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i looked up at the night sky wondering, "is this what it’s worth?" the stars never answered back

[offkeykisses]

💿 ⋆｡˚ offkeykisses is a dependent mumu blog for ciderpointhq, penned by kip (they/them).

🎧 ⋆｡˚ elvira aguilar ⋆ (lizeth selene, twenty7, they/she)

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🎧 ⋆｡˚ maría estrada ⋆ (zión moreno, thirty, she/her)

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🎧 ⋆｡˚ rashmi abrams ⋆ (varada sethu, thirty1, she/her)

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🎧 ⋆｡˚ xavier de zilva ⋆ (josh heuston, twenty9, he/him)

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[fxdedmoon]

If there was one thing about Billie that was true, it was that she loved bitching. "But is this just a 'we're not talking anymore and there really isn't any bad blood' kind of fallout or a 'I want to key this bitch's car' kind of fall out?" She was probably too down to key the car of a person whose name she hadn't even figured out yet. "Ooh, who's your friend?"

[offkeykisses]

There was definitely fallout between the two, however... "I don't want to key her car." Even with how sour every interaction was, Elvira knew it would just escalate things. "Things between us are just complicated." It felt like all they were doing was providing vague non-answers. At least she could latch onto the other part of the conversation easily. "Maureen. I think she's doing a lot of musical theater for her set. You should check it out, unless you're more interested in the other one." They tried to picture the schedule in their mind, "I don't remember who else is performing at that time, though." Their former bandmates and Maureen were about the only people they zeroed in on.

[k1tschs]

she  knows  it’s  better  to  just  tell  them  right  away,  since  not  everyone  is  comfortable  with  being  touched  by  someone  they  don’t  know.  truthfully,  she’s  just  been  hoping  the  confetti  would  fall  on  its  own,  but  alas.  june  watches  as  they  struggle  to  find   the  piece  in  their  hair,  only  stepping  in  when  her  help  is  needed.  "  yeah,  sure,  it’s  a  little  tricky  though,  "  she  says,  laughing  softly.  once  she  manages  to  get  it  out,  she  holds  it  up  to  them  with  a  smile.  "  there  you  go.  you  should  take  that  home  as  a  little  keepsake.  people  usually  do  that  at  this  kind  of  thing,  no?  " 

[offkeykisses]

Once the confetti was out of their hair they offered something that verged on a smile, "Thanks." Fingers gingerly took the confetti, weighing whether or not they actually wanted to keep it. They still felt weird about the whole night. If they weren't, Elvira decided they weren't going to toss it in front of the other. "Mmm I don't know. I could see people doing it at larger music festivals, like keeping the wristbands as keepsakes, but I don't know how many people are going to do it for a small local one like this." Still, she tucked the confetti into her pocket, an idea forming in their mind. "One of my friends performed tonight, though, so our friend group might want to create a little keepsake for her. The confetti could be a nice touch."

[ecrivainlcvande]

Roman’s eyes widened a little as Xavier shouted after the man who had bumped into him, his eyes sliding toward the man nervously in case he turned around. He found himself edging a little closer to his brother, shoulder half-blocking Xavier from view. He’s never been in a physical fight in his entire life -- which probably doesn’t surprise anyone -- but it’s still instinctive, the need to protect Xavier, especially from himself. He looks back at Xavier as he speaks, his brow furrowing. “Less…of a music festival,” he says. “More of…more of a karaoke night.” He’d been picturing, point of fact, something that you might find in a cozy little cafe, but he’s not going to admit that since it sounds so stupid in the face of actuality. His brow furrows as his brother suggests lying. It genuinely never occurred to him to mislead anyone. And even if it had, he knows -- and wonders whether Xavier has forgotten -- that he’s always made a terrible liar. He tends to start rambling, trying to pad it with detail to make it seem more real, and usually just ending up with a river of words that make it clear he’s trying and failing to craft a story. Not to mention he inevitably ends up feeling so guilty that he would have to come clean, which of course would just create further trouble because he’d lied in the first place. “I…” His mouth turns down at the corners. “I didn’t think…” He frowns. “They only…they’re only…” He sighs. “One of them thinks I -- I’m this close to being on an episode of Hoarders.” A frown crosses his face. “It doesn’t count if it’s books, though. That’s not fair.”

