Physical Graffiti

[devils-queen]

✞ 666 ✞

[cannibalchicken]

[lilbeanbag]

i thought i could clean out my photos a little and then got far too sad when i hit fall 2017 💔

[lilbeanbag]

now when i see the memories i question how you really felt

[lilbeanbag]

you’ve had a year to move on because you knew you were done. i didn’t get that opportunity because you continuously told me you loved me and would never lie.

what was the point?

[lilbeanbag]

i don’t matter

i’m not worthy of respect, dignity, honesty

i mean nothing

[lilbeanbag]

i’m borderline suicidal and you’re on a date

cool

[lilbeanbag]

it’s so fucked up you get to keep living your fun, happy little life with your new obsession and i get to sit in the dark processing how badly you hurt me and fucked up my mental health.

and the worst part?? you don’t even care.

[lilbeanbag]

i still can’t believe you don’t care

[gaysie]

they should invent a way for me to bear it

[lilbeanbag]

wow i keep embarrassing myself awesome such a fun addition

[lilbeanbag]

what is it about me that causes this to happen continuously???

[lilbeanbag]

i think about it every second, the way i see everything is so different and confusing, and now life is so different. i just cant help but feel i’ll never be loved for more than a moment… idk why i don’t seem to be worthy

[lilbeanbag]

just wanna end it all like i just don’t know how to cope

[lilbeanbag]

i’m just so fucking sad. devastated. completely torn apart like idk i don’t know how to even process… like like everything

[lilbeanbag]

i cant believe my fucking life. i’m shook. bamboozled. nauseous.

[7l7l7l7l7l7l7l7]

i always be so hard on myself for no reason like chill tf out bitch we on the same damn team