Someone had mentioned to me that it might be a good idea to state my side again—
@firestoneships is a pal of mine. She had sent me a message with @hopecountyisforlovers asking her “why she shipped with a Nazi”
I then saw this post on his account
To me, that seemed like he was trying to make a game outta harassing my friend. “Fun new activity” just made it seem childish and rude, so I blocked. To me, that was unnecessary harassment.
Firestone has gotten a lot of harassment over the years for other f/os, so I thought that’s what was happening again.
I then also blocked @norwoodsuites because of the reply in that post, and I was told you and your partner were the same person. (In my head at the time it made sense, like one was a main blog, and the other was a sideblog— I was wrong, and I apologize for my confusion)
I was upset someone was trying to be mean to someone I cared about. Wouldn’t you?? If someone came after your friend wouldn’t you go to their aid first??
So yeah... I did vague. And I should know better. I was upset someone was trying to start an unnecessary fight with my friend. I feel like that happens a lot in the community.
My anger got in the way of me thinking rationally.
I got two anons, and deleted them. Thinking it was over. If that blocked the anons, I’m sorry, I don’t know how to undo that??? I don’t think deleting does that, but I could be wrong— mobile has been a struggle lately.
But then the callout post. (By @moth-selfships)
I have responded to the post. And you may look at it in the replies.
No one had come to me at all to talk to me in how I was in the wrong. I then apologized for not remembering my dms were only open to people I followed. I’ve had bots dm before, and I don’t want that. I only got two people here legit talking to me about it, and I appreciate them.
I had turned anon off because I was getting anons, along with weird ones. (One saying “poo” for example)
I was willing to have this conversation. I’m not afraid to admit I’m wrong and need to learn.
I explained I knew next to nothing about the character. I know nothing about CoD, and have never played one of those games ever. Firstone and I talked, but never about him. It was usually about her Pokemon f/os, Thrax, and my f/os.
At first, I had forgotten about him and who he was. Until I saw his actual name again. Then I remembered Firestone telling me about him one time. Saying he was an ex-nazi. But my understanding was, was that he was bad, but was no longer bad. That’s all I knew. I had assumed he saw the errors in his ways, and become good.
CoD never interested me. Still doesn’t. So I never really bothered to look into him or anything. I just trusted that he was a good guy now.
But now I can understand why that is still hurtful.
I only blocked two people, the two mentioned above. If you’re blocked by me, it may be for another reason. But the two I blocked are unblocked.
This was a huge mistake and misunderstanding. I interpreted what was happening wrong, and thought people were being mean for no reason.
I can understand how the character makes others uncomfortable and upset, and I apologize that I didn’t realize my errors sooner.
To the Jewish people reading this, I apologize for hurting you. An apology won’t fix it, but it’s what I have. And my ability to learn better.
I don’t expect anyone to forgive me.
I’m not afraid to admit I was wrong, and am trying to learn and open up about it. It’s not easy.
Again, to the few people who have talked to me and explained things— thank you. I appreciate you coming forward to talk to me and explain things. I value that greatly.
I don’t condone shipping with a nazi. I fucking hate them.