[offkeykisses]

His eyes carefully tracked his brother's movements, hyperaware of how familiar the shielding was. Painfully aware of how much comfort it immediately filled him with, and how much he hated himself for feeling that. "I can handle myself." He muttered under his breath. Xavier so desperately wanted to pick a fight to assert his independence and air out his grievances with Roman, but their current setting wasn't lost on him. This wound becoming a spectacle for the rest of the town would just add humiliation to it. His grip tightened on the bottle in his hand, paying attention to the weight of it and the condensation. "And a karaoke night would be better for you how exactly?" Brow raised as his tone was sharp and skeptical. "They typically try to get everyone involved at some point at those things. So, still a nightmare for you. Unless you're big on performing with all eyes on you these days." I wouldn't know sat on the tip of his tongue only to get swallowed down. Watching Roman frown and stumble through his words left Xavier conflicted again. The resentment in him wanted to stay harsh and distant. But there was a competing need to soften and ease his brother's discomfort by joking around like when they were kids and he didn't know how else to return the care his brother gave to him. "So your coworkers basically think you're a hermit living in hazardous conditions. And here I thought my reputation left a lot to be desired." His voice sat in more neutral territory this time around, unable to commit to either direction fully. "Please enlighten me on how books are different, I'm dying for a mind numbing lesson."

[fxdedmoon]

“Oh, of course I do. But I have my reasons. For example, I don’t want to talk to my ex-girlfriend because she’s a bitch and abandoned me. And I don’t want to talk to my grandma because she’s homophobic and likes to slut-shame me.” Granted, Grandma Loretta wasn’t exactly wrong about Billie being promiscuous, but Billie didn’t want to hear that negativity from a woman who thought perms were still a good hairstyle in 2026. “See, not hard. Now why don’t you want to talk to that blonde bitch whose face I didn’t see so I don’t actually know who we’re talking about?”

[offkeykisses]

They had hoped Billie would simply agree with them and let it drop. Clearly the other was a little more comfortable with being open with personal grievances than Elvira was. It was pretty obvious they weren't getting out of this without some sort of explanation, though. They silently wondered which conversation would've been worse. Shoulders rose and fell in a nonchalant manner that contradicted the impulse they had to hide earlier. "We just used to be close and aren't now. This thing's supposed to be fun, so why potentially get my mood dragged down by whatever that conversation would've entailed?" It was very far from the full story, but she hoped it was enough. And if it wasn't, they were already trying to pivot the conversation, "I have a friend performing tonight, so the energy needs to stay positive."

[invlsiblestring]

he let's out a low chuckle, shakes his head as he tries to rid himself of the smile that so easily appears. it's no use — of course it's no use. " see, i would, but i prefer to do my begging in person. maybe that'll motivate you instead. " finds himself scanning the crowd, searching for the only face he cares to see right now. " the middle, too ? that might be a little desperate, " he teases, a sense of relief washing over him when xavier finally comes into view. mirrors the others actions by putting his own phone away. isn't quite sure what to do with himself then. the desire to reach out is so strong, his fingers flex by his sides as he practises restraint. he's aware of how many people are around. knows how easily things can be ruined. can't help the voice at the back of his mind that's trying to convince him that he's not the type of person people want to be seen with. " maybe. " he takes a step closer, then another. undeniably nervous now. " you gonna fight them off if they do, or let them have me ? "

[offkeykisses]

A quiet, breathy laugh left him on an exhale, "Guess I'll just have to add 'a little desperate' to the growing list of things you bring out in me then." It made his head spin a little to outright acknowledge how easy it was for the other man to get things from Xavier that others couldn't. How he was operating far outside his usual comfort zone that allowed him to cleanly disconnect if need be. The corner of his mouth naturally tugged upward as the distance between them grew smaller. He took a step closer himself, fingertips reaching out to absentmindedly trace along Kai's forearm as if he couldn't manage the same controlled restraint. "The first option." The idea of someone else exchanging the specific attention they gave each other caused an unfamiliar feeling to stir in the pit of his stomach. In the unlabeled space they occupied, he wasn't sure he had the right to feel that way. "Never learned how to play nice and share." Underneath the confident and slight teasing delivery, he felt his own nerves kick in, very aware of what he implied. Still, it didn't seem to be enough to stop him from adding, "Think it'd be pretty stupid of me to go with the second option anyway."

