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mid week reminder !

I have been Halsey for so long. For most of this time, I never stopped to think about what I actually wanted. I just fulfilled the prophecy I thought was laid out for me. When I was 19 years old I woke up every day to a new article proclaiming me some sort of future monolith. I wanted to prove them right. I sat in that doctor’s office and filled my body with poison. I watched my face collapse and my hair disintegrate and my bones screamed into the void for help. It was then I realized, if I were ever to do it again, I would do it for me. I don’t want the prophecy. I just want to make stuff. Forever.

tiredandlonelymuse

This is how I originally wrote it. One of those that starts as a poem and then begs to be a song. I posted a fragment of this on tumblr a while back, but here’s the initial piece in its entirety 🤍