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Book 1: The Voice of Silverking (Genre: Romance, Fantasy & Mystery) Main tag: silverking Status: Demo - Prologue to Chapter 2. Currently on Hiatus.
The Sole Reminiscence (Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Isekai, Historical) Main tag: TSR, The Sole Reminiscence Status: Demo - Prologue to Chapter 1 [for now].
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DAMN your going through alot 😧 I hope you get better! <33 and you luck for rarity transfers from medical conditions to gacha luck lol. Hope you feel better soon
Tell me about it - My luck is really picky with how much it is, huh? 🤣 Thank you for the well wishes, anon! 💜
Hello, everyone! So the last time I posted, I mentioned going for the hospital and all. Figure I'd give an update.
If it disinterests you, feel free to skip this post!
So first off: I woke up with double vision on Sunday. Went to a clinic (which was a little shit cuz I just watch the doctor type my symptoms on a notepad and then get a letter for the hospital, which was the logo of the clinic and the stuff she typed on a notepad. Cost RM35, much to my chagrin. Mind u, there was no referral of hospital nor did she tell me what these symptoms might possibly be.)
Then went to a glasses store that my sibs went to 'cause maybe this could be a 'need glasses' issue (cuz I haven't used any glasses yet). It was not. Thankfully, the store owner recommend an eye specialist, thus moved onto Monday
Visited the clinic, waited 2 hrs where the clinic's closing, then saw the doctor. After some uncomfortable tests involving getting eyedrops that leave the eyes feeling a bit puffy (my first time getting eyedrops cuz I'm squeamish at having stuff interact with my eyes), doctor said "Your eyes are all okay. This is a brain thing."
Which left me spiralling a little because I immediately thought of brain tumor or the like. The night later wasn't helping me either cuz ended up dealing with a minor drama that brought more stress to me than receiving the news about my diagnosis from the eye specialist.
On Tues, went to the hospital that's covered by insurance - got admitted after being tested by a doctor specializing in neurology and ophthalmology and by then, I was having trouble walking straight. Went through a series of tests on Wed, including an MRI scan.
Funny thing is - a nurse informed me about how they'll inject this one substance that'll make it clearer for them to see the MRI scan (Gadolinium) and when I asked her if there's any side effects, she went "Oh, just allergic reaction but those are very rare.". After being in the machine for 40 machine, getting pulled out to be injected with the stuff, then put back in for 15 mins, they finished the MRI scanning and settle me onto a wheelchair to wait for a nurse to bring me back to my room.
Guess who won the lottery of allergic rash?
Thankfully, it was only on my left forearm and even then, it wasn't all that itchy cuz I'm used to mosquito bites (legit looked like it until I'm like 'wait, there's no mosquitoes in the hospital.')
So after being injected with the stuff that helps with allergies, got brought back to my room and basically just dread of the possibility of a brain tumour.
A diff doc came to my room and basically said "So, about the tests. All of them came up okay. There's no problem with your brain."
I legit went:
I was so stumped that I legit went 'What' twice. The doc ends up telling me that it could be an auto immune disease situation and it could only be one of the two - myasthenia gravis or one that would've been progressing worse.
Now my immune system isn't weak - but I was attacked with a bad cough and that may have been the opening for this gravis thing to get me. So, the 2nd doc was referred to by my first doc cuz she's specialized in this part of the tests and would them tmr/Thurs.
Sure, what are the tests?
And she ends up listing 2 tests that are just god awful to me, who has a fear with sharp objects.
One was NCS - Nerve Conduction Study.
The other was a Lumbar Puncture.
(One of my siblings end up telling me 'man, you really getting exp for tests that come up in medical dramas.')
I already know what an LP is - but NCS was something I'm unfamiliar. So, I thought LP would be the most painful one.
How foolish was I.
They put 3 stickers first, attach it with wires that have clamps and then press a taser-like thing that emits shock currents onto your skin.
You know when doctors knock your knee to see if you'd kick?
So imagine, instead of your knee, it's directly under your skin and on your nerve.
Then they have to shock your nerves to see if there'll be responses and what not.
It felt like my nerves are xylophones with the sticks having shocks at the end of them and they play it like it's a marimba.
Worst part is, they gotta do it a lot of times after they found the nerve to hit.