[k1tschs]

granted,  she  did  linger  around  stage  b  for  a  while  before  jennie’s  set.  not  that  she’d  ever  admit  that  to  elvira  —  she  didn’t  stay  long  enough  to  actually  run  into  her  old  bandmate,  but  maybe  that  was  for  the  best.  vada  wasn’t  really  sure  what  she  would’ve  done  if  she  had  anyway.  at  the  mention  of  jennie  never  reaching  out  since  their  fallout,  the  blonde  lets  out  a  scoff.  "  she’s  the  one  who  fucking  ditched  us,  "  she  reminds,  though  she  doubts  elvira  would  ever  forget  it.  "  i’d  be  surprised  if  she  ever  reached  out  to  any  of  us.  i  know  she  wouldn’t.  "  there's  no  reason  for  her  or  any  of  them  to  reach  out  to  jennie  either.  for  once,  they’re  not  snapping  at  each  other,  and  knowing  elvira  might  feel  the  same  way  about  jennie  leaves  her  quietly  relieved.  maybe  she  can  finally  cut  them  some  slack,  the  thought  bringing  a  small  smile  to  her  lips.  looking  back  on  it,  she’s  never  actually  asked  if  the  other  two  felt  betrayed  by  jennie  going  solo  too.  she'd  been  too  caught  up  in  the  fact  that  they  both  wanted  out,  but  then  again,  what  difference  does  it  make?  none  of  them  wanted  to  keep  the  band  going,  despite  vada's  attempts  to  talk  them  into  it,  and  in  the  end,  she  felt  betrayed  by  every  single  one  of  them.  "  well,  fuck  her.  i’m  taking  it  you’ll  be  staying  for  my  set?  "  she  asks,  shooting  elvira  a  glance.

[offkeykisses]

They weren't too sure what to say. Where Vada seemed resentful, they were more mournful. Elvira used to think the friendship between the four of them could withstand anything, but that clearly hadn't been the case. It almost made them wish they never started a band together in the first place. "I didn't expect her to. Never expected her to go solo either, though." Maybe she never knew Jennie the way she thought she did. That seemed more realistic than a personality shift overnight. "Or come back here. Sort of figured she was busy without whatever's going on with her career." They didn't keep up with it. It felt odd to support her and odd not to, so Elvira generally tried not to engage with it at all. They twisted a ring on their finger, uncertain if they wanted to see either set on the off chance they got picked out in the crowd and labeled a quitter in front of the whole town. The parking lot seemed like the most appealing option. "Oh, yeah. I was planning to stay for this whole thing and I don't really know if I have the stomach for her performance." Dark eyes studied Vada for her reaction.

[newdcys]

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“Tomatoes: the fixer of society…” She mused, pretending to consider the sentiment. Before giving him a quick nod. “I support it honestly. Throwing it at some guy with an acoustic guitar singing Hozier? That’s, like, a wildly valid use of vegetables and making a profit? Gold star idea,” Lily shrugged as if the idea wasn’t terrible. The idea was tempting, but she had made it a goal of not being so impulsive that she’d get kicked out. “Oh my god, let’s not skip the fact you just called me one of your best friends.” She placed a hand on her chest, dramatic as ever. “X, I’m honored, truly. I feel like I should frame this moment of softness.” She teased, leaning her hip against the bar, where they had just arrived. “Do you know how annoying it would be to hide the evidence of that? I’m not looking for more work.” She laughed softly. “However, I’d make fun of you so much you wished I had. So if you think about it, same thing.”

