'm going to leave you in the reflection of my rear view mirror, let my tears blur the lines, and never look back.

@lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

i think i have found within me a certain strength from being able to walk away from someone who never would have left me because I knew they weren’t the right one.

@lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

if you have the time i will tell you about all the mistakes i made last night

@lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

“constant goodbyes” // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

“i still remember” // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

“last lifeboat” // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

and just like that I left my first love go and our everything suddenly became my nothing, our noise became my silence, and our forever became my split second.

"just like that" // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

to the girl who will love him next

You may not realize it at first, but he is sensitive and fragile, the kind of heart that bruises easily. He has had his fair share of bruises. Don’t let his number of ex-girlfriends bother you. It means nothing, except for how badly he wants to find someone. He craves emotional and physical intimacy. His favorite thing to do is watch movies with you on the couch with your legs draped over his and his head on your shoulder while holding your hand. He will love holding your hand and rubbing it gently. Rub his forearm with your free hand in return. He will always want to lie on you, the side of his head pressed to your chest so he can listen to your heartbeat, he will tell you it is the most beautiful song he has ever heard. Don’t let the fact that he told me the same thing stop you from believing it. He means it. He always means everything he says. His apologies especially. Always forgive him. He wants to do better, he really does. Also, don’t be afraid to let him in. Don’t be afraid to let him help you, because I was and that was one of my many mistakes. 

He loves sushi and if you don’t already love sushi you will start to. He is the messiest eater on the planet though, especially with soy sauce. At first you will be embarrassed by it but you will learn to find it cute, mostly because of the way he gives you that mischievous smile that is like a little kid’s. He is playful. Play with him. Sit next to him on his ridiculously comfy bed and play his favorite video games with him. He will go easy on you but don’t expect him to let you win. He will laugh before kissing you when you toss the controller on the floor and give up. Let him give you nicknames and call you by them, even if they are weird. You will learn to love them. Always let him kiss you, even when you are in public. He wants to show you off. Let him. Show him off in return. Make sure he knows that you are proud to be his girl because I never did. He will look for your approval. Make sure you tell him that you are impressed and proud of him, it means the world to him. Your opinion will become the only one that truly matters to him. You will become the only one who truly matters to him.

He will always want to talk to you and he will start to miss you the moment you say goodbye after a date or just hanging out with him. He might seem clingy and the truth is that he is, but it is just his way of making sure you know he loves you. Listen to him. Listen to his stories and when he talks about his favorite things, even if you can’t relate to them. Appreciate these moments and pay attention, because I never did (my god I wish I knew the stories he told me when I decided not to listen because I now know I was missing out on part of him, missing out on the parts of his life that he wanted to tell me about.) Sometimes he will have a rough day. Let him talk about it if he wants to, but never force him to. He will never keep secrets from you. Don’t keep secrets from him either. You guys will have rough days. You will argue. You will yell at each other. You will cry and he will also. Let all this happen, but make sure to tell him it is going to be okay. Make sure to tell him you love him. He will always have a song that he made to show you. A song he made just for you. There will be many songs just for you, but don’t let that make them seem any less special. He puts all his passion and love into those songs. Try to like the kind of music he likes. It means a lot to him if you do.

You will create a home out of his car’s passenger seat. Driving with him and screaming the lyrics to your favorite songs will always be the best part of your day. Those are the memories that haunt me and if you let him go they will haunt you too. They will be the memories that hit you right before you go to sleep and make you silently start to cry. I hope you never let him go.   

 Don’t try to always have the AUX cord because honestly you will start to fall in love with his music, mostly because of the way his eyes light up and the way he smiles while the song is playing. You will stare at that smile and notice the way the setting sun makes his auburn hair look like it is on fire. You will think that he isn’t looking, but he is. He is always looking at you. He won’t be able to take his eyes off you. He will tell you you are the most gorgeous thing in the world, because to him you are. He is the type of guy who doesn’t care if you are skinny or fat, tall or short. He is the type of guy who falls in love with the way you blush, the way you sing off key, the way you look away when he compliments you. He is the type of guy who finds you beautiful and loves you simply because you are you. You will never need to change for him and you will never feel like you have to.  

Honestly there is so much you should know and need to, but I can’t tell you all of it. Just, please, take care of him and keep him safe. Love him with everything you have. Love him unconditionally. Love him completely, because I never could and he deserves someone who will.

- the first girl he ever truly loved

[lightandbrokenglass]

“i didn’t know” // @lightandbrokenglass

[lightandbrokenglass]

“we said forever” // @lightandbrokenglass