Lil Bug n Bee

I am KC. 26. Adoring mum to Byron born 6th Nov, 2011. And Ayla 16th May, 2013 This is our daily life. Engaged to Lex <3

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There needs to be a service that hires out snuggle cats for those who need animal cuddles.

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I am broken.

I have never felt so sad. This is sadness to my core. Deep guttural sobbing. That hiccup cry. I just want this to be over so I can pretend that it never happened.

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This too shall pass..

It's not passing quick enough. 😡

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And then there are days when everything is so overwhelming.

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The face of 28. Age is such a funny thing. I'm so, so close to 30 but feel not a day older than 20. I used to think 25 year olds were SO OOOOLLLDUH! But now I realise that 25 is young. 40 is young... You still haven't lived HALF your expected life at 40. It's insane. Life, heh?!

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Happiest of birthdays to my lil lady. 🎉🎁🎈🎉🎉🎁🎈🎉 You bring so much joy and laughter to our family each and every day. Xoxoxo

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Hey kids...

Sorry if daddy loses his job. We'll have to sell everything and live out of our car because our stupid government doesn't think we'll need the help to eat or anything.

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My sun, my moon and all my stars.

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Byron learnt a valuable lesson on cause and effect today. He's pretty devastated.

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He's so hard to capture these days. Always moving. Always busy. The life if a two year old.

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Byron didn't do so well today. He was distracted by things in the room and failed to follow any direction. Got really shy and stuff too. He was too busy pulling the market tape off the floor to smile! Hahah. Definitely a learning experience but not holding my breath! He's a freaking cutie though!

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Eep! It's today! Poor B has woken up with a runny nose, raspy voice and a nice rash on his chin... Still in good spirits! Hoping agents can see past his ailments! Hahaha. Wish us luck!

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Byron has got a crazy attitude at the moment. The stares. You can see his mind clicking over as he thinks about how much trouble his next course of action will get him in. He's toying with boundaries and pushing them to their limits. My limits. His ears are painted and his mind is racing. This.Too.Shall.Pass (GIVE ME STRENGTH!)

Ayla is nearing a MASSIVE leap and she is definitely letting me know about it. Plenty of hugs, plenty of feeds, plenty of tears and tantrums.  Their age gap has never bothered me until now. It's so hard dealing with Aylas emotions and Byrons testing all at once. I am sure that in the future it'll be awesome that they're so close, but now, I wish I had a bigger gap... Say 20 years.  A third seems to be on the cards more and more. But if it does happen, the age gap will definitely be bigger... Not much bigger, but definite.  For now, I need strength and patience.