[offkeykisses]

"Perfect, I got a seal of approval then. Next time there's something like this and someone gets upset a tomato came flying at them I'll be sure to say, 'hey, I was on the fence about this, but the Lily Preston said it was a gold star idea.' So...if there's an angry mob after you in the future, you know why." His attention was momentarily diverted to the person behind the bar as he ordered a drink. When he turned back to look at her, his expression was one of mock seriousness. "As you should be, it's a highly sought after position." It wasn't. As far as Xavier was concerned, he wasn't the type of person most people wanted in their lives long-term. That was abundantly clear to him by the time he turned sixteen and moving around never left room for the idea to be challenged much. "And one I'm considering revoking now." He shook his head disapprovingly, albeit in jest. "Not at all the same thing. In one of these scenarios I'm dead and free of embarrassment. In the other, I'm alive and being tormented with it." Slight smile started to threaten to break onto his face, "See, this is why a cow gets to hear all my deepest darkest secrets instead of you."

[k1tschs]

to  begin  with,  maria’s  got  a  point.  if  the  person  you’re  singing  about  isn’t  even  in  the  crowd,  or  at  least  listening,  why  bother  at  all?  then  again,  for  someone  who  uses  music  to  vent  most  of  the  time,  vada  could  see  why  he  still  does  it.  "  i  like  how  your  mind  works,  "  she  finally  says,  turning  to  face  maria  with  a  lazy  smirk.  "  if  it  were  me,  i  would’ve  looked  them  dead  in  the  fucking  eye  and  told  everyone  they’re  in  the  crowd.  "  she’s  already  planning  to  do  something  similar  tonight,  though  it’s  a  bit  disappointing  the  person  she  wants  there  most  won’t  be  able  to  make  it.  hell,  she  doesn't  even  know  if  the  other  two  would  show  up.  "  do  you  know  that  jennie  and  i  used  to  be  in  a  band  together?  i  don't  think  it’s  a  coincidence  we’re  up  against  each  other  tonight  . . .  whoever's  in  charge  of  the  scheduling  definitely  knew  what  they  were  doing.  anyway,  i  might  do  a  little  shoutout  during  my  set  later,  "  she  pauses  for  a  beat,  shrugging  lightly.  "  you  should  do  an  article  about  that.  she’d  read  it  if  her  name’s  in  the  headline.  "

[offkeykisses]

She beamed at the compliment. Flattery didn't get a person everywhere with María but it never hurt. More than anything, though, she appreciated Vada's honesty and rejection of the concept of 'forgive and forget.' "Exactly! Especially if they broke my heart." She always had too much of a flair for dramatics and turning everything into a public moment. "Okay, see, I thought I remembered the two of you being in a band together, but then I saw the lineup and thought surely no one was messy enough to put you two on at the same time." Truth be told, she was quietly thrilled about it. There was likely some other drama brewing in a small corner of the festival grounds, but she admittedly wanted to see something bigger. "Kind of shady of whoever put it together. Like, smart, don't get me wrong. There's definitely a marketing tactic there if people are in the know when it comes to the history, but you'd think they'd run it by the two of you to see if you were comfortable with it." All a distant afterthought at the mention of a shoutout. "Oh? You have something planned?" She was likely already going to be at Ruby Valentine's stage but this sealed the deal. "I mean, I definitely could depending on the angle."

[k1tschs]

after  the  previous  set  ends,  she  slips  over  to  the  bar  for  a  drink,  feeling  a  bit  overwhelmed  by  the  constant  high  energy  of  the  night.  head  turns  slightly  at  the  sudden  voice,  interest  flickering  in  her  eyes  at  the  mention  of  one  particular  performance  she’s  heard  people  talking  about  in  passing.  "  is  it  really  that  bad?  "  granted,  she  had  been  on  the  other  side  of  the  venue,  supporting  a  friend.  "  noah  and  wes,  right?  i  wasn’t  there,  but  they  definitely  put  on  quite  a  show.  everyone  seems  to  be  talking  about  it.  "  if  anything,  she  actually  admires  their  courage  to  go  up  there  and  perform  in  front  of  a  crowd  —  something  that  june  can’t  imagine  herself  doing.  it's  too  nerve  -  wracking  for  her  anyway.  "  well,  i  hope  nobody’s  getting  into  fights,  fist  or  not.  "  she  laughs.  "  at  least  not  in  the  middle  of  anyone’s  set.  that  would  be  really  awful.  "  

