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[lillillians]

Lillian “Lil” Deville | 24 | Soccer Coach/Student 

Name: Lillian “Lil” Deville Species: Human  Sexuality: Bisexual Pronouns: She/Her  Favorite Song: Fantasy by Mariah Carey Big Three: Aries sun, Taurus moon, Taurus rising  Location: Amity Park

Headcanons:

Lil has had a love-hate relationship with being a twin. When she was little, she wished that her twin was a girl, but growing up with Phil has been the best thing that’s ever happened to her. She would never admit that to Phil himself, but there’s a lot about her that he doesn’t know.

Her favorite sport, out of any of the ones that she’s ever tried, is volleyball. She loves how spontaneous and unpredictable it is. Soccer and softball were so fucking slow and boring, but volleyball? That was the total opposite. She likes to think of it as life itself: quick, pressure-high, and full of adrenaline. Lil wound up going for soccer in college because she was the best at it, but volleyball always had a special place in her heart.

Coaching soccer is her favorite thing to do right now. Sure, school and the prospect of becoming a physical therapist is great, she’d love to have a secure job, but the best part about what Lil has been involved with is coaching. She loves nothing more than seeing the little girls she’s coaching turn into teammates, and then friends.

Lil isn’t exactly in the place she wanted to be at 24, but she’s pretty happy with it for now. Becoming a doctor isn’t exactly an easy thing, after all, and it’s better than Phil and the rest of her childhood friends are doing. She’s really proud of Tommy for starting to figure out what he wants to do with his life, and Angelica seems like she’s already there. Phil, though, is her biggest worry. Sometimes, Lil feels like she should’ve held herself back to take care of him, but her parents pushed her to do otherwise. She knows that she can’t do much about his lack of motivation, but her therapist says that continuing to succeed is the best way to push him to be better, and she hopes that’s the truth.

Discovered makeup when she was in high school, and watched YouTube videos to get better at it. She’s been pretty proficient at doing her own ever since, and Angelica is most definitely better at it, but Lil is confident enough to do her own face when she needs to.

Shops a lot at Lululemon and Urban Outfitters. Athlesiure is her vibe.

Honestly very competitive at anything she does. At home, she’s at pro level with any given sport on the Wii. It’s been a while since she’s played, since Phil keeps the Wii at home, but Lil will not back down from a Wii Tennis fight when she comes to visit.

Kimi is the perfect roommate for her. They’re both fairly clean and know each other’s attitudes better than any person that Facebook could give them. The only other roommate that she had before was Phil, so she can’t really judge. Living with two of her best friends has proven pretty successful, though. Few complaints.

Loves going to concerts and music festivals. Lil is a sucker for glitter and any excuse to use it, she’ll be there. She loves live music and the feeling of being with other fans.

Lil really likes Tucker, but the feelings she has toward Cass and Lena might be even stronger. She’s not really sure where that puts her in terms of her sexuality, but she considers herself bisexual. That feels safe for now.

Has a Tik Tok that she hopes Phil will join her on to become twin famous.

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sabrinaissad·:

Sabrina’s eyes widen. She was making a fool of herself in front of Riley’s girlfriend already and all she wanted to do in that moment was lock herself in her room and cry about it. But she wasn’t going to. She had been letting Riley down time after time and she was done being the worst friend ever. “It is very nice to meet you!” she said with as much enthusiasm as she was capable of. She wanted Lil to feel comfortable and for it to not get so awkward while she waited for Riley. “I’m sure Riley will be back….Can I get you anything? Water…or soda…or alcohol…milk?” She blushed. “I’m so sorry….I’m not…very used to company…..outside of my….not a lot of people…come here…”

Lil was sure that it was nice to meet her, based on the woman’s reaction, but it seemed like she was trying her best. Riley had mentioned that some of their friends had strong emotions, and it had been obvious enough with Joyce, but even more so with this one. “You know, water would be great, actually. It’s good to meet you, too. What was your name, again?” she asked, unsure if the brunette had mentioned it in the fist place. “Well, you don’t have anything to worry about, you can practice with me. Any friend of Riley’s is a friend of mine. You can, um, tell me about yourself, or I can do all the talking, if you’d prefer. No offense, but. you don’t seem like the most talkative person. It’s okay, neither is one of my friends, either.”

