Overcoming
I thought I was fine. It didn't feel like anything was affecting me when I was on my computer or at the gym. I thought I could go out without feeling emotional, but that's when it hurts the most. I couldn't sit through a sermon without thinking of her. When the word poop comes up it hurts so much. It makes me laugh, then it makes me cry. I just want to leave. I don't know how I can overcome. I just wished it worked out better. I feel like shit. I feel like a jerk. I feel mad at all the promises I made her. I remember every one. I keep telling myself that maybe we'll get back together but i don't know. I'm so confused. I have no direction. I just wanted to make me and her a better person. We were stagnant, we wernt growing. Is it possible to take a huge step back before we move forward. Or does that step back lead to us falling and dying. I don't know. I miss her.