[offkeykisses]

"Yep, that's the gruesome twosome that may have singlehandedly ruined Grease for a good chunk of the town." Despite how he spoke, he only took issue with one of them. To be honest though, he wasn't sure Wes and him would get along too well either if it wasn't for Xavier's brother linking them in an overly complicated way. "I think if they only performed a single song and people are talking about it this much, then it had to be pretty fuckin' bad." Not necessarily true, and he knew that. Small town and all, people liked to talk about whatever even remotely interesting thing was happening around them. That being said, it had been that bad. "I'm not hopeful. I think I could count the times these things go off without a hitch on a single hand." More consequences of living in a small town. Everyone was so interconnected that putting them in a space together always led to some sort of conflict. He shrugged, "To be fair, I don't know if anyone would notice an argument while they were performing. They're definitely not going to hear it over everything else." A physical fight on the other was a lot harder to ignore.

[fxdedmoon]

“Well that’s nice of you to support his friend. Would you say this Winston guy is a friend of yours too?” From personal experience, Russell knew that having the exact same friend group as your partner could get messy. His friend group from Reno wanted no involvement with either him or his ex after they got Vegas married and split. “Oh, it’s my neighbor performing. She’s obnoxious. We don’t get along.” And that was putting things lightly.

[offkeykisses]

"I'd say so." It was pretty easy for their friend group to overlap due to having very similar dispositions. Usually if one of them got along with someone, then the other did. And to be honest, the concept of things getting messy due to a split wasn't even something her mind registered. Cooper was her forever person, without a single doubt. Rashmi let out a gentle laugh, "Oh, is she the pesky noisy neighbor type?" She felt mild discomfort with labeling someone she didn't know with that title. "Must be hard living next to a musician. I can't imagine practice sessions are all that quiet."

[ecrivainlcvande]

Where: Cider Point Open Mic Night  Who: Maureen @ Rashmi ( @offkeykisses )

Maureen tumbled off the stage off her set, graceless in her enthusiasm, flushed with the success that came with not being booed or the target for a deluge of tomatoes. It had been a mix of musical theater and pop hits -- okay, listen, just two musical theater numbers -- and though she liked to think her voice was just pure magic, she knew it was at least in part because of her energy that people had liked her. She bounced over to a drink cart and ordered a fruit punch, then whirled around to see someone standing behind her in line. “And something for…” She pointed at Rashmi, a cue for her to say her name. “...my friend here, too!”

[offkeykisses]

Her finger immediately flew to her chest before she shook her head, "Oh, no, that's okay, really." It was a kind offer, but she was never very good at being the one to accept something instead of offering it. "You just finished performing, right?" Rashmi had actually missed it, having promised Winston she would watch him. Still, she managed a small glance at the other stage and was fairly certain the other woman had been up there. If not, well, then she just embarrassed herself in this conversation and hopefully Cooper would pop up to save her from it. "If anything, I should be the one grabbing a drink for you. How are you feeling about it?" Despite not knowing the other, she almost compulsively felt the need to check in as if it was her sole responsibility to make sure everyone was having a good time.

[fcreverlasting]

he doesn't tell maría he knows beatriz and vada in his own right, had the former in his car more times than he'd like to admit. could possibly end up with her in the backseat later, too, since he'd already nominated himself designated driver for anyone who'll need it. and, to be fair, he doesn't know about the history between them; it's never been his place to ask and it's not the sort of gossip that gets brought to his chair. he can agree, though, "that is pretty disappointing. a shame for the other members of the band that didn't get to go solo." it might've been their choice, but the way maría presents it, it doesn't seem as such. he realises he doesn't even know if this is about beatriz or vada, figures the latter especially would be all for it if it brings extra heads to their crowd. because his next point is, "maybe they didn't want that kind of buzz for their performance, though. it could overshadow the actual music and their artistry." which seems like a fair point to make, even if he knows maría will hate to hear it. he doesn't answer her question, assumes it's rhetorical, because it's fairly obvious he isn't a 'get up in front of everyone' kind of guy. instead, he shrugs along with her, runs a hand through his hair, remembers he needs a trim. "you know, trying to even the score never feels good for long." it actually tends to feel worse in the long run. at least in his minimal experience. "I'm not saying that! I'm not saying it's not true, I'm just also not saying that it is. I think. anyway, point is, he could've had plenty of different motives. sometimes you have to think outside the box."

