人工狂気。

I’M A PARADOX. I WANT TO BE HAPPY, BUT I THINK OF THINGS THAT MAKE ME SAD. I’M LAZY, YET I’M AMBITIOUS. I DON’T LIKE MYSELF, BUT I ALSO LOVE WHO I AM.

[lightboats]

// notice

I don't know about you, but I'm still alive = u = b

[girl-group]

Rest in Peace Go Eunbi

For those that don’t know, Ladies’ Code Go Eunbi/”EunB”, has passed away from a major car accident today.

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     the soft press of her finger to his cheek

                causes a heat to grow under his skin,                 and he pulls away — his face grows a                 crimson red and he clears his throat.                 she often is a catalyst to a shy                 embarrassment, and at that moment,                 he wishes to hide it.

     ❝ not long, no. but i’m glad you’re here.”

     a temporary moment of pure honesty.

     ❝ are you ready to go? i’m sorry it was last                 minute, the person i was supposed to                 go to the movies with cancelled.”

     and back to dishonesty; he wouldn’t tell her                that, in reality, he bought the tickets so                he could ask her out on a date. no, no,                he would never.

[lightboats]

     And he blushes in his pretty pink.                 A small smile adorns across her lips,                 unknowingly pushing him into the depths                 of never return. The hue of pink is the                 one she never forgets; it's embedded                 into her mind with such ease. It's                 another face of Sinclair she never                 wants to erase from her mind.

     ❝You don't have to apologize. I'm never angry.❞                                                                  (With you)

     Hesitation followed & a bashful look overtook                  along with a chaotic war enraging inside her                 mind. Tongue darted over her lips before uncertain                 fingers laced through his in the most casual way. 

     ❝Let's go.❞ 

     A tug.

     A smile. 

     ❝We're going to be late.❞

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lightboats

     there was some tender crimson                 that tainted his pale cheeks as he                 watched the girl enter the room.

     ❝ you’re here, finally…” he mumbled,                 then tipped his gaze in her direction.                 he’d missed her, but he wouldn’t say.                 he just watched her and let his                 quiet eyes follow her movements,                 saving his words for future daydreams.

[lightboats]

     Punctuality isn't her forte, but she attempts.                 Lips curve into a small smile as her gaze locks                 with his. He's there, in person & reality. 

     ❝Did you wait long?❞ Bashful words radiate her apology,                  but her eyes twinkle with ease upon seeing him.                 Hand reaches out to lightly poke at his cheek                 when she nears him; her motion of familiarity.                 He puts her chaotic mind to ease, he's her solace,                 the moon that calms the water.

[lightboats]

"Oh come on, you look cute."

06: Thigh high boots and underwear

God did not exist; he was a mere figment of useless hopes & dreams of those who needed someone to lean on. He wasn't real & he certainly did not exist in her life. She had been the one in control of her life; she dictated what would happen when & where and it had, admittedly, worked for twenty years.

So exactly what had gone wrong in the split three seconds that got her fate to crumble down?

Breath hitched, eyes widened. Perhaps God did exist & was punishing her for all her wrongdoings all at once to save himself the trouble on the day of judgement. Lips parted as an attempt to say something, anything, to rationalize the reason behind why she was standing in his room with nothing more than a pair of boots that hugged her in all the wrong ways and the set of black laces she would never admit to buying with her own pocket money. Yet, nothing comes out; no excuse, no pretext.

Bare hands awkwardly ran down her arms, her tongue running over her dry lips to at least act that she was not flustered by his gaze. It wasn't the usual look filled with curiosity & wonder. It was something darker that she did not want to vocalize.

Kiyo cleared her throat & held her head up high.

          "Early birthday present."

But her voice is meek, perhaps even bashful. She was trying, attempting to dictate the situation once more. A defeat, however, was evident and inevitable; she had to let go of something she couldn't earn, at least not at the moment.

Shy eyes met with his amused ones.

          "You're just going to stand there and make me wait?"

[lightboats]

RETRIES Oh Come On You Look Cute.

08: Bunny ears and white briefs with bunny tail attached to back of them

"Don’t fucking ask.”

Was she intoxicated?

          Was she out of her mind?

                    Were the stars aligned the wrong way?

Fingers flicked the furry ears that began to droop, her eyes filled with clear annoyance by the getup that she had been forced with. She feels like a little doll being dressed up for a very indecent occasion; an occasion she would never be caught in. Fear not, she was still a very innocent girl (in the mind, her heart was tainted with black).

