The Finished substance

What you crave is not what you need.

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Photo I took of a friend.

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I hung out with friends recently and we took photos together... since I’ve been ignoring my tumblr a little, I decided to brighten my page and add some... colour?... by putting up one of myself... Yeah I’m a very colourful person... So awesome, so elegant and wonderful... ooh I’m god... I should rule the universe... har har har... nah not really, what the fuck would I even do? I’d probably just forget and walk around town drinking cola or something... But I do like this picture.

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Where is this from? Is this a common meme or am I only seeing this from Animalist?

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Strange feelings

I feel sad... but relief... I feel sad about how my memories have been compromised... but relieved how I feel so much better lately... free to do as I please. I feel like I’m a whole lot happier... in general... I feel sad that being alone is better for me... that everytime I try a relationship I get my freedom and feelings compromised... vowing never to let it happen again... It works for some people... It’s like I turn from being a fierce lion to a slave because I’m suddenly not that amazing person who deserves better... but in the end I leave and tell them to fuck the hell off... I will never ever let it happen again... I simply can’t be fucked with it anymore... I’m definitely worth more than that, even if I have to tell myself that... It’s like two sides of me... and one is trying to tell the more mentally weaker side for the stronger one to take charge in those situations... where you should never ever let your vulnerable side show until you know for sure... Or just never bother again...

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People who try to defend Trump

There are people who I know or who I don’t know who try to defend Trump and him being voted for. They say stuff like “Hilary is worse” or that “America is fucked either way” and all that nonsense... I’m sorry but if you give a damn about your country or even say something so stupid like “Hilary is worse” comparing her to Trump... then you shouldn’t have voted at all. Hilary did something bad ... but it was not malicious... just stupid... TRUMP is a criminal by the very definition.. he is ill intent, doesn’t give a damn about people and brags about his money... denies everything and all this shit. As soon as he became President, omg as soon as the votes said he was going to be president... honestly... no literally... the day after we’re finding the news about people committing hate crimes justifying it as an act of Trumpness. He’s started to enforce so many laws based on his views... He’s actually going through with this mental shit that only the most incompetent minded would even think of... and doesn’t even act on the same level as an adult... If you give a DAMN about yourself and your country... it’s certainly not looking this way... The world was making progress... it was getting somewhere... and you shat on all the hard fucking work that people have done to make it that tiny bit more progressive. There are loads of problems in America but you just added more issues that weren’t there before... stuff that was settled, creating global rifts between other countries with more open minded views... You created a division between men and women, ethnic groups, even causing a rift between your fellow people who probably won’t agree with you... And for what? For some fucking ragdoll stuffed with orange cheese shouting that he’ll make America great again? More like great for him and no one else. Get real.

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Lonely

How is it I have all these close friends who I hang out with and get to know... and yet there is still no one I can talk to when I need to talk to someone.

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0h ye

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Oh Snap

I got snapchat. I don’t know if this was a good idea or not. Also Final Fantasy brave exvius... gave Chizzi Whizzi her 6* awakening! AND NOCTIS! I am glad of this stuff. I’ve neglected this site again. I honestly do not know how to use it, but that’s because I’m the kind of person who has no motivation to try and attempt to make a following. And honestly I don’t mind because I have nothing interesting to say or show... I want to get back into photography people... taking selfies gets boring... I can’t really do much with my face... all I can change is my clothes and hair... hehe yeah. Speaking of hair, my hair has grown... I had short hair at some point and I looked awful. Like I looked like a guy... no joke. I didn’t intend to but I never style my hair and have a very manly face which gets hidden by hair so looks less manly. Or more that I just have a face which doesn’t suit short hair. Either way, long hair rocks.

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fuck everything

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Trust issues

I can’t free my mind from the thoughts that it invents. Part of me finds something new to add to this bad feeling that I get... I’m conflicted emotionally, all I want is to not feel like I’m being betrayed by people... I don’t even know... I should be used to this feeling but I still dread the day that I find out the worst was expected.

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Grabbed this from my fb as not got tumblr on phone. After getting back home stressed from getting upset and stuff... I get tickets and then home and find...this in my bag... Considering I told them about this necklace that I lost ages ago... which I was super attached to but could not replicate... they decided to do this for me. I actually cried. Wow.

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I don’t know...

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He should just get a job building schools. Much easier than building one around a country

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Digimon...

I’m playing this digimon game on my phone (suggested to me by... ya know) Just like the movie I was made to watch- I have noooo idea what I’m doing in this game... All the digivolving is confusing and I don’t even know what I’m doing... some things seem similar to other games though but... what am I doing?

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