[offkeykisses]

"Or just didn't replace their singer. Has to be a lot easier for a singer to make it solo, right?" Admittedly she didn't know all the ends and outs. Sure, she enjoyed music, but mostly to dance to in the club or remember her mother through. What went into it and the industry itself didn't hold her attention too much, not unless there was some sort of scandal involved. "If their music's good enough something like that wouldn't overshadow it." María knew that wasn't necessarily true, she was just hungry for something gossip worthy to happen here. She made a sour face for a split second, disagreeing on his stance completely. "I think you must've done in wrong in the past. It's actually pretty cathartic. Besides, why should someone who's wronged you get off scot-free? And clearly, based on his performance, someone really hurt poor Billy Blue. Pretty unjust the guy is walking around punishment-free." She didn't necessarily care. In fact, she was mostly using it to defend her stance on getting even. "Nate, you don't give a performance like that unless you're thoroughly pissed and hurt by an ex. There's like no other motivation behind it!" While she was always up to get creative with people's motivations, this seemed like an open-and-shut case. "I mean, haven't you ever been in that position? No offense, I'm not saying you'd get brutally dumped. More like, practically everyone has that one ex they should've never wasted their time with."

[ecrivainlcvande]

Maureen gasped at the sight of Elvira, the almost inaudible exclamation nonetheless conveying the level of enthusiasm you might display upon seeing someone you hadn’t laid eyes on in 3-5 business years. “Thank you,” she said easily, beaming at her friend. She considered for a second. Liquid courage she didn’t need, since she was nervous in that fun, buzzy way. “Oooh, you know, water would not be a bad idea,” she said thoughtfully, her brow furrowing. “I mean, like, right? At the very least, I usually just sing in my shower and I sound pretty good in there, so I think it would just be a good omen.” Her head tilted, her smile flickering for a moment as she looked at Elvira. “Hey, is everything good?” she asked softly. 

[offkeykisses]

"Of course." Even with the usual flatness of her delivery, there was something earnest in the supportive words. They eagerly nodded along as they dug in the big bag they brought to produce a water bottle, glad to find themself in a position where they were once again useful to one of their friends. Nice grounding distraction. "I think so too. People underestimate the power of good omens like that. Not that you need extra good energy, like I said, you're going to do great." They handed off the water bottle and resisted the urge to fiddle with any part of their outfit. They trusted their friends, they really did, but they weren't going to burden them with the weird feelings they had with being here. "Totally. Just forgot how much energy this kind of scene has. It's been a while since I've been around live music like this. But it's not negative energy. Nothing but good vibes." That being said, they weren't too confident in their ability to sell it. "Are you staying for the final act or were you going to leave after yours?"

[ilovethismood]

"Me too. Where do you work?" Margot wondered. The best nights were after she had stressful parties and finally got to bed. When the lights started to fade around them, Margot looked toward the closest stage. "Ooh the show is finally starting." She looks at the program in front of her. "It looks like it should be Sloane Murphy and on the other stage is Nicholas Parshaud- Carter. Either one sound better than the other?"

[offkeykisses]

"I'm an elementary school teacher. I love it, but there are certainly days that are longer than others." A small pang of guilt burrowed into her chest for complaining at all. Her students were just kids, even on their worst days she didn't think they really meant anything by it. "What do you do?" Rashmi asked before her eyes flickered between both stages, still unsure of where to start. "Maybe Sloane? I think she's one of the baristas at Costal Coffees? She always seems so lively there, I'm sure her stage presence will have the same kind of energy." Hopefully Nicholas drew in just as big of a crowd, his performance was likely just as good as far as she was concerned.

