While I do age regress and have done so basically since I was born, I also feel like a permachild/permanent child, I hate when people bring up what age I'm turning this year, I get so frustrated and angry at stupid ass clothing companies who put a goddamn age limit on all the cute clothing like seriously take a look at the teenage section compared to kids it looks so depressing and bland, I wish I was smaller I wish I did not have to grow up, I don't wanna be see as an adult, I don't want the expectations and the pressure that come with being an adult, I'm already stressed enough as is! I don't need it to get worse, how am I supposed to survive in this world when I can't even see myself as anything other than kid, I feel like I wasn't made to be a functioning adult and I mean this in a very literal sense, I don't have many talents that could ever help me in the future, I struggle with basically everything, HELL I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER TO DO BASIC TASKS TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF LIKE REMEMBER TO EAT OR DRINK, I GET SO FRUSTRATED AT MY STUPID ASS BRAIN BECAUSE SOMETIMES I STRUGGLE TO EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT TO EAT!, even when I do something independent It's nothing like "wow I'm so mature" and it feels more like "toddler who put their shoes and coat on by themselves", worst part is that I have no name for what this is and I don't understand myself at all, I could just say it's autism but that feels wrong, there's loads of autistic people who are defo more "normal" than I am and they have no issues with how old they are, such pointless things are so important to me and I get upset when it's not there like school discos and pantomime trips or Christmas dinner, no other teen or adult gives a damn about these things more than they should, I wish to be treated as a child but not like an idiot, I want people to talk to me in a way that isn't complicated and is easy to understand, I want people to not expect more from me than what I'm capable of, I want people to be patient with me, I don't want to be an example to little kids, I don't wanna be someone to look up to, I don't wanna be see as a creep for being stuck as a kid