Feeling Small in a Big World - Uncovered
Hey all,
It has been awhile hasn't it? You would not believe how much I have missed writing. Not only does it keep me calm but it gives me something to look forward to. Things that have happened: Just graduated, getting on the job hunt, working two jobs...oh I am also joining a book club too. Many things yes and getting back into writing this time. (I promise)
So looking through my old stash I found this old little number and after re-reading it, it gave me some insight as well. Which is interesting considering I wrote this many years ago. It is interesting how something you write many years ago, gives you some insight. Okay without further ado, here is my post on feeling small in a big world.
Hope it gives you some insight.
Feeling Small in a Big World
Do you get everything you want but not exactly what you need? Have you ever stepped into someone else's shoes and learned something that you never thought you would understand?
There will always be things that I will never understand in this world. What is it about this world where people believe that money is the first priority? People need money to survive...sad but true!
Another thing that I have never understood is why is it that people are always looking for that one perfect thing? You know exactly what I am talking about. Some examples are: the perfect body, the perfect girlfriend/boyfriend, the perfect job....the list goes on!
Let me tell you a few things about all of this. The fact that people want the one perfect body is why a lot of people are feeling down on themselves is because, face it, people want to appear perfect when what they don't realize is that nobody is perfect. You can try anything you want to appear perfect but you will just feel more down because no one is practically perfect in every way....and you know what, why would you even want to be?
What is normal? I don't get it! How is a normal girl supposed to act? Am I supposed to act like a girly-girl who flinches when she sees a broken nail, orders salads at restaurants, wear clothes from American Eagle, wear makeup, go to the spa and gym on a daily basis, and just go along with what someone says about another person when I know it is not right?
I have always been judged and people think that they know me but they don't. I have never had a real friend or been invited to many things. When I am invited to places by other people...I freeze because I do not know what to do. I have let people take advantage of me just so they can be happy. I have let people walk all over me and let them try to embarrass me...sometimes it worked and sometimes it does not matter to me. What goes in my head when someone even tries to judge me, I don't hate that person (I don't hate anyone) I just take one glance at them and I wonder...how is it so easy to judge someone?
I have never understood this world. Is it better to be alone or is it better to keep trying to be happy?
Let me tell you something...this world is not a nice place! If you had a great life where you are seeing through rose-coloured glasses, then you would not believe a word I am saying. But if you had a bad experience with life then you would know what i am talking about.
So let me say this to all of you.....no matter where you go in life, you will always find a bump in the road, but don't bail out so fast. Sometimes you get what you want and sometimes you don't...but you don't always get what you want, instead you may get something better.
I have always put others before myself and not expecting much back. What I wish for all of my lovely friends on facebook, those that don't want to speak to me, and just everyone in general....I wish everyone all of the happiness in the world!
Remember to take care of you!
- Lilbee25
P.s. Don't worry. I will be back. i always come back.











