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Anon, thank you for your message. What you said was very sweet and you are right in everything you said. I did change and to anyone I hurt, I truly am sorry. I'm really working on being the person I was when I first joined the community. Everything I did was for fun, not to try and impress anyone or anything else like that. I want to be able to enjoy everyone's vp like I did before because it's the reason I got so into this hobby in the first place.

And to anyone that's just starting out, make sure you're doing/saying what you want because it makes you happy, not to try and fit in. There are some really kind and helpful people around and they absolutely will make it a better experience for you, but if you start having to think about what content you're interacting with, or who you're talking to and it's not because you personally have had a bad experience with that person, then maybe step away. Remember this is supposed to be fun!

#a:rambles #anon i hope if we ever interacted before that we can do so again in the future

had to work on my hair painting with this one to fix some clipping

#cyberpunk 2077 #oc: venia akoni #virtual photography #my edits #cp2077 #fem v #fem v cyberpunk #the mox #cyberpunk mods #fem v friday #it was fun drawing hair and getting more of the look i wanted tho... may end up doing it more

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Maya <3

Your favorite smuggler zombie killer Silly girl accidentally burned the corner of the Polaroid lol

#cyberpunk 2077 #oc: maya #so pretty ;;

Your apology is not real because your apologizing only to the people to who a public apology will make you look good in your eyes. Where is your apology to the other people that you have hurt and participated in bullying? There’s more people than just 3 and of course you’re too much of a pussy to apologize to them because you’re not gonna gain anything from it so you are far from sorry there

If that's how you see it then cool. I'm not going to entertain someone calling me a pussy while they're on anon. I'm also not going to fight you because that doesn't do anything for anyone. From here on out, unless it's someone I can actually talk to and discuss a situation with, I'm not posting anons anymore.

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And about that ask bringing me up: keep my name out of your mouth if you're going to try and use me to punish someone especially if they're making amends. ghoulish behavior. I think lilacmox has done a noble and humbling thing to be honest about this and whatever I went through isn't ammo for you to latch onto for your personal agenda regardless of who is involved

I don't know what to say aside from thank you ;; so I'll just leave this here for the anon.

#a:rambles #sorry i'm terrible with words #still a lil stunned lol

this is beanie :) a mutual friend who I still stay in touch with let me know about your posts who can verify its me. I wanted to say that I really appreciate you writing that from the heart & while I feel like I've moved on from the drama what you posted did bring me peace & closure for some things. we're not perfect, we all make mistakes and want comfort in a community. Im not holding any negativity to people who have moved on and want to be more positive. keep being cute & creative bbymox ❤️🫘

Oh damn I wasn't expecting this. I'm actually a lil stumped on what to say 😅 I appreciate your message, thank you. I know last year was a lot for everyone and although we may all never know the full story of everything and every side, I'm thankful for those that wish to put the drama behind them and try and create a more positive space. At the end of the day this is a hobby, something that should be fun and uplifting and somewhere along the line I definitely forgot that bit. It really shouldn't get to the point that it has done for so many of us. I'm grateful for those that are willing to forgive and move on, I'm also trying to do the same. Thank you again for the messages, you didn't have to do that 🙏

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It takes a lot of maturity to own up to your mistakes. I really admire you being so open about it publicly. Hopefully, this encourages more people to do the same, instead of that endless 'they hurt me, so I can hurt them back' cycle.

Thank you ;; I really am trying. I've thought about everything pretty much non-stop for a year now, to the point that my mental health took a pretty big dive. It's always played on my mind, but I was always worried if I said something that it would stir up more drama and I just couldn't cope with that again, so I'm sorry it took so long. I really hope the cycle can change. I know not everyone is going to get along, but it really doesn't have to be as bad as it is.