So an hour+ of it was spent on feeling the shocks on my wrist, neck near the collarbone and then on my right side of the face. But on the face part - they had to put a needle above my eyebrow. Idk what else to say cuz I had to keep my eyes closed the whole time they shocked my face, but I did feel my right eyelid twitching to the shocks. But the doctor in charge of the NCS noticed there was an irregularity, which helped them find out what my issue was.
Then it was LP and the 2nd doc assigned to me was in charge of it. She has experience and done it a lot of times, told me it'll be painless. She did ask me if I wanted to move the LP to tomorrow instead.
I just ask to do it on the same day cuz 1) it was Hari Raya on Friday (Happy Hari Raya to you all!) and 2) I rather not delay the inevitable.
So I had to curl and stay still. No moving. Doctor gave me painkillers and local anaesthesia through needle, which I damn well felt. Idk how but apparently, the needle touched one of my nerves as it was going in.
Cuz I ended up doing a kick with my right leg against my will. A knee jerk reaction.
Which left me even more scared as I bite down more on the blanket I was given - the doctor said that it's okay, it's normal - this kind of thing is just uncommon.
And I'm just thinking CAN I STOP WINNING THESE UNFORTUNATE LOTTERIES?
But throughout the process, it was painless and I didn't feel a thing against my lower back. But it was the most nerve-wracking thing for me.
Thus I end up lying flat on my back, on the hospital bed, for 6 hours and spent more time sleeping.
All my tests ended up okay - except for one, which was still processing and won't be known anytime soon due to the holidays. But the docs started prescribing me the meds for gravis cuz it's the most likely, since my symptoms have been stagnant instead of going worse.
And yesterday, I got discharged. Still got double vision, but I got meds and trying to get into any trouble - including going outside with my slightly better but still wobbly steps.
Why am i sharing all this?
Cuz 1) Wanted to update y'all about this whole thing.
and 2) Cuz it's a bit of a funny story to tell. 🤣
Thank you for coming to me Ted Talk. (┬┬﹏┬┬)
(photos for proof and yes, I am aware of how the skin is of diff shade - that is due to lighting LOL)
I also been digging into the Cult of the Lamb hole and wrote a little AU of TSR - whoops
Hope you all have a lovely time and have a Happy Hari Raya! 💜
Hello, everyone! So the last time I posted, I mentioned going for the hospital and all. Figure I'd give an update.
If it disinterests you, feel free to skip this post!
So first off: I woke up with double vision on Sunday. Went to a clinic (which was a little shit cuz I just watch the doctor type my symptoms on a notepad and then get a letter for the hospital, which was the logo of the clinic and the stuff she typed on a notepad. Cost RM35, much to my chagrin. Mind u, there was no referral of hospital nor did she tell me what these symptoms might possibly be.)
Then went to a glasses store that my sibs went to 'cause maybe this could be a 'need glasses' issue (cuz I haven't used any glasses yet). It was not. Thankfully, the store owner recommend an eye specialist, thus moved onto Monday
Visited the clinic, waited 2 hrs where the clinic's closing, then saw the doctor. After some uncomfortable tests involving getting eyedrops that leave the eyes feeling a bit puffy (my first time getting eyedrops cuz I'm squeamish at having stuff interact with my eyes), doctor said "Your eyes are all okay. This is a brain thing."
Which left me spiralling a little because I immediately thought of brain tumor or the like. The night later wasn't helping me either cuz ended up dealing with a minor drama that brought more stress to me than receiving the news about my diagnosis from the eye specialist.
On Tues, went to the hospital that's covered by insurance - got admitted after being tested by a doctor specializing in neurology and ophthalmology and by then, I was having trouble walking straight. Went through a series of tests on Wed, including an MRI scan.
Funny thing is - a nurse informed me about how they'll inject this one substance that'll make it clearer for them to see the MRI scan (Gadolinium) and when I asked her if there's any side effects, she went "Oh, just allergic reaction but those are very rare.". After being in the machine for 40 machine, getting pulled out to be injected with the stuff, then put back in for 15 mins, they finished the MRI scanning and settle me onto a wheelchair to wait for a nurse to bring me back to my room.
Guess who won the lottery of allergic rash?