Or at least she believed she was until she found herself standing in front of the other in nothing but a risque costume that sexualized her in all the wrong ways. Eyebrows furrowed & arms crossed before she turns, only to reveal the fluffy tail attached to the briefs.

"I’m changing & we will never speak of this again."

And just like that, Kiyo believed she had the last words as she walked out with the tail swaying left & right.

[feralxclaws]

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】perhaps I am being influenced by the wrong crowd.

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】please find me peter pan. I would like to ask him a couple things. also tinkerbell. I would love to fly.

[lightboats]

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) Like what?

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) You're too pretty. Tink is going to be jealous & won't allow that.

[feralxclaws]

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】not necessarily.

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】what is ours? oh dear, it seems like you been hanging around with the wrong crowd, kiyo. 

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】i don’t want the world as our throne. i just want to find neverland.

[lightboats]

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) It seems like you've been hanging out with the wrong crowd, Kazu.

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) But I will find you Neverland~ I know how.

[wckedvnm]

❝ And what reward would that be? ❞

[lightboats]

❝My presence. That should be enough, no?❞

[coffee-crinkled-pages]

I just need to feel Like someone Sees me enough To see that My world is ending. You ask how I am. My tears overflow And my hands Won’t stop trembling And I tell you I’m fine And you believe me.

M.S. (via coffee-crinkled-pages)

[lightboats]

❝Someone entertain me right now. I'll reward you.❞

[lightboats]

Oh Come On You Look Cute.

07: Your muse's oversized shirt.

"Don't look at me like that."

Was that a hue of pink tainted across her cheek? The shirt was a tad shorter than what she had hoped for, but it was nothing she could complain about. Fingers tugged at the hem of the shirt, attempting to lengthen the clothing to rid the indecency the situation had brought on. Water trickled down from her soaked hair, creating dull splotches against the white fabric, inevitably allowing it to become a sheer to reveal the rather bright undergarments shield beneath.

                       "I'm not a free show. If you want to look, you have to pay."

Eyes narrow and lips pull out into an uncharacteristic pout to display her clear displeasure. It was an once in a life time thing and she might as well be paid if there were willing eyes. Kiyo huffed and crossed her arms together, covering herself up once more from predatory eyes belonging to the one and only Gongshik who had more or less been her savior for the day after the accident with a drink.

"... Thanks, though." Words were soft and the blush resurfaced, but a shy smile accompanied her actions. She turned around and trotted over the guest bedroom of his place.

"But really, you still need to pay." 

[feralxclaws]

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】I prefer sweet. I am being super sweet.

【 sms ➜ halfie ♥ 】I want to ride the ferris wheel. That is fun.

[lightboats]

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) They are the same thing~

( ✉ SMS: 半分 ) Let's go and look down on what is ours.

[freelancers-and-huntsman-deacti]

Send me "Oh Come On You Look Cute."

For my muse in a randomly generated costume. (Sorry If You Reblog I Can’t Include A Number Generator)

1. A loosely fitting dress shirt and dress pants 2. Only a hoodie that’s too big 3. A maid outfit 4. A sexy nurse’s outfit 5. Lingerie 6. Thigh high boots and underwear 7. Your muse’s oversized shirt 8. Bunny ears and white briefs with bunny tail attached to back of them 9. A pair of boxers 10. Very tight clothes

[theqameison]

[ TEXT → Kiyomi ] Wait, what chase? And no, your presence was not missed. [ TEXT → Kiyomi ] I just heard that you went out with you-know-who, heh. [ TEXT → Kiyomi ] BTW how'd that go-- curiosity killed the cat, after all.

[lightboats]

( ✉ SMS: WOOBIN ) Your chase for my love.

( ✉ SMS: WOOBIN ) Green really isn't your color.

( ✉ SMS: WOOBIN ) He was disappointing. You can probably do better.

[alztr]

[ text: little girl ] then tell me what have you done for your God, little girl.

[ text: little girl ] stealing lives in his name? He wants more than that.

[lightboats]

( ✉ SMS: ALASTAIR ) You know nothing. 

( ✉ SMS: ALASTAIR ) Nothing at all.

[lightboats]

{SMS} Soon you'll be at my feet.

( ✉ SMS: ペット ) Are you flaunting that you're a giant?

( ✉ SMS: ペット ) Please get someone who is at least interested in your affairs.