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emctionalwhirlwind·:

who: @lillillians· where: lil’s house 

This was the first time Riley had someone they actually wanted to spend the upcoming god-forsaken holiday with. Previous years they’d eaten discount candy and watched movies with their parents until her dad inevitably fell asleep on the couch. That was until Lil came along and now Riley was actually thinking about doing something special, as crazy as it sounded to them when they thought about it. The thing was that Riley had no idea what to do. They weren’t the roses and chocolates kind of couple and that wasn’t going to change to fit into people’s beliefs of what this day entailed. Riley wanted it to be special for Lil, whatever anyone else thought didn’t matter to them. First and foremost they had to make sure this was even something their girlfriend wanted to do. After rolling over on Lil’s bed and set down their game controller, having been throughly demolished. “Hey, I know it’s like super cheesy and stuff but like… Would you want to like, I don’t know, do something on Valentines Day? You know, together?”

Lil had been planning on asking her girlfriend to do something for the upcoming holiday of love, but it seemed that they had beaten her to the punch. She knew that Riley wasn’t the most sappy kind of person, and neither was Lil herself, but it was their first Valentine’s Day together, after all. She couldn’t think of a better excuse to celebrate how happy she was with Riley, though, and if it took commercialism and a religious name to give her just that, then so be it. “You want to do Valentine’s Day? Sorry, who are you and what have you done to my Riley?” Lil teased, giving their shoulder a squeeze. “Well, I used to have this single tradition that I carried on by myself every year, but I guess you can join me for it. It does involve classic rom-coms, baking, and rose, if that sounds appealing to you. I mean, unless you wanted to go fancy, because we totally could. Movies can always come after.”

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directorpickles·:

“Hey, it’s a cult classic!” Tommy was quick to defend himself with another laugh. “And like I said, there was a reason behind it — you know I had to make sure she understood the reference to my costume, I couldn’t just leave her out of the loop.” Despite all the weirdness and how the date was nothing typical of a usual first date, things still went well, which only made his interest in Kim grow. She’d really caught him by surprise by how cool she was. “You’re right, I should’ve run it by you first, I guess I’ll know for next time,” he chuckled before sipping from the can again. “Hey, don’t get any ideas. I’m gonna keep a close eye on you two,” he teased as he pointed a finger at her. “I’m excited for you to meet her, though, really.”

“Yeah, and by calling it a cult classic, that makes it weird. I don’t know anything about those, but I know they’re reserved for special film nerds like you.” Lil laughed along with him, shaking her head in disapproval. At least the girl had stuck around long enough since Halloween; that had shown the most promise out of what he’d told her. “Yeah, only because I’m the only one with a girlfriend out of any of us! You can’t even deny that, because it’s true,” she teased, her smile turning into a smirk. “I’m the coolest one out of any of us, so yeah, you should let me meet her first. You really want to scare her away with your cousin from hell or with the loose canon, Dil?” Though Lil loved both of the Pickles, she had to admit, she was the best choice, as was Tommy, when she’d introduced Riley to him. 

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“Since you said you were interested,” she said as though it were obvious, giving a shrug of her shoulders. Lil knew that she hadn’t make the situation between her friends any better by getting so upset about her brother and Kimi, so she wanted to try and make it up to Dil now. Even if she didn’t really care about what they were looking at, she would certainly make it seem like she did for their sake. “A smoothie sounds perfect actually, yeah. I don’t want to, like, intrude on your research, or anything--I can work on my homework until you’re done, if you want,” she offered. With the semester starting back up, she had most of her school supplies on her at all times. “We should do pizza and smoothies, what do you think?”

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"They'd say I played the field before I found someone to commit to." - Angelica

“Well, as you should.” Lil had grown closer to Angelica after going to her from support throughout her time not speaking to Phil, who had been admittedly the last person who she thought she would be leaning on. In all honesty, the blonde wasn’t as terrible of a person as she had originally thought her to be. That didn’t mean they were going to be best friends or anything, but it was a start toward a semblance of friendship. “You’re young and hot, why shouldn’t you? But also, we’re too old to be wasting time on people who don’t deserve it.” Lil had never seen Angelica date anyone seriously, though, in the time that she knew her. Maybe it was the wine that was making her feel more comfortable, but Lil knew she shouldn’t push it and ask about something so personal already. “But I wouldn’t think that you would, anyway.” 

