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One born every minute

You were selling a fantasy

I was not even in the market

promises of a dream get away like I have always wanted

I bought the most expensive package on installments after your pitch

you failed to mention this was a time share

#covertnarc #gaslighting #ambient abuse

I am not alright

so I will write

until it feels right

that only me is left

-Lilly Soque

#breakup #heartbreak #soulmate #empathic #emotional abuse #ambient abuse #gaslighting

Escape is an artform

I have removed the physical restraints which have been used historically as a means of my control

Left with only the invisible hooks that were planted in some distant past

Growing slowly in the recesses of my mind blooming into my subconscious to prevent my exit and pull me back

Doomed to forever fulfill the whims of the greedy

Servitude now disguised as choice

Choice made through fear and despair

Illusionary freewill

I fight the will being thrust on to my own

Violently forcing aside liberty

Reaching for what is lost when the mind is breeched and robbed of any sense of self or uniqueness

sanity and discerning the origins of thoughts ideas and actions

Slipping

Sourcing the cause of desires and deeds

Losing

I can feel the hooks pulling me I know they are there

Reeling me back to the net which I escaped

the tide tosses me to and fro sweeping me farther out away from the net

Away from the net is not equal to freedom

Away from the net is only a new kind of slavery

The tide can not carry me very far anyway

The hooks are there to pull me back

-Lilly Soque

#targeted individuals #morgellons #emotional abuse #ambient abuse

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“I have this weird, incurable disease that seems like it’s from outer space, but my health’s the best it’s been in a while, Two nights ago, I went out for the first time since Dec. 23: I don’t look so bad under incandescent light, but I look scary under daylight. Garbo and Dietrich hid away just because people became so upset watching them age, but this is worse. Fibers in a variety of colors protrude out of my skin like mushrooms after a rainstorm: they cannot be forensically identified as animal, vegetable or mineral. Morgellons is a slow, unpredictable killer — a terrorist disease: it will blow up one of your organs, leaving you in bed for a year. But I have a tremendous will to live: I’ve been through another pandemic — I’m a polio survivor, so I know how conservative the medical body can be. In America, the Morgellons is always diagnosed as “delusion of parasites,” and they send you to a psychiatrist. I’m actually trying to get out of the music business to battle for Morgellons sufferers to receive the credibility that’s owed to them.”

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Joni Mitchell regarding her Morgellons condition