Thankfully, it was only on my left forearm and even then, it wasn't all that itchy cuz I'm used to mosquito bites (legit looked like it until I'm like 'wait, there's no mosquitoes in the hospital.')
So after being injected with the stuff that helps with allergies, got brought back to my room and basically just dread of the possibility of a brain tumour.
A diff doc came to my room and basically said "So, about the tests. All of them came up okay. There's no problem with your brain."
I legit went:
I was so stumped that I legit went 'What' twice. The doc ends up telling me that it could be an auto immune disease situation and it could only be one of the two - myasthenia gravis or one that would've been progressing worse.
Now my immune system isn't weak - but I was attacked with a bad cough and that may have been the opening for this gravis thing to get me. So, the 2nd doc was referred to by my first doc cuz she's specialized in this part of the tests and would them tmr/Thurs.
Sure, what are the tests?
And she ends up listing 2 tests that are just god awful to me, who has a fear with sharp objects.
One was NCS - Nerve Conduction Study.
The other was a Lumbar Puncture.
(One of my siblings end up telling me 'man, you really getting exp for tests that come up in medical dramas.')
I already know what an LP is - but NCS was something I'm unfamiliar. So, I thought LP would be the most painful one.
How foolish was I.
They put 3 stickers first, attach it with wires that have clamps and then press a taser-like thing that emits shock currents onto your skin.
You know when doctors knock your knee to see if you'd kick?
So imagine, instead of your knee, it's directly under your skin and on your nerve.
Then they have to shock your nerves to see if there'll be responses and what not.
It felt like my nerves are xylophones with the sticks having shocks at the end of them and they play it like it's a marimba.
Worst part is, they gotta do it a lot of times after they found the nerve to hit.
So an hour+ of it was spent on feeling the shocks on my wrist, neck near the collarbone and then on my right side of the face. But on the face part - they had to put a needle above my eyebrow. Idk what else to say cuz I had to keep my eyes closed the whole time they shocked my face, but I did feel my right eyelid twitching to the shocks. But the doctor in charge of the NCS noticed there was an irregularity, which helped them find out what my issue was.
Then it was LP and the 2nd doc assigned to me was in charge of it. She has experience and done it a lot of times, told me it'll be painless. She did ask me if I wanted to move the LP to tomorrow instead.
I just ask to do it on the same day cuz 1) it was Hari Raya on Friday (Happy Hari Raya to you all!) and 2) I rather not delay the inevitable.
So I had to curl and stay still. No moving. Doctor gave me painkillers and local anaesthesia through needle, which I damn well felt. Idk how but apparently, the needle touched one of my nerves as it was going in.
Cuz I ended up doing a kick with my right leg against my will. A knee jerk reaction.
Which left me even more scared as I bite down more on the blanket I was given - the doctor said that it's okay, it's normal - this kind of thing is just uncommon.
And I'm just thinking CAN I STOP WINNING THESE UNFORTUNATE LOTTERIES?
But throughout the process, it was painless and I didn't feel a thing against my lower back. But it was the most nerve-wracking thing for me.
Thus I end up lying flat on my back, on the hospital bed, for 6 hours and spent more time sleeping.
All my tests ended up okay - except for one, which was still processing and won't be known anytime soon due to the holidays. But the docs started prescribing me the meds for gravis cuz it's the most likely, since my symptoms have been stagnant instead of going worse.
And yesterday, I got discharged. Still got double vision, but I got meds and trying to get into any trouble - including going outside with my slightly better but still wobbly steps.
Why am i sharing all this?
Cuz 1) Wanted to update y'all about this whole thing.
and 2) Cuz it's a bit of a funny story to tell. 🤣
Thank you for coming to me Ted Talk. (┬┬﹏┬┬)
(photos for proof and yes, I am aware of how the skin is of diff shade - that is due to lighting LOL)
I also been digging into the Cult of the Lamb hole and wrote a little AU of TSR - whoops
Hope you all have a lovely time and have a Happy Hari Raya! 💜
Guess who got double vision and got told its a brain/nerve issue to see a doctor tmr?
2026 is just a parade of dangerous or unexpected news for me now.
