lia

20f, she/her, intp-t, aroace–lithromantic ☆ finding romance in the mundane. i write about what my mouth could not speak.

[lillessence]

🪶 15.10.24

i am an aroace. to specify my identity as an aromantic, i am a lithromantic who is attracted to both men and women. i am happy to identify as an aro...

but sometimes, i hate myself for being one.

i experience romantic attraction, but it fades once reciprocated; i experience romantic attraction, but i don't want to act on it; i think about being in a romantic relationship, but i don't think it would feel the same once it becomes a reality.

i've always loved being a lithromantic because it means i would never experience getting hurt over romantic relationships or breakups.

but at the same time, it makes me wonder how it would be nice to fall in love—to smile and laugh with the person you're attracted to, to hold their hands and embrace them, to wipe their tears when they cry, to listen to each other's favorite songs, and to be with them when they need you or just because you both want to.

it's fun to think that there will be no risks, but it also hurts to know that there will be no chances.

if only i were capable of falling in love—and capable of handling the feeling of being loved— then maybe i wouldn't feel as shitty as i do right now. :)

[lillessence]

💌 16.04.26

i can never explain how much i miss us before the modular term happened.

i am grateful for everything we’ve done for one another last term—helping one another out to survive the system we weren’t used to, and being one another’s pillars against the pressure that could’ve shaken our guts.

but it was also the time that broke us: our hearts, our minds, our souls, our bonds.

will i be grateful for the hardest time in our friendship? did it strengthen us? or did it weaken us?

in this battle we chose to take individually, did we learn how to love more, or did we learn how to hurt more?

i miss all of you. i hope you are doing well.

[zainabelmeziani]

- Zaïnab El Meziani

[goddessinnerglow]

Become Your Best Version Before 2025 Masterlist

Hello! This is the Become Your Best Version Before 2025 masterlist. It’s a collection of all the posts from the series, gathered in one place to make it easier for you to access and follow along.

I hope you find it inspiring and helpful as you work towards becoming the best version of yourself!

Day 1: What Does Becoming Your Best Version Mean

Day 2: Understanding Yourself / Self-assessment

Day 3: Identifying Limiting Beliefs

Day 4: Identifying Your Core Values

Day 5: Setting SMART Goals That Actually Stick

Day 6: Creating Your Personal Mission Statement

Day 7: Building Better Habits

Day 8: Mastering Time Management

Day 9: Auditing Your Relationships

Day 10: Mastering Your Emotions

Day 11: Taking Care of Your Body

Day 12: Stress Management

Day 13: Financial Planning and Budgeting

Day 14: Career and Purpose

Day 15: The Power of Self-Talk

Day 16: Digital Detox and Mindful Living

Day 17: Decluttering Your Life

Day 18: Creating Healthy Boundaries

Day 19: Self-Care Rituals That Actually Stick

Day 20: Building Confidence

Day 21: Overcoming Fear & Self-Doubt

Day 22: Developing New Skills

Day 23: Personal Style & Self-Presentation

Day 24: Setting Up Progress Tracking Systems

Day 25: Designing Your Accountability Plan

Day 26: Personal Development Tools and Resources

Day 27: Hobbies & Passion Projects

Day 28: How to Keep Yourself Motivated

Day 29: Prioritizing Yourself and Your Needs

Day 30: Creating Your Vision for 2025

Day 31: The Beginning of Your Best Year Yet

*** Divider Credit: @thecutestgrotto ***

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