@classicpickles

[lillillians]

"Hell is when I fight with you." - phil

Lil let out a sigh. Was this some sort of semblance of an apology? She wasn’t really sure that she was going to get much better than this, though she had hoped to hear better from her brother during her visit home. They were truly twins: both stubborn, especially when it came to each other, and there really was no winning at the end of the day. The two had tortured each other and suffered enough, and Lil was so tired of feeling like she was blowing things out of proportion, the longer they fought. It was in her power to move them forward, and maybe it was finally time to take advantage.

“I know,” she acknowledged finally, falling back on her bed to take a seat. She had stood up, ready to be on defense the moment she’d seen him come into her room. Lil pat the spot next to her, motioning for him to come sit. “Listen, I think ... this has gone on long enough. Way longer than it needed to in the first place. I know we’re both tired of this. At least, I am,” she admitted, letting out a small laugh. “Can we just move the fuck on already?”

@philthedeville

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sabrinaissad·:

closed starter location: sab and alex’s apartment @lillillians·

Sabrina knew Riley spent a lot of time at her apartment shared with Alex, but she didn’t know it was getting to the point that people looked for her there. She always saw their apartment as a little oasis for Riley so seeing a girl at her door was a bit of a surprise. Riley wasn’t there and she wasn’t quite sure where they went. but she wasn’t going to just let their guest stand outside all day. So she invited the girl in and gave her a small smile. With the way life was, she was trying to keep as much of her sadness to herself as she could, especially around this stranger. “I am assuming you’re looking….for Riley….they are out….at the moment….but I can….take a message or….get you some tea…if you wanted to wait….” She realized she hadn’t asked for a name and felt so stupid for not doing as such. “I…sorry…..can I ask….for a name…?”

Lil was working on meeting more of Riley’s roommate and friends, and though she’d come across a rather energetic one in the park one day, the girl who had opened the door for her now couldn’t be more opposite. She spoke so lethargically, almost as though each phrase took an immense amount of effort to get out. “Yeah, Riley, I can shoot them a text and see when they’ll be back,” she offered, speaking almost quicker than normal to make up for the lost time. Lil took a seat on the sofa, giving the other girl back a smile. “I’m Lil, Riley’s girlfriend? It’s so nice to meet you, I’ve been meaning to meet some of her friends, but, um, things have been pretty complicated with my own lately, so, no time like the present!”

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beepkim·:

closed starter for @lillillians· location: ketcham park

Kim was in the middle of stretching for her morning jog in the park when a rogue soccer ball rolled by her feet. With a swift kick, she returned the ball to the lone player on the grass before being invited to a quick game. It had been a while since she’d played soccer but she wasn’t going to let the opportunity to play a round or two pass her by. The game had started off fairly easy, Kim was allowed to show off a bit with the skills she’d picked up over the years playing against her brothers who had been on a soccer team. Her competitive nature was starting to show once she realized winning was not going to be easy against her opponent. The other seemed to have way more knowledge on the game and while their skills impressed her, she wished she knew what she was getting into before she signed up to play. Still, she was having fun, it had been a while since she’d come across good competition.

Even with her best efforts, it was clear she was not going to be the victor in this game. It was a tough pill to swallow but exactly what she needed to tell herself before she’d lost the match. “You play a mean game,” Kim stated as she went in for a post-game handshake. “Have I been playing against a famous soccer player without realizing it?”

Lil didn’t have much time to play soccer competitively anymore, but some of her friends who she used to play with in high school liked to play pick up games in the park, and she almost never said no. With how warm the weather was, she was taking advantage and found herself at Ketcham when she spotted someone who looked vaguely familiar from her amateur cyber-stalking. Lil knew the redhead as the girl with whom Tommy had gone on a date, and she was determined to get to know her. With a kick of the ball, she sent it in the direction of Kim, who was quick to join the game. She was good, good enough to invite back again next week if it stayed this warm.

