lil__bee

MY AO3 welcome to my lil chaotic fandom space!!

[lilbee-tmbr]

I'm looking for some writing practice!

So I'm "taking" commissions!

It's more like- you can text me a story idea and i will look what I can do!

Totally free, dw!!

Are you guys interested?

[lilbee-tmbr]

radiostatic but in a "in another life, Alastor, you wouldn't be hurt enough to not trust me" way.

Working on this currently but had to share it before I go mad.

[lilbee-tmbr]

I see your illogical husband's and present this. What ever the name could be

crime husbands?

Roland Blum / Alec Hardy

Lawyer and Detective

Is anyone else seeing the vision? Why haven't I seen anyone talking about them??

[lilbee-tmbr]

Hello!! I posted a new chapter of my fanfiction "a different smile"!

If you are into radioapple and like amnesia trope and hurt Alastor this might be something for you!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[lilbee-tmbr]

Now I just have to ignore most of today's episodes and probably many more

[lilbee-tmbr]

EVERYONE SHUT UP I WAS RIGHT ALASTOR SMOKES

[deanocas]

AGHSJDSKDHAJK

I'M SORRY, BUT THIS IS FUCKIN HILARIOUS

THE WAY DEAN'S VOICE WAS SO SOFT AT THE BEGINNING, BUT WHEN HE REALIZES THAT IT'S REALLY JIMMY, HIS VOICE GOES WAY LOWER😭

AND WHEN CAS IS BACK HIS VOICE IS SOFT AGAIN, I CAN'T 😭

[colorlessjay]

This was still one of the most daunting scenes to me, purely because when Jimmy started talking, I legit thought that was a whole different actor

Like, no. No that's not Castiel in ANY way

What did you do to him

Who is this actor

and it was still Misha fucking Collins

[lilbee-tmbr]

Hello!! I posted a new chapter of my fanfiction "a different smile"!

If you are into radioapple and like amnesia trope and hurt Alastor this might be something for you!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[the-evil-skull]

The reason Donna has never seen the doctor regenerate without David Tennant is actually because the presence of Donna Noble spawns David Tennants in Time Lords the same way temperature feminizes lizards. If the master died in front of Donna he would regenerate into David Tennant

[frodo-in-a-fez]

truly nobody is doing it like donna noble. she tracked down the doctor herself so she could travel with him and proceeded to get in a massive fight with him that fundamentally changed both their worldviews on their first time time-travelling together. she’s the fastest typer in chiswick. she kept the doctor so in line that within like two episodes of her being gone he decided he was god-king of the universe. she kissed him and absolutely hated it. she’s unemployed. she demanded a salute and she got one and she DESERVED IT. she has her gay best friend from like twenty years ago living in a shed in her backyard and her husband is cool with this. i love her so so so much

[lilbee-tmbr]

I never thought I would have a discussion about the genders of ao3 and Tumblr on my feed but here we are

[lilbee-tmbr]

I'm gonna die on this hill BUT

if supernatural introduced Jack a bit earlier he would have been deans son. Like, before all that chuck trauma, before he was angry all the time. We saw how gentle he can be with claire and she met a softer version of him.

[lilbee-tmbr]

I know smoking is bad, blah blah, but—

something about Alastor with a cigarette between his slender pianist’s fingers. He would talk with a lazy smile on his lips, not looking as the cigarette burned slowly toward the filter, tapping away the ashes without thinking. And when he remembers the smoke between his fingers, he places it between his lips, takes a drag, and tilts his head back to blow the soft smoke up against the ceiling. When he looks into the room again, his eyes lock with Lucifer’s, and his grin grows just a bit sharper.

[lilbee-tmbr]

No because no matter what Dean did, no matter how rude and mean and big of an asshole he was towards Jack, Jack still looked up to him. Still saw him as his family. His happiest memory was still with Dean and the Impala.

And it's awfully similar to Dean who still looked up to his dad, even after John left him and Sam alone and put so much responsibility on fragile shoulders. Even after John went missing Dean looked up to him. After every awful thing John did, Dean looked up to him.

Just like Jack looks up to Dean, no matter what.

[lilbee-tmbr]

thinking about traumatized Dean who had an argument with Cas (again) and now they sit in silence when suddenly Cas raises his hand and Dean flinches. Hard.

Cas had meant to push some strands of hair out of his face, it had grown too long for his liking. But just as he raised his hand, he saw how Dean flinched to the side. Away from him.

They are both lost for word for a few moments. And when Cas wants to ask if Dean is okay, the man just stands up.

"I'm going to sleep", he would say. Ignoring the elephant in the room. But the Angels eyes are never leaving him.

Just before Dean lays down onto the bed, he heard the rustle of clothes. Cas came closer.

"Dean." he says again, and the man in question would just hum, embarrassed of that one little reflex he just showed.

"You are save with me". That was all Cas said. All Dean needed to hear. A dry laugh escaped his lips.

"I'm not some chick needing protection. Just caught me off guard"

Oh, how Cas hated that macho act the hunter put up whenever he felt vulnerable. The walls Dean put up, spent years guarding were high. The angel wasn't sure if he would ever manage to get over them.

"Fine. But I need you to know that I would never raise my hand against you. Not over something petty. Not when I don't absolutely have to." He couldn't say that he would never. Because he had in the past. Just as Dean had.

Cas watched as his shoulders relaxed. He turned away, suddenly too shy to look at the angle. "You will stay the night, right?" And Cas could finally breathe again.

"As long as you want me to"

[lilbee-tmbr]

no but dean stumbling into the bunker, drunk. Cas sits in the map room, doing research when he hears him stumbling through the floors.

Dean stands before him, they both know he isn't that drunk.

They both know that Dean can't hardly get drunk anymore. And yet

"You are drunk", Cas states. And it's without any judgement. It's a fact. And Dean is too tired to think about the lack of disappointment. Sam is disappointed whenever Dean starts to stumble. So why isn't Cas?

Cas leads him to his bedroom, opens the door and gets in, hand around Dean and he thinks yes. That's how it's meant to be. Cas touching him, going into Dean's room like he is supposed to.

And Dean sits down on the bed, Cas turns- not wanting to overstay his welcome.

"stay", Deans voice isn't as sharp as usual. Acting drunker than he is.

They both know it's an act.

But Cas turns around again and comes closer.

"I will stay, Dean".

They both know he doesn't just mean this night.

[lilbee-tmbr]

HUGE ALASTOR GLASSES ENTHUSIAST

like

He is an old man. That monocle? He needs that. It's not just for fashion.

He pinches his brows together and squints his eyes to read his books in the evening.

He only reads when he is alone. His mother had never the money to buy him a pair, so he never admitted he needed them.

(maybe lucifer finds him trying to read the newspaper (old school, who reads them anymore) and he sees how closely the sinner holds that paper to his face, fully concentrated and connects the dots. Alastor is short sighted. In the next morning a pair of glasses are sitting nicely on his bedside table. They never talk about it, but Alastor is now sitting in comfortable silence with Lucifer, reading a book. A pair of glasses sitting in the bridge of his nose)

[lilbee-tmbr]

thinking about Alastor, playing the piano with a lazy smile and cigarette between his lips.

A soft moment.

He thought he is alone - so he allows himself to be vulnerable.

Lucifer never saw a smile that genuine on his lips