(AO3 and Tumblr cucking X being filed under unexpected 📂)
For those who don't know: Double vision is where u see two of the same thing side by side. It happens when both my eyes r open (its fine when its just one eye close), so it wouldn't surprise me if I do need a surgery for this.
Saw an eye specialist and confirmed my eyes r fine - tis just the brain/nerves that's the problem so, wish me luck!
Will update (if anyone's interested). Stay safe during the political chaos, peeples.
And there better not be some stupid ask of anti-poly in my inbox when I get back - I already had enuf brainless stress as is.
I immediately got attached to Maverick so my cog saves are about to get filled up by various forms of “AGONY, ALL ALONE IN THE MOONLIGHT” because apparently all I know is one lyric ever
Oh no... XD But thank you for having lots of saves for our resident ice man 💙
Hi! I love the demo so far and was wondering hi! I was wondering if the mc would ever have a choice to be a villain? Like she would try to find a way for her friends to remember her and slowly but surely loose her mind over so, if not it's completely fine! I'd love it either lol, anyways that's all I wanted to share, babye!
It's too soon to say......
But 🍑
There is something I wanna add. If the writing and plot goes well down the line, then it's possible.
Imagine starting up Beyond the Mist by @intimidatingpuffinstudios to play it - only to end up being inspired enuf to write MC going through a mini PTSD in a special.
Imagine starting up Beyond the Mist by @intimidatingpuffinstudios to play it - only to end up being inspired enuf to write MC going through a mini PTSD in a special.
Packmate? PACKMATE?!!! Excuse me as I'm about to ugly cry!! It's both so cute and heartwarming but also makes me extra sad already!!! 😭 ohhh I soo can't wait for Maverick's first romance choices hahaha!
On a more important note tho, welcome back!! I'm glad things got better for you! Please, take good care of yourself first, we'll gladly wait for you! ( ꈍᴗꈍ)
HEHEHEH YESSSSS - YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW MUCH I WANTED TO ADD FLAVOUR TEXTS OF THOSE WITH THE ANIMAL ABILITY :D Glad to hear you're going for the Ice Heir himself! 👀 hehehehehehe...
And thank you so much, ariquess! TuT Always good to see familiar faces around here. Hope you're going good too 💜
Hiiiiiii you can just ignore this if you want to but I was scrolling through older asks and I saw the dark au stuff (very yummers btw 🤤🤤🤤🤤 and this is for Silverking bc I'm obsessed) i always play w MCs who are a bit (read: VERY) self sacrificial, soft and gently but not necessarily weak or a martyr complex (but something close to it). They love caring and doting for others but they can be a bit spacey and oblivious on romantic approaches to them and also has a habit of pushing themselves to the brink of exhaustion and hurt.
For Silverking this manifests in how they repeatedly ignore sleeping in favor of keeping watch of the town and spoiling the kids and anyone else who enters their library :^) anyways I'm very VERY interested in how the Silverking RO's handle an MC like that for uhm Research purposes trust me.
Aww, thank you! XD This is a sweet ask (And yis, the dark au was very dark XD Imagine me making an IF where it's just red flagged devoted ROs)
But to answer your question: How would the SK!ROs handle an MC who, in a sense, put others before themselves to exhaustion and pain and also being oblivious to romantic interests towards them?
Zeus: Well, for one, this MC and Zeus would have in common - they're both oblivious to romantic approaches, so you can imagine these two either having a very wholesome interaction (can't help but think of Fran and Maxwell from The Nanny in that soulmates episode) or the little romantic moments they share together just getting ruined/cut off from their oblivious natures. XD
But Zeus would be keeping a very close watch on MC's state. Hell, if they were apart, even for a bit, the first thing Zeus would do would be to check if MC was injured in any way - even a papercut.
But they do admire MC's willingness to help and understands this as being from their innate kindness. Zeus would find it quite admirable (but they will urge MC to get some sleep, even if Zeus has to roll them up to prevent them from leaving their bed!)
Hermes: They might find MC's oblivious nature to romantic approaches amusing. They'd also probably see it as an advantage, since Hermes isn't thinking of going into the dating pool again...until they end up thinking about MC and subconsciously flirt with them, realizes what they're doing and then hide out in their lab to shove such thoughts off.
As someone who admires a person living how they wish, Hermes understands MC wanting to help others and being kind. Hell, they find that cute, even the spacey part of MC.