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I have made mistakes in all ways, shapes and forms and I probably will again. I have gossiped and said things because I know a friend doesn't like them, or something stupid like that. I have agreed to something because I know that's what that person wants to hear even if I didn't agree. I make mistakes constantly. I have said multiple times to my friends now how shit I feel about it all, how it's always playing on my mind. I do and say stupid shit a lot and I'm sorry, I am trying so hard to be mindful of it now. To think how it will affect others even if it might be someone I don't get along with. I've just had enough of the negativity and hatred. I don't hate anyone. Hell none of us, besides close friends, even know each other, so how can we really assume what the other is like. I don't know, I'm blabbing now. I just want the drama to end. I never set out to hurt anyone, I don't like hurting people. So if anyone has an issue, I'm happy to talk about it. If you don't want to accept what I'm saying, that's fine too.

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This may be harsh but I think it does need to be said. You say you're sorry, but that didn't stop you from continuing to associate with the "popular" mean girls until it bit you in the ass or made you look bad. Where's the apologies to the people S7 hurt, like Beanie, Nemie, or Tiramisu? It just seems like your "apology" is a catch-all without really taking responsibility. S7 brigaded mod pages and told people to kill themselves. You stayed by their sides throughout all of it and got mad that your shit-talks got leaked instead of realizing that you were being mean yourself. You were friends with bullies and became one yourself. So I guess the thing is, where's the accountability or the apologies to the people you hurt?

I'm not about to deny that fact. I did make mistakes. I did talk about people when I shouldn't have. Was I told that those same people, besides Nemie, were bad? Yes. Did tiramisu hurt a friend of mine for seemingly no reason? Yes. When asked what she did wrong, did she get an answer? No. Numerous people I was friends with at the time told me about the issues they had with Beanie, so why would I think they were a good person? Nemie I apologised to straight away and am on good terms with now, you can ask her yourself. A lot of us apologised to her straight away we just didn't notify the public because it was between us and her. If it wasn't for the fact that we were told a lie by someone in the group we never would've questioned her situation, and to this day I'm still sorry for that. I've apologised to her numerous times because I've felt shit since it all happened. I hate that it ever happened. I hate that any of it happened. I will state again. From what I knew, no one was friends with these people. But most had been hurt by them in some way shape or form. Was it all true? I don't know. I believed my friends at the time, but with some I learnt everything wasn't the truth, given what was said about me by some of them after. S7 didn't brigade mod pages. Maybe what 2-3 ppl, commented on one mod and I wasn't one of them. Also saying "they told people to kill themselves" is excessive. Was it right in someone's frustration to say in private "they can nose dive off a cliff for all i care" no probably not. but is that wishing death upon someone? no I don't think so. It's a saying more than anything. Again, do I agree it should've been said? No. I didn't even notice it had been said at the time and I'm sure reading that about yourself is awful, also given that all tiramisu did was release a mod it was an unnecessary amount of hate, but wasn't it tiramisu that went on a witch hunt against someone else in the community? I'm not saying they deserve it because they also did something wrong, but again, things were said about people because someone had a bad experience. Again I'm not trying to start drama with anyone, but people were hurt by these people too and it was never sorted. This shit is going to keep happening with all these divided groups. Especially if you can't socialise with one group without getting hate from another because you're talking to the wrong people and that's all sides of this. Saying where's the accountability when you clearly don't know that I have been to several people to apologise and if I haven't been able to reach out personally, then I've asked others to pass along my apology. So unless you are one of the people that were hurt by what was said and would like to come off anon so we can discuss it, then please don't assume I have done nothing just because I didn't post about it publicly. I made mistakes and I'm not proud of how I acted, I have apologised where I can and I have tried to be better. I got too involved and I got swept up in all of it, I have said that from the start. I do still apologise to those hurt by what was said and done, if anyone would like to discuss it further they are welcome to message me, but I am trying.

Edit: I'd just like to add that I haven't been friends with said group since before Christmas, not since this latest drama. I reread and I think the implication with "until it bit you in the ass or made you look bad" is that we stopped being friends when this latest drama happened that's not the case, though I may have read that wrong

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2077. Hazel Jolea.

#cyberpunkaddict.png #oc: hazel jolea #cyberpunk 2077 #LOOK AT HERRRR #loml right there

lilacmox

And of course, you can't become If you only say what you would have done So I missed a million miles of fun I know it's up for me (if you steal my sunshine) Making sure I'm not in too deep (if you steal my sunshine) Keeping versed and on my feet (if you steal my sunshine)