With a quick shake of her hand, Lil gave the girl a smile in greeting. “Me? God, no. I coach elementary-aged girls, but that’s about it. You’re not too bad yourself.” She didn’t want to sound creepy, but how else was she supposed to let Kim know that she knew who she was? “I, um, okay, this is going to sound weird, but I know you. Like, not that we’ve ever met before, but you went on a date with Tommy Pickles, right? He’s one of my best friends, and he might’ve told me about how he accidentally ordered you pizza. An idiot, I know, but I love him, anyway.”

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"This is our place, we make the rules." - Riley

For the first time in forever, Riley and Lil had her apartment all to themselves. Lil had only gotten back to her place right after the holidays, once she and Kimi had sorted everything out, and to be given some space from Tommy and Chuckie felt amazing. Not that she didn’t love them, and she’d always be grateful for how generous they’d been with giving her a space to live, but being surrounded by two boys at all times was a lot. With Kimi staying at her parents’ house for the night, Lil had decided to take ahold of the opportunity in front of her, inviting Riley to stay over.

“Isn’t it the best feeling?” she agreed, her smile wide. Freedom was a feeling that had been fleeting lately, and to have it back in her grasp with the person who she wanted to share it most was incredible. “What should we do tonight? We have the entire place to ourselves, a very incredible invention called takeout at our disposal, and I’m here with you, what could be better?” Lil placed a peck on Riley’s lips, sliding her hand into theirs. “Where do we even start?”

@emctionalwhirlwind

[lillillians]

"You've been stressed out lately." -Tommy

Lil rolled her eyes at him, who was only deflecting because he didn’t want her to talk about how she had not-so-accidentally run into a certain redhead during her soccer game. Now that she’d seen Kim’s soccer skills, she was pretty convinced to let her on her team for next week. It wasn’t the craziest idea she’d ever had. “Okay, I don’t want to hear about that, okay? I told you, he was an asshole, per usual. Literally, somehow even worse than New Year’s, if that’s possible. I was trying to make amends, but you know he’s thickheaded.” With a roll of her eyes, she cracked the next seltzer from the table that she’d laid out, their first night back together since she’d moved back to her place. She was hosting this time; it was the least she could do for Tommy after what he’d done for her. “Kim, though? Fantastic soccer player. You didn’t tell me she was my type, too. You’re lucky I have Riley, or else I would be moving in on your girl, Pickles,” Lil teased, giving him a nudge. 

@directorpickles

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"I say I don't want that, but what if I do?"

“Are you talking about another slice of pizza, or something else?” Lil asked, letting out a small sigh as the words left her lips. She knew exactly what her friend was talking about, but the last thing she wanted to talk about was whether she wanted to actually date her twin or not. It was the last thing that Lil wanted to think about, the worst possible outcome to the two of them hooking up. Though they had both denied that anything more would happen, Lil was still fearful, given how much Kimi had been walking on eggshells around her and saying cryptic shit like this. “You know I’m here for you to talk about whatever, whenever, but I don’t know if I can right now if this isn’t about the pizza, which I’m pretty sure it isn’t. Also, I’m taking the last slice, because you did say you didn’t want it,” Lil reminded her, her hand grabbing the last piece of pizza in the box.

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directorpickles·:

Tommy knew Lil would get a kick out of his first date story, laughing along with her and rolling his eyes. “It was supposed to be a casual thing, alright? Nothing fancy,” he chuckled, holding the white claw can in his hands. “No, I actually showed her Rocky Horror, ‘cause she didn’t get what our costumes were supposed to be on Halloween. Probably not the best first date film, but we had a lot of fun,” he shrugged. “Yeah, I hope so. Maybe I’ll ask her if she knows any vegan restaurants around here.” He took a sip from the can, mind wandering as he thought of other things they could talk about. He knew Lil’s dating life was going well, but not so much with her brother or Kimi. He wasn’t sure if he should avoid talking about them or not tonight. “You’d love her, though. She’s awesome. I’ve just been .. hesitant to bring her around, with all the tension.”