[sunnydazcd]

"Oh yeah, I bet it is a busy time right now. Do you like working there, at the farm? I love animals, but I'm not so sure I'd be very good at it. Sorry if I'm totally wrong and that's not what you do. I'm just assuming; or is it other things, like more tending to crops and stuff rather than animals?" Wes might have been rambling and it was partly due to the extra energy spike from being on stage, but he genuinely did want to know. "Well at least you managed to make it out tonight! I'm doing well, thanks. Just working mostly, and then I try and make the most of my free time. I spend a lot of it with Noah." Neither of them had been shy about announcing their relationship, but he wasn't sure Xavier really cared to know that much about it. He'd likely seen their performance together. Wes laughed softly, finding it a little difficult to imagine Xavier up there on the stage going wild. Then again, he probably usually wouldn't have pictured himself up there either. "It was kind of oddly freeing," he admitted with a smile. "Clearly I have no talent either, but I still had fun. And c'mon, I would love to hear thirty minutes of Hot Cross Buns! It's a classic for good reason." Wes' sarcasm was a little lighter, but not discouraging. "Well are you at least having a good time?"

[offkeykisses]

"It's not bad. I have a lot of experience in it, so a lot of the tasks are just muscle memory at this point." He wasn't necessarily indifferent towards his job, the physical labor was something he enjoyed and there as a peacefulness he could trust out there, but he wasn't overly passionate about it either. "Bit of both, but animal care is a constant while dealing with crops and general upkeep for equipment and whatnot rotates. I'd honestly rather just deal with the animals and repairs." Overall, though, there were worse things he could be stuck with. At least he wasn't working anything in the customer service realm. Xavier nodded, considering mentioning that there were some people he really wanted to see perform so he would've came out regardless of whether he had to be up early the following day or not. However, he kept it to himself, leaning more private with that sort of thing.

"Right, probably a busy time for you too with summer coming up. Parents trying to get their kids in for swim lessons and all that." He didn't comment on Noah, humorlessly recalling the sentiment of 'if you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything at all' being directed at him many times while he was growing up. "I'm not much of a performer." Not unless heavily masking with bravado and humor counted as a performance. "Hard not to. There's music, alcohol, pretty energized crowd. Makes for a good time." Nothing overly complicated in an emotional sense was going on either, so he couldn't really complain. "I take it you're enjoying yourself too with your freeing performance and whatnot?"

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nose lifting into the air, he lifted two fingers to his forehead in salute. “guardian angel reporting for duty.” it felt good, succeeding, even at something as simple as making his friend smile. he held tight to it, tucked it between his ribs for good luck, hoped it was the first of many good omens for the night to come. “i mean, if you can make it, that would be fuckin' sick. but, you know, if not…no big deal.” it very much was a big deal. “oh, yeah, super stoked. the crowd really doesn't bother me. lightwork." he wanted to throw up. in fact, he's seconds away from running to the closes garbage can. the only things that stop him are his pride and rashmi's opinion of him. still, his fingers fidgeted. “live music, though…small amounts of fuck ups are expected, right? no one's losing their shit if someone switches up a lyric?” 

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"Of course we'll make it." She warmly assured him with a smile that matched her tone. In Rashmi's mind there was no doubt that Cooper and her would be there to cheer Winston on, hopefully in a spot where he could see them. "We can't miss the biggest star of the night after all." Her index finger tapped against the large star he'd drawn next to his own name. As he discussed his feelings towards performing, she watched him carefully, trying to hone in on what he might need right now. "Oh definitely. I doubt anyone expects anything live to go off without a small hiccup here and there. Besides, I think the little imperfections make the performances more special anyway." She offered something a bit more grounded first before shifting into something more blindly optimistic. "I wouldn't worry about that if I were you, though. I have a really strong feeling that your performance will be flawless, and not to brag but I'm usually right about these sort of things." Whether or not that was true wasn't important. It was knowing someone believed in him that much that mattered. "Now, do I get any hints about what you're performing or is it a surprise?"