TIRED SOUL

as i go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life.. delight, surprise, chagrin and dismay.. i hold this question as a guiding light: "what do i really need right now to be happy? what i come up to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way hello there i’m zai! a slave of worldly things, thinker in misery, dreamer in fantasy, a successful LOSER in love, clumsy, dumb and a tired soul lmao but ughhh never mind..

[lilsassyzai]

happy 25th b*atch! https://www.instagram.com/p/CWTF-2nBpScmzorbszf5mgh6V5CMkLGKGTPbD00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Happy birthday to this PRINCESS and one of the fiercest bitches alive!! You’re truly such a blessing in my life (forevs) and the way you’ve impacted everyone around you. Wouldn’t have been able to get through my japan life w/o you and your mga sagpa sa katotohanan truly grateful for that.. love you forevs! 😚 @supergemprincess (at Tokyo Japan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWTB99VhYgtOoXn-MFi5iNYgeI9DKxZcb22vUg0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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a day to celebrate that i haven’t died in the last year.. awe! anotha year older ✨ 0919 (at Tokyo, Japan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT96bC_hhLgQobG0JWqnpgNj-df-kZOIdGvKbU0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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souris.. (at 東村山市) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQKwi0EgoN4dVXXbdJ2aSG6YfSR3eA803wJXUU0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[lilsassyzai]

We are inviting you to watch GROOVESTYLZ 18 . Tomorrow, June 5 | 8pm PH time GUDCinternational 🇯🇵🇰🇷🇨🇳 together with 22 other Performances . Live at the GUDC OFFICIAL Youtube Channel 📺 SUBSCRIBE NOW 👇👇👇 https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsPf5sJ4A3aK6V6Xb6vGYRA . . #GSR18 #GrooveStylz18 #Relate #GUDC #15years #GUDCinternational (at Japan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPsp2pQAjKnwazP3vgA80tielLZN5eSsQFxmXs0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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the feels of spring sunshine 🌸 202104 (at 稲荷山公園) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNPd-b1AWuZTYWpkvOWVpSD7Wanyi4DuD0faHw0/?igshid=10ydtuvz4jcvc

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the feels of spring sunshine 🌸 202104 https://www.instagram.com/p/CNPd5ezALg6xgNgmr4oBV0vScUYqv9EvcUE1zE0/?igshid=1ftbtgtgqkt81

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the feels of spring sunshine 🌸 202104 (at 稲荷山公園駅) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNPdtd1gURnYMJkkG2seeLTIYNzlAieNVwVigo0/?igshid=mh4ivh2flpju

[clothingatitsfinest]

it took me so long to realize my toxic friendships so here are some of the signs from my experience:

- bailing on your plans last minute;

we made plans all the time but when the day came i would always be the one left in the dust with a half-assed excuse as to why they couldn’t come... i was always expecting to be canceled on and was surprised when they didn’t

- running to you during hard times but not being there for you

i was always the first one she would go to when she was sad, but when i needed someone she wasn’t there

- making you feel guilty about things you shouldn’t feel guilty about

got in a fight because i finally spoke up about how i’ve felt for years, and then once i started to distance myself for my own good i got the “i deserve better than this” speech...

- always wiping away their tears when they cause yours

was i always making her feel better and helping her? yes. was she the cause of my tears most of the time? also yes. <<and that’s not okay!

- getting dropped the second something “better” came along

we were inseparable, right? well, right until she met a new friend and then there was never time for me anymore.and once that friend was gone she was running back to me with the “we haven’t talked in so long !!”

so, i stepped away. i did what i’ve needed to do for so long. and if you have these toxic friendships i strongly encourage you to step away too. you realize how much other people care. you realize that doing all the work to keep someone happy isn’t a friendship. you realize that a friendship is building eachother up and there’s effort from both people. and i know it can be hard because sometimes your toxic friendships are with the people you consider your best friends. but if they really want you in their lives they will start to make an effort once you’ve left. if they dont make an effort to build a real friendship again then you aren’t losing anything important and you’re much better off without them.

[rawhoneybliss]

May you attract those who know you on a soul level. May you attract those who lift your spirit up. May you attract those with pure and loving intentions. May you attract those who genuinely want to see you flourish. May you attract those who are happy for your abundance. May you attract those who inspire you to keep going.

[lilsassyzai]

been a long time.. tumblr

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#blacklivesmatter ✊🏻✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿 https://www.instagram.com/p/CA9EmJNAAqL/?igshid=1j67ddtn5ekvv

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Dクラスのフィリピン人 🇵🇭 reprezent.. bisaya reprezent yiiih! 200309 https://www.instagram.com/p/B_IRYI7A2jX/?igshid=hp58m480zrlw

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AとBクラス 🎓200309 https://www.instagram.com/p/B_IQ83WAKk9/?igshid=vyup8978up7y