But as a doctor (and an exasperated teammate)? Good God, please, for all that is holy, WHY DON'T YOU SLEEP, YOU SWEET LITTLE TROUBLE MAGNET?! They will use tranquilizer darts on MC if they have to!
Dionysus: 10000000% mother hen mode! If MC is going to help people, let Dionysus join in! They're all about helping community and creating bonds.
Of course, seeing MC pushing themselves, Dionysus would be trying to appeal to MC on the benefits of self-care. "Helping yourself is helping others too. If you get yourself hurt too far, who would be left to help those you hold dear?" and if MC tries to say Dionysus would, they'd smile and say gently. "I'm far more focused on helping you, [Name]. If you let me help you get proper rest and actual recovery, then we'll be back to helping the community, stronger and better, right?"
Zeus has been a workaholic and since Dionysus and Zeus have been friends for a long time, Dionysus has had experiences of dealing with workaholics.
Ares: They're so down bad for sweet MCs, it's not even funny. Of course, Ares would be the intimidating one in this little dynamic - as for romantic approaches...Honestly, they're very blunt and extremely patient, so I can't imagine MC being oblivious still when Ares's the type that goes. "I like you. No, not as just a friend. Not only a family either. I mean the type that involves dating. Yes, dating - the one with kissing, coupling, all that shit. Yes, I'm serious. No, I'm not joking." Honestly, Ares would be having a fun time confirming their affection to MC, especially if MC starts getting more and more flustered. They'd probs end up grinning too, eyes alight and hanging onto MC's every word. (ngl, swooned a bit)
MC, pushing themselves overboard and overworking? Ares would be trying to support MC, maybe minimize the damage if possible. But when MC is in recovery or hasn't gotten enough sleep, Ares would just pick MC up and, regardless of the protests, they'd end up keeping MC under their stern watch. They'd also point out something like "How the fuck are you going to help anyone if you pass out midway? And don't say you won't, because you'll be bleeding out the moment the job's done. Rest, cadet. Even soldiers need time to recuperate before they're back on the field."
Dolos: Very amused with oblivious MC - just constantly flirting and teasing (and would probs send dangerous vibes towards people who try to flirt with MC). They're also a bit protective with sweet MC. While Dolos doesn't dissuade MC from helping people and all (after all, they wouldn't dare to prevent MC from being who they are), Dolos is cynical and sceptic by nature. It mainly stemmed from [spoilers], so it'll take a while before Dolos is like "Guess these people are okay. For now."
But an MC who's pushing themselves to the brink? Dolos would be trying their best to support MC, but they won't lie - it's terrifying to imagine MC one day pushing too far that they end up losing MC. So they may get a tad bit paranoid if they even get the sense that MC's trying to get out of bed or attempting to get 'one more thing done' instead of resting, recovery and/or sleeping.
The hell do you mean keep your expectations low?? You’re a great writer I felt so immersed and also sad reading TSR!!
sdadhbnhjdnasjk XD I can't tell if I should be afraid or flattered - thank you, anon 🤣
And clearly, TSR's goal is to inflict as many Sad™ debuff on all of y'all 🤣
Unfortunately, this is not a demo update - I'm really, really sorry for that!
Just wanted to update on what's going on. Things have been rough on me for the past 4 months - especially mentally and emotionally.
There was a personal situation that led to me having an emotional breakdown (it's all good now).
Right after that, while I was trying to move on or get over it at the time, my fam and I went through the stress of moving out of my old home (lots of memories and all). The whole moving process was so hectic, thanks to the stupidity that occurred and various delays that led to moving to a temp place for about a month and a half.
And finally, my fam and I got to move in! Unfortunately, there's a lot to unpack, so it's been eating my time again. But, things are at least calming down and I'm somewhat stabilizing again.
This point forward is spoiler territory!
I managed to get some progress on TSR's Chapter 2 - especially on Maverick's part.
And yes, there are choices :D (Not an RO lock, but a way to let you earn FP [Friendship Points] and RP [Romance Points])
There's also flavour text for those who chose to have animal powers as well!
Here's to hoping their branches are enjoyable for y'all! All I can say is keep your expectations low (my performance anxiety be creepin')
