ColorlessJay

I can actually color, believe it or not https://colorlessjay.carrd.co/

[colorlessjay]

TLDR; Follow @colorlessjay-destielblog for Destiel Content and @colorlessjay-art for my personal work

The big word explanation here:

I'M NOT LEAVING

I'M JUST OVERWHELMED

Every time an account of mine gets significant attention, I get weird about it. It feels weird, and I always feel like I could do things better

The original plan for Tumblr was to straight up just never post again, move to BluSky, and pretend I didn't just abandon my account

I did that with my other accounts in the past, but it felt unfair to ya'll, especially because I've felt really safe in this community

A lot has happened recently, and I just want a quick refresh

I wanna redo my blog, make it cleaner, answer more asks without feeling obligated to draw for each one, and finally use the tagging system properly

Not much is gonna change, I just wanna start fresh and new

Sorry for disappearing for a while, here's to hoping things look up!

This main account will be used to just interact. like, and ramble on

[colorlessjay-destielblog]

HELP ME CROWD FUND CASTIEL PLUSH!!!

I'm so excited to show this off and I hope you are too!

Link to the Plush

[colorlessjay-destielblog]

IT'S ONLY BEEN TWO DAYS AND WE ARE 85% TO THE FINISH LINE!!!

Y'all are AMAZING!!!

[lover-of-mine]

Everyone wants a slowburn like the classics until the slowburn pulls the classics. Yes, Karadec is dating someone else, yes, the captain kissed Morgan. We are only in season 2. We are getting the correct crumbs. The way Morgan looks at him and Lucia. The way Karadec woke up in the hospital asking for Morgan. Morgan did something for him that his girlfriend had no understanding of. The other people are just a little stop sign, a little bit more to show us how they grow together. Karadec's hand on Morgan's shoulder at the end of the episode had more tension than the kiss. The cop/consultant ship needs to make you want to rip your hair out. It's part of the experience.

[colorlessjay]

If y'all want a good SLOW burn that has a big emphasis on friendship and the main character is a single mom who dresses like she runs the world, WATCH "HIGH POTENTIAL"

PLEASE

I NEED A THIRD SEASON

[colorlessjay]

I'm sorry

[colorlessjay-destielblog]

HELP ME CROWD FUND CASTIEL PLUSH!!!

I'm so excited to show this off and I hope you are too!

Link to the Plush

[colorlessjay]

CHECK OUT MY NEW PLUSSHHH

[colorlessjay]

The great thing about Tumblr, is that if people are being negative about a show I like, I can just block them

I like the ending

I have my own criticisms of it, sure, but generally I just wanna enjoy it

[colorlessjay]

Ngl y'all

I would've subscribed to a spin off series that just followed Jesus as he happily went around the world bringing joy and blessings to people you wouldn't expect

[samwwise]

yeah they’re married and happy or whatever. but you know what the fucking problem is? that’s not even THEM. what the fuck.

[colorlessjay]

Ya know, this specific criticism I see made me wonder

Are people the experiences they have? Or are they who they are always meant to be?

Are Crowley and Aziraphale the millions of years of life they've spent, or are they THEM just because they just are?

What makes these characters special to us?

What makes Asa and Anthony any less Aziraphale and Crowley? Because they haven't lived as long? Because they've never met each other as earlier on? Because they have no divinity or damnation?

Then that makes me think of fanfiction and the AUs people make

Are THOSE not the characters we love? Are they lesser than canon because they are an alternate universe? Are they equal to canon because they keep them as Angel and Demon? Would that mean AUs of them as humans are also NOT the characters?

It's a lot to think about. I think it's an interesting discussion

[colorlessjay]

I can't believe Good Omens ended in an AO3 fanfic

Iconic

[colorlessjay]

Damn I have a big ass head

Why has no one told me

[loracookie]

I would like to introduce you guys to Remi and Xavier!

This is a peice, I comissioned @colorlessjay to make! Its an absolutely stunning depiction of these two characters and I thought it'd be the perfect way to introduce them on here!

For some introduction on who they are (this is subject to change as so far I am still working on writing the first episode.)

Their story would be set in 2007. I would want to tell it in about 2-3 seasons. I want it to be animated in the same style that ColorlessJay drew this image if possible.

The story would follow Remi and Xavier as they get paired up, while working for Remi's step father.

Remi, having just lost her last work partner, would not be excited to be replacing them so fast. Xavier having joined to look for information on his step mother's disappearance wouldnt be too fond of what he assumes is surveillance.

The two have to learn to trust eachother as they investigate a devastating strain of lies and secrets.

I dont really know what else to say about them without spoiling anything, so feel free to ask questions and I'll answer them if they dont spoil anything for the show!

(I also have official playlists for them on my spotify if you wanna get an idea for their vibe)

[colorlessjay]

I had a lot of fun drawing this!

[colorlessjay]

I don't understand why people get upset at saying no to me

Like, if I ask someone if I could come to an event or gathering, they have every right to say no and like, I wouldn't mind. No hard feelings or anything

I'd rather you outright say "No" than give me the awkward explanation as to why I shouldn't/couldn't come with promises of "next time" or "some other thing". It just makes it weird for both of us, ya know?

Like, people should be more cool about saying no to someone trying to invite themselves to an event. And people should be cool with being told no that they can't come to something

This is such a weird social situation

[colorlessjay]

I don't think I like myself enough to ever feel good about the clothes I wear

In theory, I know what would look good. I know what would suit my body type. I know what style I want. I know how I want to be seen

But the second I put on the outfit, it's all wrong. Suddenly something doesn't fit right. Parts of me look bigger or smaller. My body feels so disconnected at every joint

And at the end, I stop trying and put on the bare minimum. Just enough to forget it's on my body

Every reflection after that is like an echo of a voice that isn't mine, and any attempt to fix it just makes me more distressed. Like I'm smearing paint on a ruined canvas

I like that I don't remember what I look like until I see my reflection. I don't have to think about it. I can pretend I'm just a voice

I wish the world wasn't so reflective

I don't like looking at the stranger that stares back through the shop window

I don't think I'll ever like the way I look

I don't think I'll ever like how clothes look on me

I think that's okay though. It's not like I have anything to prove

[colorlessjay]

I feel like people automatically assume I like sweets

Like I get it. I have the smile that says I've done the Chubby Bunny Challenge just so I can eat a bag of marshmallows on my own

But like, that's not really true. Like if you gave me candy, hell yeah I'd take it. Free candy

Idk, just a thought I had

[colorlessjay]

Just saw a firefly for the first time

It was really nice

[colorlessjay]

I hate false warnings cause then I'm in a constant state of bracing myself

If you say you're gonna punch me soon, soon better be in the next two minutes because you're not about to Slap Bet me

[colorlessjay]

Redraw of old art that I FINALLY finished after so long

I gave him a tailcoat