Though she wanted to continue to tease him for not thinking of the other girl’s dietary choices, at least it had all worked out in the end. Kim must’ve really liked him if she could look past his stupidity and lack of vegan food. “Wait--I was going to let this go, I really was, but you showed her Rocky Horror on your first fucking date?” she asked, eyes wide. Who the hell had told him that was aa good idea to impress a girl with? “Yeah, I don’t think you have anything to worry about if this girl sat through that abomination of a film without anything to eat but microwave popcorn. She’s definitely into you. I mean, I do question her sanity a little bit for sticking around, but the girl’s dedicated, I’ll give her that. Just let me talk to her, I’m good with the girls, obviously,” she teased, giving him a smirk.

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herhotness​:

Lindsay made her way over to the couch Lil was on and got comfy. She could tell Lil was troubled; she was pretty good at noticing things like that. At least in her own opinion she was. When she mentioned Phil, she shook her head a little sadly. “Nope. Like, he kinda ghosted me? It’s soooo not cool. I mean, sorry! I know he’s like, your twin and stuff.” She wondered why Lil was asking. Couldn’t she just text him or something? “I could never live with more than one guy. Too much grossness! And like, it really is all of them. Total Drama showed me that boys are simply, like, so messy. And even with stuff like, emotions!” She set her makeup kit near her feet when she sat down and she pulled it to her chest. “You know what makes me feel better when I’m surrounded by guys? A makeover!”

Lil couldn’t help but roll her eyes with a sigh; of course her brother had ghosted the blonde. Nothing would surprise her at this point when it came to her brother. “I hate to say that I’m not even a little shocked. He’s been ... kind of off the rails lately.” She didn’t want to dive deep into the details after Phil had already ripped her a new one for telling Chuckie about he and Kimi, but Lindsay did deserve an answer. “You’re telling me. I wouldn’t worry about Phil--it has nothing to do with you, but with him just being a hot mess.” A makeover wasn’t entirely her idea of fun, but she supposed it was the least she could do to cheer the blonde up. “What exactly do you have in mind? I’m not, um ... I can’t say I’ve ever had a makeover done before.”

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itskimibtch·:

Kimi let out a breath she didn’t realize she had been holding. It wasn’t an acceptance of the apology, but was acknowledgement, and she would take that. She didn’t think Lil had stopped loving her, she was just hurt and upset and angry, but hearing her confirm that was a relief. If they could’ve handled it differently, if she hadn’t walked in and found out on her own, maybe it wouldn’t have been… different. Maybe everything would’ve been okay by now. “No,” she stated immediately, but then the hesitation came.

“We kissed.” Had she not been teetering on drunk, Kimi might’ve considered keeping that to herself to avoid putting Phil in more hot water with his sister if he hadn’t already told her. But she had blurted it out without thinking about it. She couldn’t keep something like that from Lillian, only for her to find out later. “I kissed him since. Once. But it wasn’t… nothing else happened. We just played Mario Karts. Like actually this time. I swear. I’m just confused. But I’ve barely spoken to him since then. It’s… in the past.” 

Part of her almost felt bad that Kimi and Phil hadn’t spoken in a while. She knew that she probably had something to do with the wedge that had come between them, but at the same time, it was their own faults that they’d never be able to see each other the same way again. While the last thing Lil wanted was for Kimi and Phil to date, she also would’ve respected their decision had at least something come out of it. To wreck all of their friendships for one night and a kiss seemed stupid.

“I see,” she said simply, pursing her lips. She had no idea how to respond to that, how Kimi wanted her to react, even. “I believe you." Lil didn’t think Kimi would try to pull something on her that would just wreck their friendship even more. “Listen, I know this has been taken too far. I’ll get over it, okay? I was, and still am, more mad at Phil than you. Don’t tell him I said that, though, or else he’ll just get even more angry that I said so.” She was just tired of the fighting, and tired of not having her best friend. “As long as you bake for me when I get back, I’ll be there,” she teased, a hint of a smile finally showing.

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the-chuckster·:

[ closed starter : @lillillians· ]

There probably wasn’t a single person in town that understood why Chuckie was so upset over Phil and his sister. Except Lil. Though Chuckie knew he was struggling he wanted to be there for Lil too. He knows how much Lil loves Phil, he always admired her for it. When they were younger the twin’s relationship made him wish for a twin of his own, or a sibling. Someone who is there for you all the time. Someone to turn to. He can’t imagine how weird this must be for her.

Chuckie and Lil sat on his couch, sipping the bubble tea he picked up for them. “How did it go with Phil? I know I need to talk to Kimi but I can’t bring myself too. I kind of, reached out then left her on read. You’re brave Lil.” Chuckie took a long drink out of his dairy free milk tea. “Do we need to take the gaslight test? I printed out a copy of the list. I’ve found it useful to have on hand.” He turned to Lil and smiled. “You know, the one silver lining in this situation is the fact that we get to spend more time together.”

Lil was grateful beyond words for Tommy and Chuckie. She couldn’t think of how to repay them for letting her stay with them for so long, but the least she could do was try. The very least she could do was be there for Chuckie; the only person who knew what it felt like to be in her shoes. He was always pretty quiet, but he had to have thoughts about this, and all Lil wanted was to hear them for herself.

“Terribly,” she said simply, letting out a sigh. Her chat with her brother outside of the party at Susie’s had been a dumpster fire, to say the least. Lil didn’t know when they were going to recover, but it didn’t seem like soon. She let out a laugh, though she wasn’t sure if the use of a gaslight test was supposed to be funny or not. “I think he wants me to back the fuck off until the end of time. Like, the more I want him to grow the hell up, the less he wants to.”

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philthedeville·:

Phil let Lil push past him and storm outside. He let out an exasperated sigh before following her, closing the door behind them. “Fine. You know what? I don’t regret a damn thing. Is that what you want to hear? I’m sorry that you found out the way you did. I’m sorry people are upset. But I’m not sorry that Kimi and I grew closer and that you have a problem with it.” Phil scoffed. “No, you chose to go live with them. No one made you leave your apartment. You did that on your own. Yeah, sure, Chuckie deserved to know. You could have at least let his own sister tell him.” Phil crossed his arms over his chest, just as she had. Maybe it was a scary twin thing how in sync they had done it. “Just stop it. Stop worrying about what I do. I don’t need you to worry. I’m fine. I’m just doing my own thing and figuring shit out still. You think I feel great about my life choices? No one’s fucking perfect, Lillian. Not even you. I don’t need you to prevent whatever you think is going to happen. I need you to get the fuck off my case. So fucking what I smoke, or whatever. It’s not like I’m actively doing self destructive shit.” He noticed the glistening in her eyes from her tears and felt a little guilty. “Just stop this now. Why do we always have to fight?” He let out another sigh and hesitantly took a step closer to his sister. “Just let this shit go, Lil. Just…relax. It’s over and done with. No one can change the past.” He bit the inside of his cheek, unsure of how to feel or what to say. “I love you, okay? You’re always going to be a pain in my ass, but irregardless you’re my sister and I love you. I am sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. I just think you need to take a breath and relax.” 

The more she wanted he and Kimi apart, the more determined he was to push them together. In the same way, the more Lil wanted him to grow up and get out of their parents’ house, the less he wanted that for himself. If he really wanted her to back off, fine, but he wasn’t going to be the one coming to her for help when he ruined his life and all his friendships. “You think I could’ve lived with Kimi when all I can picture in my head when I see her is you sleeping with her?” she asked incredulously, raising a brow. It wasn’t even a lie: the image was ingrained in her head, despite it being the very last thing she wanted to think about. “You just don’t get it, and that’s fine, but you can’t expect me to sit around and act happy about your choices. You don’t think this is self destruction? That’s cute.” She was done being nice to him: he just wanted her to drop everything and move on, but the last thing she wanted to hear was to relax. “Don’t tell me to relax, Phillip, and don’t tell me to get over it. You don’t want me to tell you how to live your life? Fine, but don’t tell me how to live mine. You’re only sorry because I yelled at you, not because you actually mean it. If you were, you would’ve said it over the holidays, or even when I caught you in the first place.”